I have a long week ahead of me. As I basically spent all of last week after work getting high I decided when I had only 5 pills left I would give myself a break and use them to taper, lose of a bit of my tolerance by having a couple of weeks off. So starting tomorrow I get one pill every morning for the next 5 days to make my withdrawals just manageable enough that I can continue my job without too much interference. This coming down from the 8 pills I have been taking every evening.
Had a conversation with a friend yesterday that made me realise that there are some people out there that have the same mindset as me. We were discussing the reasons we got high. It's because both of us think that at least at this point in our life we spend our days counting down to 5pm then waiting for the weekend. We'd be this way drugs or no drugs because we realised that, that is life for the next 50/60 years. It's dull, repetitive and boring.
It leaves us no choice but to find other ways to make life seem more interesting. Thats why we both turn to drugs so that it is interesting, interesting is far more important to me than fun or exciting because if it isn't interesting I just feel bored, my mind needs constant stimulation and my life just doesn't bring that. Books, the internet and drugs are the only things that can keep my mind happy and interested.
Ignorance really is bliss, being stupid you can be happy a lot easier. I envy ignorant people sometimes. Some people spend their life chasing the dragon, I spend my chasing my brain, most people don't even interest me.
Had a conversation with a friend yesterday that made me realise that there are some people out there that have the same mindset as me. We were discussing the reasons we got high. It's because both of us think that at least at this point in our life we spend our days counting down to 5pm then waiting for the weekend. We'd be this way drugs or no drugs because we realised that, that is life for the next 50/60 years. It's dull, repetitive and boring.
It leaves us no choice but to find other ways to make life seem more interesting. Thats why we both turn to drugs so that it is interesting, interesting is far more important to me than fun or exciting because if it isn't interesting I just feel bored, my mind needs constant stimulation and my life just doesn't bring that. Books, the internet and drugs are the only things that can keep my mind happy and interested.
Ignorance really is bliss, being stupid you can be happy a lot easier. I envy ignorant people sometimes. Some people spend their life chasing the dragon, I spend my chasing my brain, most people don't even interest me.
