GordanMilky
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- Sep 2, 2010
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I feel I don't get the same therapeutic effects other people get from psilocybin. Two months ago my girlfriend and I did 3.5 and 4 grams respectively and she seemed to be in a deep internal state the entire trip with a really obvious facial expression of extreme, confused thinking. She ended up making some personal life realizations and sorted out some past experiences; the trip seemed to really help her in a positive way. Nothing of the sort happened to me so I did 6 grams by myself a month later and while the trip was visually beautiful, I can't say I experienced anything that profoundly impacted my life. As well the next day I felt like my spirit was significantly dampened and I couldn't do anything productive, which I dont get to that extent on other drugs. I've heard stories of people like Alan Watts who would take massive doses of shrooms in pure darkness in order to induce provoking thoughts. I can't figure out why while on shrooms my mind seems to be in a state of blankness. I want to have deep thoughts, journal and come up with realizations that can benefit my life but nothing gets dug up. I felt I created a negative opinion about my brain's capabilities due to these experiences. It felt like this drug can help other people but I have been forgotten about.
That was until a week ago when I insufflated a decent amount of ketamine 3 separate times. The night ended up being extremely beneficial to my personality as I had extreme profound thoughts about my life and where I want to go, what type of person I want to be and ways to get over negative emotions. It wasn't just simple , intermittent thoughts like "That tree is so beautiful" I get on shrooms. It was a full internal dialogue about my life, my very being and the nature of the universe. My brain felt like a receptive antenna to a conscious energy of the universe. I wasn't able to write anything down but every thought had a profound meaning to me and I definitely came out of the night a better person and this has carried over into my week.
Does anyone else feel like shrooms, which has a very clear therapeutic value to many people does not help you? Ketamine seems to be that healing substance for me. I'd love to hear your thoughts.
That was until a week ago when I insufflated a decent amount of ketamine 3 separate times. The night ended up being extremely beneficial to my personality as I had extreme profound thoughts about my life and where I want to go, what type of person I want to be and ways to get over negative emotions. It wasn't just simple , intermittent thoughts like "That tree is so beautiful" I get on shrooms. It was a full internal dialogue about my life, my very being and the nature of the universe. My brain felt like a receptive antenna to a conscious energy of the universe. I wasn't able to write anything down but every thought had a profound meaning to me and I definitely came out of the night a better person and this has carried over into my week.
Does anyone else feel like shrooms, which has a very clear therapeutic value to many people does not help you? Ketamine seems to be that healing substance for me. I'd love to hear your thoughts.