Should i lose my virginity to someone i hardley know?

I’ve worked with this guy for about over a year now. He is very cute, muscles, blonde hair and he has that personality that everyone can get along with him. So funny. Him and I get along and we use to flirt constantly but then he asked out a co worker and then our scheduled got switched so I hardly saw him. But I guess just recently they broke up and well he was inviting me to this group thing with my work and I said sure and then so I gave him my number. And then he kept texting me all the time. He asked to hang out and I said yes and he asked me a bunch of questions about my sex life and I lied, I have no sex life. I am a virgin. Quite honestly I didn’t think it would matter whether I told the truth because he is leaving in December. But what I didn’t really expect that he was going to ask me to be friends with benefits. The weird thing is that I usually chicken out at every chance I get with a boy, if some one tries to hold my hands I feel uncomfortable and never talk to them again. Well I lied to him and he kept pressuring me, over and over. And I wanted to do it with him. But since I lied I didn’t want to. I ended up having my first kiss with him and he doesn’t even know. Since then he has only texted me twice “to hang out”. The thing is I am very self conscience about myself, because I am overweight and I am convinced I am not pretty. And I know he is just using me. But is it weird that I am actually considering to have sex with this guy that I hardly know? I feel almost I should tell him the truth, and go for it but then again maybe I should just not and wait for someone that I like and have actually have had a relationship with. What should I do?
If I did decide to go for it would he be mad that I lied cause I would have to tell the truth cause it would be a obvious fact. I also asked him if he would still be asking me this question if I was a virgin and he said yes. Also i am 18 by the way.

 

He won't be mad because you lied about not being a virgin, lol :D

Nd by the way, you shouldn't be asking for peoples advice on this sort of thing, i mean, really, are you going to listen to a stranger over what feels right to you?

 

^Nec0sis pretty much nailed it, you need to do what feels right. only you know how important (or not) your virginity is.

 

follow your heart

 

Yeah, follow your heart AND your brain... my first love when I was 16 I chose not to lose my virginity to even though I was TOTALLY IN LOVE with him more than life itself, because I knew we'd break up sometime and it would kill me if I'd lost my virginity to him. I ended up losing it, totally something I planned out, when I was barely 19. It was to a guy I met at my first job, he was "just a friend" and was "safe" to me to be with, because I knew he wasn't going to hurt me because I wasn't in love with him. I know, doesn't sound like a great story but it was the right decision for me. ( SINCE then I'd love to erase many of the guys I've been with... really... but I can't change that unfortunately. Now I've been pretty celibate for awhile.)

Anyway, just know if you do have sex with him it WILL change things in some way, so remember that. You can't take back who you sleep with, so try not to do things you may regret later. I know it sounds cliche, but I downplayed things for a long time and was very casual about sex and guys and relationships when I should have been more serious and focused on what i was actually doing, because now I am 35 and single and realize i made a lot of mistakes that are going to stay with me forever and I should have used my brain and heart more instead of acting so casual about things like this.

 

I lost my virginity on a public park bench, needless to say, it wasn't what I expected.
oh well, you loose some, you win some.