takeitpersonal
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Dec 30, 2012
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- 16
I moved out of london for a while and recently moved back. I didn't have any contacts for gear as I'd quit when I moved out of London, but quickly relapsed when I came back.
So I called up my ex (who introduced me to h) and they said they'd sort me some brown if I shot them up (I started shooting after we split up). I didn't really want to, but wanted brown more, so I agreed (it was going to be a "one time" thing, yea right..). Obviously, I ended up shooting them a lot, we were also fucking, they'd give me free gear or on tick, it was pretty good for a while.
I got fed up with their bullshit (remembered why I split up with them in the first place) so we stopped fucking and shooting (I still shoot myself). Now though, they won't fucking leave me alone. Asking to come over for me to shoot them. Asking to come over and shoot themselves. I feel guilty about shooting them in the first place, but they were the one who introduced me to heroin (no excuse, obviously), and they wouldn't give me any dealers number so I had to go through them (I've got that sorted out now, but that kind of selfish behaviour is why I don't like being around them).
They have no idea how to shoot, despite watching me do it many times. They didn't even realise you had to put water in...! This concerns me, because they are the kind of person who "doesn't need nobody!", meaning, they are too proud to read instructions on how to do it properly, so I'm worried they'd fuck it up, hit an artery, inject it unfiltered, whatever. Equally concerning, they have a very low tolerance (even though they've been sniffing h for 5 years) but like to act like they are hardcore. They would complain when I did a bigger shot than them, when a 50mg shot has them sprawled out on the floor semi-conscious and drooling, and a 200mg shot has me just high, you know? So I'm worried they will overdose.
This person has immigrated from Europe - so they have no family here (or in their home country for that matter) to support them or help them if they get into deep shit (i.e. homeless, sick etc). They also don't seem to appreciate the addictive risks (ironically, most people I know who claim to have no issue with drugs are the most addicted) and claim that it "will never happen to me!". For me, this is the wrong attitude. I shoot heroin yes, I am fully aware that it could destroy my life, but that is a risk that I am willing to take. In my opinion, claiming that it will never happen to yourself is living in denial, possibly making it more likely.
What should I do? I am definitely not going to shoot them again, I don't want to teach them either (no one taught me, I read it off the internet, in booklets etc). I did want to be a friend to them, but it has become clear they just wanted me for sex and to shoot them, not actually appreciating my company, so fuck 'em. I guess I just need to cut them off.
Thanks.
So I called up my ex (who introduced me to h) and they said they'd sort me some brown if I shot them up (I started shooting after we split up). I didn't really want to, but wanted brown more, so I agreed (it was going to be a "one time" thing, yea right..). Obviously, I ended up shooting them a lot, we were also fucking, they'd give me free gear or on tick, it was pretty good for a while.
I got fed up with their bullshit (remembered why I split up with them in the first place) so we stopped fucking and shooting (I still shoot myself). Now though, they won't fucking leave me alone. Asking to come over for me to shoot them. Asking to come over and shoot themselves. I feel guilty about shooting them in the first place, but they were the one who introduced me to heroin (no excuse, obviously), and they wouldn't give me any dealers number so I had to go through them (I've got that sorted out now, but that kind of selfish behaviour is why I don't like being around them).
They have no idea how to shoot, despite watching me do it many times. They didn't even realise you had to put water in...! This concerns me, because they are the kind of person who "doesn't need nobody!", meaning, they are too proud to read instructions on how to do it properly, so I'm worried they'd fuck it up, hit an artery, inject it unfiltered, whatever. Equally concerning, they have a very low tolerance (even though they've been sniffing h for 5 years) but like to act like they are hardcore. They would complain when I did a bigger shot than them, when a 50mg shot has them sprawled out on the floor semi-conscious and drooling, and a 200mg shot has me just high, you know? So I'm worried they will overdose.
This person has immigrated from Europe - so they have no family here (or in their home country for that matter) to support them or help them if they get into deep shit (i.e. homeless, sick etc). They also don't seem to appreciate the addictive risks (ironically, most people I know who claim to have no issue with drugs are the most addicted) and claim that it "will never happen to me!". For me, this is the wrong attitude. I shoot heroin yes, I am fully aware that it could destroy my life, but that is a risk that I am willing to take. In my opinion, claiming that it will never happen to yourself is living in denial, possibly making it more likely.
What should I do? I am definitely not going to shoot them again, I don't want to teach them either (no one taught me, I read it off the internet, in booklets etc). I did want to be a friend to them, but it has become clear they just wanted me for sex and to shoot them, not actually appreciating my company, so fuck 'em. I guess I just need to cut them off.
Thanks.