should i sign up at a methadone clinic?

[adrenaline18_99]

I have a child and i had her everyday from the time she was born until 2 years ago. I had some drug problems a long time ago, then stopped when i got pregnant. Well when he took her from me because he didnt like my boyfriend at the time, when me and her were never separated. Her dad and i had joint custody. Then dcs got involved and i still won full custody in court, well that was the one day my lawyer wasnt there. Dcs gave me a piece of paper saying if i sign temporary custody to him since we lived together, then they would dismiss the case that day and if we ever broke up just go to court and get my full back....dcs lied, the paper i signed was giving him full custody. Worst of all he was doing cocaine and X and i just took prescription meds, but dcs said if someone doesnt own up to doing drugs they were putting her in foster care. I wasnt letting that happen and his parents are foster parents to begin with. So i took the fall for everything cux he wouldnt. Anyways after he took her the last time and didnt let me see or talk to her in 2 years, i fell into a deep, deep depression and started doing heroin and anything else i could to not think about it. Her dad said the only way im going to be with her is to get back with him. I tried that it doesnt work i despise him!he thinks im in all kinds of trouble but im not, everything got dropped! I just need to know if going to a methadone clinic will hurt me or help me. I have court tomorrow for my daughter. I have an appt. At the clinic the day after. I would think its a form of treatment...idk what do u guys think? Ive never done anything drug wise around my daughter and never would...i mean i babysit sometimes 9 kids at a time now for income until i can get my license straightened out. I pay child support every month and have to pay for supervised visits, which he cancelled the last 5 times, i know he thinks i just got in more trouble, but it all got dropped!

 

[angeleyes]

Hello and welcome to Bluelight


I'm going to move your thread over to The Dark Side because I think its a very supportive subforum and it will generate a lot more replies there, sorry to hear about things being so hectic. Keep your chin up, this is a good community, very welcoming, hope you stay around and get to really experience it

 

[FEDOR85]

If you care about your appearance in anyway dont go down the methadone route, its turned so many ppl I know into toothless, yellow skinned looking zombies that will be on it for life. Nearly all addicts I know wish they never started it. I was 1 of the lucky ones to get off it but the withdrawals were unbearable and i nearly went insane during the 6 months for all the physical withdrawal to go...and I only used it like once or twice a week when I couldnt get heroin. Its also much, much harder and longer to get off than heroin. Give me a heroin cluck over methadone cluck anyday

Give cold turkey a try but make sure to stock up on benzos, imodium(20-30mg per day), clonidine, gabapentin and the 5 or so days of physical withdrawal shouldnt be so bad. PAWS is another story however but since youve a daughter to get back in your life, that can be the motivation you need to stay off the smack

Theres a reason they call methadone the green handcuffs

 

[Get2Think]

I completely agree with the poster above me methadone made my skin look grey and I was always tired even on like 60mg. The worst part though was having to go every single day to the clinic and I just knew it was a step backwards in my 6 year fight to get clean and sober. I don't know what it is about opiod maintenance that just rubs me the wrong way. I think it's the dependency and the fact that I know I'm gonna have to go withdrawals again at some point.

However, if you can't stop using heroin and your stealing or selling all of your possessions I'd say yeah get on methadone for a little while. Or if you like it stay on it for 6 months to a year it is nice not having opiate cravings so the methadone isn't all bad. And I'm glad it's
available.