Should I quit my job and move back in my with parents?

DroneLore

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I'm 24 and relapsed on heroin. I'm not sure how long ago, but long enough. I really want to stop. I can't drive, and wouldn't have any access if I moved back in with my parents. The only thing keeping me in this town is a low level position at a convenience store, and I really just want to kick with my family, learn to drive and look for a job that will use my degree.

Do you think my anxiety about quitting this job (I might even still get good recommendations as I was known as a hard worker) is a symptom of my addiction? I'm pretty sure my mom wouldn't hesitate to take me back in.
 
It's likely you are hesitant to quit this job because you won't have money for heroin, then again you won't have money to support yourself either. It's like they say at NA about staying away from people, places and things that will trigger you to use. It's good you want to stop using and if you feel you can't do that by staying where you are, by all means move back with your parents.

Are you planning to use any maintenance drugs to wean off or do you want to quit cold turkey? I would hate to see you move back home and relapse. You have to have a plan in place to deal with cravings and post acute withdrawals. You will not regret your decision to get clean. Don't be afraid to ask for help once you get there. <3
 
I have 4 mg of Subutex I might use so I can still work. But I if I leave and go home, it will just be cold turkey from there.
 
Do your parents know about your addiction and that a big reason you'd be moving back in with them would be to try to get clean?
 
You have a single 4mg Subutex or a script of them? I don't suggest going cold turkey. I'm 24 as well and when my parents found out I relapsed they did everything they could to help me, including paying for my Methadone. I was on Suboxone when I first came off opiates, it didn't help at all so I had to try something different after I relapsed. Most parents will do anything to help their kids. The last thing they want to do is bury them.
 
A single 4 mg. A fucking saint I met at the soup kitchen this morning gave me a piece of a sub strip when I told him I was sick. Then I IV'ed some of my subutux, I'm not sure how much but probably less than a mg. Top it off with .25 mg kpin and I am thinking a little clearer, at least the prospect of going to work in 45 minutes isn't terrifying and I feel functional. The trouble is when I am in this 'in between' feeling, like I'm not fucked up but I'm also not a mess from w/d, my resolution to quit begins to whither.

Why do you think cold turkey is a bad idea? It's hard to tell how bad a habit is given the inconsistency in dope purity, but I think mine was pretty mild. If I have the support of my family, maybe let my mother ration out the little kpin I have left to me (not sure if she'd go for that though, heh), I think I'll be alright. I'm just worried, like... about everything. RIght now I'm going to see if I can get a few days off next week so I can be with my family from Xmas to the new year.

The thing is, I am 99% sure that if I told my mom, "I'm still using dope and I want to stop." She'd take me home whether I wanted to or not.

Thanks for the support <3
 
Would it be possible to find work, as in any work what so ever, before you move back in with your parents? It may be good thing to not have access to money, but I feel that isn't a solution is our society. The solution is learning how to control your impulses better which can be a long process. I think it depends heavily upon your situation but I know for myself doing something similar would lead me to relapse more than likely. I think too much free time and no stimuli is worse than working a job you hate. Even though you hate it, it does offer a small amount of networking and contact with people other than yourself and some money, although perhaps minimal. I think a better option would be to start putting out applications before you quit your current job as being "currently employed" seems to look better to possible future employers than "currently unemployed".

Even still, a crap job is still a crap job and beyond keeping your opportunities open, it may be a good thing for you to quit your job. I just recently quit a decent paying job after getting clean because I felt my patterns of addictions were also deeply rooted in my 'addiction' or strong drive to make money and work- I suppose workaholism. For me, I am a 24 year old single male and I have enough saved up to where not finding work for a while is not a huge worry, as well as have quite a few opportunities to work if I so desired. The important thing was that I not get completely consumed by work and money, then start using drugs to cope with the stress and isolation that comes with working a lot.

People usually advise against going cold turkey because of the much more intense W/D symptoms you will experience, making it much more likely for a relapse to occur. Having some type of mild opiate or benzo on hand, in a very small SMALL amount and quantity for when you are experiencing panic-attack like symptoms or feeling like there is no hope and the world is collapsing around you--- you know those types of feelings that make your mind focus on using again.

I think a taper when used correctly can assist someone in helping to break the habit of getting completely wasted every time discomfort is experienced. Instead of getting high you give yourself just barely enough so you can focus on something else like a productive task or whatever it may be.
 
if getting clean is what you think is best for you right now then do it and stick with it at all costs. I know it can be embarrassing to move back with your parents to get clean, heck I just did about 4 weeks ago, but if this is the way for you to get clean I say go for it. man life is so much better being sober. plus it wont be forever. move home. kick. get on with your life.
 
Of course I can't tell you what to do but if you are thinking of using sub, whether for short taper/maintenance, my advice would be to please visit a doctor n do it correctly so that you can have have people to talk to n the proper support.

As for your question, onky YOU can decide this. Why would you quit your job? Is it a trigger? To stop you purchasing H? Not a good idea. You need to deal with having money n not buying H because the problem will always be there like when you get another job. Do your parents live far away? If so maybe lining up another job first so that you can still take responsibility for yourself. Do your parents know of your H addiction? Have they offered you to move home ? How would you feel living back there again?

Those questions are not for us so please don't feel that you have to answer them here. They're for you, yourself to answer n balance things only then can you decide what's best.

Evey x
 
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