Today I found out I have a disease called Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. At first, it didn't sound scary at all. Then the doctor started to tell me what it is. PCOS is when the ovary doesn't make all of the hormones it needs for an egg to fully mature. The follicles may start to grow and build up fluid but ovulation does not occur. Instead, some follicles may remain as cysts. So basically, instead of getting my period I am developing cysts.
After getting some more information, I found out that this is dangerous. PCOS puts me at risk for heart attacks, heart disease, strokes, infertility, miscarages, depression, anxiety, weight gain, dandruff, untolerable pelvic pain, chest pain, sleep apnea (where I can't breathe while sleeping), premature delivery & more.
Apparantly, it will be extremly hard for me to get pregnant & if I do get preg, it will be rediculously dangerous. The baby could form in the wrong spot, being deadly. I could miscarry. I could have the baby & it dies during or after birth. There is a 40% chance that I could successfully get pregnant & only a 34% chance that I could have a baby with absolutly no problems.
As if my depression wasn't bad enough, now I find this out. I am so scared. After all of the times I have been suicidal, now I might actually die from something. I never wanted kids, but now I might not be able to. I'm 17! This isn't what I'm supposed to hear...
On the bright side, I know what is causing me to constantly feel the way I do..... Not like that makes me feel any better about it though ;_;
I have decided to focus all of my attention on getting clean. I know it's gonna be hard as fuck, but hopefully I will have the support I need...
JP
After getting some more information, I found out that this is dangerous. PCOS puts me at risk for heart attacks, heart disease, strokes, infertility, miscarages, depression, anxiety, weight gain, dandruff, untolerable pelvic pain, chest pain, sleep apnea (where I can't breathe while sleeping), premature delivery & more.
Apparantly, it will be extremly hard for me to get pregnant & if I do get preg, it will be rediculously dangerous. The baby could form in the wrong spot, being deadly. I could miscarry. I could have the baby & it dies during or after birth. There is a 40% chance that I could successfully get pregnant & only a 34% chance that I could have a baby with absolutly no problems.
As if my depression wasn't bad enough, now I find this out. I am so scared. After all of the times I have been suicidal, now I might actually die from something. I never wanted kids, but now I might not be able to. I'm 17! This isn't what I'm supposed to hear...
On the bright side, I know what is causing me to constantly feel the way I do..... Not like that makes me feel any better about it though ;_;
I have decided to focus all of my attention on getting clean. I know it's gonna be hard as fuck, but hopefully I will have the support I need...
JP