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Share Something Positive About You Day vs. Good Things Happen Everyday
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Erikmen
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That's serious. Even criminal. Nine cavities is a lot!
Local dentists here are normally suspect when they try to persuade cosmetic treatments, extra cleaning. Bright whiter teeth, etc.
We always go to someone who is normally related to our family, friends. There are always 2 dentists involved. Before starting the treatment, it's required that we first have our prognosis done/confirmed by a radiologist, specialized. I have my x-rays showing where the damages are. If this document is misread, the clinic would be in serious trouble.
Also, we don't use our insurance for dentists. I will try to have part of the costs deducted from my yearly taxes. I suppose all of these suggests they are not quite reliable.
Local dentists here are normally suspect when they try to persuade cosmetic treatments, extra cleaning. Bright whiter teeth, etc.
We always go to someone who is normally related to our family, friends. There are always 2 dentists involved. Before starting the treatment, it's required that we first have our prognosis done/confirmed by a radiologist, specialized. I have my x-rays showing where the damages are. If this document is misread, the clinic would be in serious trouble.
Also, we don't use our insurance for dentists. I will try to have part of the costs deducted from my yearly taxes. I suppose all of these suggests they are not quite reliable.
fabriclondon
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Good day thusfar. Went from .75 to .50mgs of sub 4 days ago and I've felt just a little bit off for the past two days but I'm still pushing forward. Have a good night, people.
GaryGlisten
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I was tripping on LSA a couple of nights ago and there was a mosquito in my room really getting on my nerves. It would have been easy enough to splat it but I didn't want to be responsible for killing it so I managed to catch it with a kitchen strainer and a piece of cardboard and ejected it through the window. I think it's good to show mercy/compassion to other living creatures even when they don't appear to deserve it.
fabriclondon
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^^^ Now the mosquito can go spread the Zika virus unencumbered. Good job. Just kidding! I did something similar with a fly once. He was stuck between my two window panes. I telepathically told him to land on my hand. He did, and I let him out through the open window. Have a good weekend peoples ; )
Fired up seven gallons of kind spaghetti sauce with my son today.
Garden is looking good and is portable so it will be moved and will finish nicely.
Laughed my ass off when my kiddo released the training quail in the pen he was also in.
Just got done with a good book and started another.
Garden is looking good and is portable so it will be moved and will finish nicely.
Laughed my ass off when my kiddo released the training quail in the pen he was also in.
Just got done with a good book and started another.
closeau
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I just want to say I envy you. That sounds like a great day. I'm gonna go jump off a building now cause my life is far from yours. I'm sure you earned every bit
Muzda Jonxx
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Day 4 straight from the devil pods.. It's been a good day, my hedge was growing out into the street so I attacked it with power tools.
fabriclondon
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^^^Awesome. Keep up the good work. it's not easy to get off your ass and use power tools on day 4 of wd's. I salute you?
Muzda Jonxx
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Thank you kindly! 
closeau
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No doubt. Day 4 I'd be a whimpering Meds. Kudos to your determination
Muzda Jonxx
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Much appreciated. I've been stuck in opiate groundhog day for about a decade now, right through my 30s. I refuse to be 40 years old with that monkey on my back.
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me and my 2 sons went to a festival today. we had a blast
fabriclondon
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Hey guys. Hope all is well. Instead of starting a new thread I'll just put this here. I'm feeling just a bit discouraged the past week or so. I've been doing a suboxone taper. Started in early April and quickly dropped to 2mg within the first three weeks.
I've felt great at every step down except for now. I stepped down from .75mg to .50mg 7 days ago and I've felt 'off' since the 2nd day on .50mg.
I've done some research and have read that this is common. Some people may feel great at 2mg and bad at 1.5mg etc. The old insidious self doubt is creeping in telling me I can't do this and I should just go back to 1mg or .75 and stay there until my life is sorted out a bit more.
