Shroom/possible Mdma induced anxiety. Is there any hope?

[Blacksea2]

I'll keep this as short as I can. I had bad anxiety around 2008 but i did eventually get over it and get to live normally and without panic attacks.

In Late 2013 I took magic mushrooms because I believed they would help with depression (although since then I've learnt that the depression at the time was nothing). I ended up having a bad one which caused a panic attack, my first one in years which kick started my anxiety again. I had really bad depersonalization and derealisation but I was getting better all the time and did become more normal and happy with every day that passed.

However, I took ecstasy at christmas which set me back because I woke up feeling strange which caused more anxiety. It also set my recovery back to square one.


I've learned my lesson, quit all drugs and that includes alcohol and caffeine. I'm doing my best to live as healthily as possible because from what I've read that seems to be the route to recovery, there seems to be a lot of success over on blue light so fingers crossed. I will also stop googling anything related to this because it does just make it worse
I just hope this passes because there's no worse feeling than not recognising your hone and your family I'm quite a rational guy so I know it's just depersonalisation/derealisation which I have got over in the past, the thing is that I can't remember how. I've got over death anxiety which is massive so I think there is still hope. I know all this philosophical shite thats in my head is just a common symptom of anxiety.

It has only been a month and a half but I'm seriously struggling. Can anyone relate or help with this??

 

[Trying2Iso]

umm... quit using substances first of all.
And try to get a psychiatrist to prescribe u anxiety meds preferably not benzos because thats not something u wanna get started on if u dont have to.
Atarax is good if u pop 100-150 mgs of it , i find it effective
Also BuSpar

 

[bdomihizayka]

Quit ALL substance use/abuse and ride it out. I know exactly where you are, many of us have been there. The brain is elastic and has tremendous ability to heal itself. Think of it as short term PTSD.... you shocked yourself and got anxious about it. Your heightened anxiety will not last. I recommend taking excellent care of yourself- from VIGOROUS exercise, to a spot clean diet and even dietary supplementation/ vitamins- minerals. Drink lots of water- time will heal and you'll be ok!

 

[blahman8000]

It's definitely a smart idea to avoid substances, especially while you're recovering. Focus on getting better, and allow this trip to represent a learning experience in your past. There is hope. There is endless hope for you. Build a foundation through this by becoming even stronger than you were before it.

It's up to a professional to determine if you need psychiatric medication to get through this. There are resources out there for you, though. The very idea of hopelessness will plague you, and it's hard not to get lost in it. Life spares none of us from its ruthlessness, but you will come out of this healthier and wiser as a result.

I assure you I can relate, I've been through almost the exact same experience. In fact, like you, it was at the beginning of a year. For me it was 2006. I had a horrible mushroom trip that flipped my whole life upside down. My thoughts were almost unfamiliar. The trip was full of morbid revelations. The aftermath was perpetual anxiety, obsessive loops of nihilistic thought, depression, and derealization. I found that for me, it's better not to indulge in mushrooms again. But I came out of it with a better understanding of myself, and a better motive and direction. Once something transpires so powerfully that it shakes your life this way, take a small lesson out of each step in the struggle.

 

[Maya]

I have experienced terrible panic attacks and anxiety for a year due to mdma abuse but I recovered. Yes eating healthy and exercising a lot helps and also quitting drugs. It might take time but recovery is always possible. I thought I wasnt going to recover but I did so you will too.