Sick n Tired! Need suggestions please, cuz I cant go on like this!!

[HelloKitty29]

Hey all! Hope everyone is having a good day!! I am at a total crossroads right now. In the past I have posted how I wanted to get clean for the first time just for me! Not because my family was forcing me. I have a 10 month old son and i need to be ok for him. Im finally detoxed an all got some klonapin to help me but im done with that too. I get paid friday and Im so scared because I know that I will be on the west side getting H. I know that anything can happen over there. I have used opiates for 13 years on and off. I no i wont have the will power to stay clean when I get paid Friday! So I made an appointment with a suboxone dr on friday night after work! The cravings are bad and im not strong enough to stay away from the spot. I have been on suboxone before and it did wonders for me. Any thoughts??? Thanks in advance!!!!!

 

[HelloKitty29]

my question is does suboxone sound right for my situation?

 

[HeWhoHowls]

I cant answer any questions regarding medicine cuz im no doctor n i kno close to nothing bout suboxone.
But my advice would to share your thoughts with a sober friend that you can trust.
Ask him or her to ride your ass so you can stay clean.
Its worked for some who have no will-power whatsoever.
You got a long road of life thats best travelled with a clean mind.
Staying clean is an emergency priority for you.
Treat it like one.

 

[S.M.F.G]

I agree with HeWhoHowls Hellokitty 29.
If uv clean friends or family stay with them on that day or even the night before you get paid and have them force you to wait it out, it sounds painfull i know but if u can just hold off scorin H till u get to see ur Sub doctor, You will be already winning the battle, 2mg odd of xanax would probably help u thru the day if u can get ahold of it. Wishing you all the best, you can do this

 

[yuhhhhh]

personally taking 2mg of xanax would just give me less incentive to stay clean.

but that's just me.

 

[HelloKitty29]

Hello Thank you for your replies. I have a friend who is going to help me stay clean tomorrow. I have a son and my family would take him away if they knew I was messing around with H. Last night me and my childs father ended our relationship had a huge fight and now he wants to take the baby to a town almost 2 hours away without a proper car seat and all. My son is only 10 months . I still was feeling shitty and achy and bad mentally so I took some vicodin last night and drank plus had been taking benzos yeah im a mess!!! so if a small amount of opiates show in my urine my first visit will the doctor still write the suboxone?? I need this to stablize myself expecially with what is going on with my my babys dad and all! Someone please help me!!!!!!!!!!!