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Positive Share Something Positive About Your Day vs This Does Not Suck (͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)?

streaM Freak said:
Societies standards of perfect are stupid. And everyone has their own unique attributes. And we all share a lot in common already.

So fuck it
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I know what you mean, but I simply don't want to end up disappointing people anymore, especially the ones I care for so much. I did, it feels like complete fucking shit knowing I hurt someone I love so much, I never wanted that to happen.. It was only because I never really faced my own problems that I wasn't able to handle it, that I ended up making everything worse instead of better.. So I'm just going to finally accept that I need all the help I can get to hopefully go somewhere in life.

My positive this day? Uhh, maybe that I finally got some sleep after 4 days of being awake and was still able to be up in time to pick up the phone when the people from rehab called. Made an appointment for next week, either 2 or 8 weeks of group therapy. I guess going to rehab is positive?
 
I changed up my poker techniques and it’s really working well.

Lifting is progressing nicely

Birds are happy.. eating like horse

Quitting drinking and smoking is going great.. like a month and a half in.. feeling much healthier.

Complex dental procedure is nearing the end. Can’t wait i’m sick of mack and cheese and mashed potatoes.
 
Saw a new primary care doctor yesterday morning, establishing care once more after my insurance and thus all impending referrals lapsed early last year. Feeling really good about this. All those referrals are now restarted. After getting into my story a little bit, he divulged to me that he also had been to rehab, for alcohol and women. Immediately proceeded to prescribe me lorazepam, which I've been in severe need of a benzo and denied at my other doc nigh on 2 years, told me he's going to try to get me into a ketamine clinic, and he said to tell my other doc to double my testosterone dose, and if they didn't, he would lol. Think I'm gonna like this guy.
 
Psychlone Jack said:
Saw a new primary care doctor yesterday morning, establishing care once more after my insurance and thus all impending referrals lapsed early last year. Feeling really good about this. All those referrals are now restarted. After getting into my story a little bit, he divulged to me that he also had been to rehab, for alcohol and women. Immediately proceeded to prescribe me lorazepam, which I've been in severe need of a benzo and denied at my other doc nigh on 2 years, told me he's going to try to get me into a ketamine clinic, and he said to tell my other doc to double my testosterone dose, and if they didn't, he would lol. Think I'm gonna like this guy.
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Benzo, testosterone, ketamine, all in one day, ongoing and legally - that sounds like a gift just dropped on your lap. But really, it's probably lots of good decisions made over time stacked and materialized. Congrats man!
 
mum came into my room and didn't see the cut marks on my arm, didn't have to have an awkward conversation.

blade was dull so it's ok, i'm ok. just had a major crash out, over almost nothing, lost my sense of perception of reality.

either i was mostly right, or mostly wrong. can't figure percentages for tonality in english language.

L meth

still crashing out logging out of all internet sites, time to feel truly alone.
 
ledbyher said:
> snipping <
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Hey there ..

Physical Effects of Self-Harm really can cause Permanent scars, Bloody chaos, And a Severe risk of infection and injury.

Getting healthy—both in your brain and in your body—takes hard work. You got this. And, we believe in you !!
 
ledbyher said:
mum came into my room and didn't see the cut marks on my arm, didn't have to have an awkward conversation.

blade was dull so it's ok, i'm ok. just had a major crash out, over almost nothing, lost my sense of perception of reality.

either i was mostly right, or mostly wrong. can't figure percentages for tonality in english language.

L meth

still crashing out logging out of all internet sites, time to feel truly alone.
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I too believe in you. There must be something that you can focus on, a goal that would be easier to achieve if not spun out. You're smart and with a clear head you'll be able to achieve things beyond what you can now, if you work towards it.
 
Worked the last seven days straight, but now I'm off for the next five. Leaving to go visit my mom and grandma the next state over in the morning. Five whole days of sightseeing, food and otherwise not doing shit in the country. 😎 Also get to be with them both on Mother's Day which is awesome, and my bday the next day. 🥳 Still can't believe I'm turning fucking 40 lol. A great many people didn't think I'd make it to that sge, myself included.

✌️ ❤️
 
Psychlone Jack said:
Worked the last seven days straight, but now I'm off for the next five. Leaving to go visit my mom and grandma the next state over in the morning. Five whole days of sightseeing, food and otherwise not doing shit in the country. 😎 Also get to be with them both on Mother's Day which is awesome, and my bday the next day. 🥳 Still can't believe I'm turning fucking 40 lol. A great many people didn't think I'd make it to that sge, myself included.

✌️ ❤️
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Congratulations for your 40, Let your freak flag fly
 
Friend died peacefully in her sleep,I saw her and she was slack jawed but soft blankets undisturbed.She on her side,head lying on her hands when she was comfy .She looked sweet.97! I pray for this death.So grateful ,I didn't wait a few days to check on her.
 
neversickanymore said:
Star my morning dove returned from migration looking great and stopped by to say hello
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That brought a smile on my face.

A uncle getting more more open disclosed his relationship with several types too. He filmeda Robin RedBreast eat from his hand. Now doing thee same with the common Blackbird. Glad the house Sparrow visits my garden again they keep distant.

The Gladiolen, nice flowering underground bulbs. Had sex so spreading through my garden at a slow pace. That s lazy gardening at best,

So in a month or ... next wave of 🌷 🌺 🌸 🌻 🥀
 
Robi said:
Friend died peacefully in her sleep,I saw her and she was slack jawed but soft blankets undisturbed.She on her side,head lying on her hands when she was comfy .She looked sweet.97! I pray for this death.So grateful ,I didn't wait a few days to check on her.
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That sounds like the ideal death we could all wish for. Peaceful and with a dear friend checking in and caring.
 
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