I have been having an amazing summer and my relationship with my family and girlfriend hasn't been this good for the past decade. I'm also at the gym every day and I have been eating better. Basically everything is positive in my life accept I have been having a hard time finding work in my field. I work in the IT field and I am constantly getting calls for jobs but thusfar haven't landed one. I know it will happen because I have always been able to get one when I put in effort, and I am certainly putting in the effort these days.
So what to do? Go back up to .75mg for now or just keep tapering? I was so confident in the job search just two weeks ago but now on this dose I am just not feeling right. It's like a black cloud is starting to roll over and I don't know why. Any thoughts or input would be much appreciated.
I've felt great at every step down except for now. I stepped down from .75mg to .50mg 7 days ago and I've felt 'off' since the 2nd day on .50mg.
I've done some research and have read that this is common. Some people may feel great at 2mg and bad at 1.5mg etc. The old insidious self doubt is creeping in telling me I can't do this and I should just go back to 1mg or .75 and stay there until my life is sorted out a bit more.
I have been having an amazing summer and my relationship with my family and girlfriend hasn't been this good for the past decade. I'm also at the gym every day and I have been eating better. Basically everything is positive in my life accept I have been having a hard time finding work in my field. I work in the IT field and I am constantly getting calls for jobs but thusfar haven't landed one. I know it will happen because I have always been able to get one when I put in effort, and I am certainly putting in the effort these days.
So what to do? Go back up to .75mg for now or just keep tapering? I was so confident in the job search just two weeks ago but now on this dose I am just not feeling right. It's like a black cloud is starting to roll over and I don't know why. Any thoughts or input would be much appreciated.
Erikmen
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I faced this dilemma when I started taking Methadone and continued for so many years. At some point I realized it was doing more harm than good. And that if it wasn't for the drug I was taking for so many years I was going straight back to addiction.
Of course it gave me quality life and that's why I got stuck with it for so many years. But the problem is that the longer you stay the more difficult it is to get out, to disconnect and live a free life. And when I did I felt I was numbed and had lost my life tapering instead of confronting the real issue. It's a very intense addiction because of long acting effects and because you are under the effects 24/7. These type of drugs take you off of the streets, 'solve' your addiction usual problems. I felt I was okay only because of the chemicals and that I was totally dependent, slaved of a routine I couldn't get way of.
On top of that, with time there are some side effects that was making my life quite difficult. Problems with hormones, metabolism. I was always constipated, with low energy, lethargic. Sweating like no one else, etc. etc. And it was so difficult to stop. The withdrawals are much harder, worse than expected from usual opiates. This did not happen in the beginning.
Of course there are people who adapt and live well with controlled replacement therapy for a while others just want freedom and a way out for good. You'll have to make this decision on your own considering your future on a long term. There are a lot of Blighters who stopped using subs and methadone and it's not about going through withdrawals but how to live without medication.
Of course it gave me quality life and that's why I got stuck with it for so many years. But the problem is that the longer you stay the more difficult it is to get out, to disconnect and live a free life. And when I did I felt I was numbed and had lost my life tapering instead of confronting the real issue. It's a very intense addiction because of long acting effects and because you are under the effects 24/7. These type of drugs take you off of the streets, 'solve' your addiction usual problems. I felt I was okay only because of the chemicals and that I was totally dependent, slaved of a routine I couldn't get way of.
On top of that, with time there are some side effects that was making my life quite difficult. Problems with hormones, metabolism. I was always constipated, with low energy, lethargic. Sweating like no one else, etc. etc. And it was so difficult to stop. The withdrawals are much harder, worse than expected from usual opiates. This did not happen in the beginning.
Of course there are people who adapt and live well with controlled replacement therapy for a while others just want freedom and a way out for good. You'll have to make this decision on your own considering your future on a long term. There are a lot of Blighters who stopped using subs and methadone and it's not about going through withdrawals but how to live without medication.
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