sick of it all

[chdza]

I wont pull the plug soon, but if my health never gets better I probably will at some point.

Only 21 but been having some symptoms of prostatitis and IBS for around 4 months, there is no cure for either condition.

Thoughts of suicide cross my mind most days but then I think about the impact it would have on my family and I can't put them though that,
that just makes me even sadder, wanting to die but knowing you can't.

Pretty much everything I previously enjoyed in life has been taken away from me during this time. Let alone the symptoms I have to deal with.

I use to spend most days smoking cones with mates or at home and then on the weekends would go out and get drunk and or amped up.

But now I can't smoke weed, can't drink booze, hell can't really even have a coffee and no way in hell am I touching any psychedelics.
But more so the social impact that this has had to my life has been huge. Most of the time when I caught up with mates weed either be havin' a few drinks,
bongs or some harder shit. So i haven't caught up with that many people recently. I also live in Australia and we have a big beer drinking culture, especially during the summer.

I can't really think of anything in life that this won't affect; finding a girl, jobs, traveling etc. I find it hard to enjoy the small things.

This causes me quite a lot of anxiety and depression especially the fact that I may not get any better health wise.

I realise there are people that have it worse than me but nether the less this has rocked me pretty hard.

This isn't your usual dark side post, not dealing with withdrawls or anything, don't know if I'll get any replies as it's a long post and different but I just need to get all this shit off my chest as I haven't really told anyone the extent this is effecting me.

 

[Legerity]

Sorry to hear about the health issues. I have not experienced the same conditions but I've had mysterious digestive disorders that come and go and which nobody has been able to cure. Ended up dropping a tone of weight looking anorexic I could eat normally again. Definitely interfered with my ability to go out and enjoy time with friends, eat good food, etc. No need to minimize the effects of it on you, if it is affecting your social life then that can be something difficult to accept.

From what I know, mainstream medicine is woefully inadequate at dealing with digestive problems. Doctors do not really know what IBS is, and will use this label when they are unable to find a specific cause of your symptoms.

Have you tried any alternative health approaches? There is a lot out there that may be helpful.

 

[Ravr]

Have you been diagnosed as having IBS or did you self-diagnosis? Stomach problems are usually a indication of various ailments. If you have been diagnosed as having IBS then try coenzyme q10 for a month or 2.

 

[Pchild]

To original OP,

I have never had your exact issues but your post interested me. You seem so angry about basically losing your choice to drink party, ect. And I know at 21 thats quite important. Hell it was for me too.
But I think when you cool down, think about things and especially get a little older, you will find there is a lot more going on than just partying. I'm sure you will meet plenty of people that are quite happy socializing without mind altering substances. Give it some time.

I know you think its just not fair at a young age to be straddled with such limitations. But I know plenty of diabetics that can't drink either. Never been able to. And the ones I know are not considering suicide. You WILL get through this. Give it some time.
Care

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Why wouldn't you consider touching psychedelics? Sometimes they have a profoundly positive effect on your life, and can be a very spiritually empowering experience.

And again, why can't you smoke weed?

 

[chdza]

Thanks for the replies, I'll answer some of your questions.

No one really knows whats wrong with me, I was diagnosed with IBS by one doctor but I don't agree with it, most of my problems are urinary anyway not stomach/digestive. I've read a lot on prostatitis and that's personally what I think I have.

yeah I am angry that I can't party etc but that's not the full extent of it. Its also the amount of embarrassment that going to the loo more often causes, going to the bathroom is rarely discussed and generally seems stigmatized by western culture. I would feel a lot more comfortable discussing my issues with people if it was diabetes for e.g. instead of say prostatitis.

I don't think that I'm in the correct midstate to touch psychedelics atm seeing as how I'm feeling, I figure I would just dwell on my problems even more and have a bad time.

Can't smoke weed coz it now causes me pain in the pelvic region.