Just quit my job working for one of the largest media conglomerates in the world, or as I call it, the fourth largest propaganda machine in history. It was quite amazing, being on the inside of an ant farm, feeling the pulse of one of the most prolific corporate entities in the country, and experiencing first hand the effects of corporatism on the human psyche. I dont think my level of patience was adequate for any more time, I had experienced enough and learned what I wanted, and it was time to get focused on my life again.
I am a pretty crazy person. My life can be summed as a series of ongoing experiments to prove my near-infinite speculations and hypotheses about life true. I do a lot of things which make little sense to some, like put myself through seemingly agonizing experiences for no practical or tangibly beneficial reason. I just tend to value things most for their absolute value, as opposed to their subjective value. For instance, I love to let pure molly roll around on my tongue for a bit, sure it could be perceived as a rather wretched taste, but I see it as a deep analyzation of the molecular structure of the compound, and I respect it for its particular flavor. I can say I fully appreciate the agony which can be caused by internal injuries, its important to understand such states. I do see the benefits in have had a viral infection which nearly killed me at one point in my life, to know such physical weakness and incapacitation can only make tolerance of future suffering far easier. Life is best to be experienced naked! Likewise Ill often take my food raw and without any sort of marinade, spice, or flavoring, simply because I want to experience the molecular structure of the original organism's fruits as naked as possible. I like to brush up against things in a way that allows one to take in their most uninhibited vibrations, to experience its quantum vibrations in its most primitive state. My mind is so vastly analytical that most who know me close are often commenting on its benefits and drawbacks, and certainly attempt to capitalize on its ability to solve certain problems (and likewise "capitalize" on entertaining themselves on its ability to fail miserably at other certain problems as well). The end result is that nearly every single thing I do is motivated by some deep, seemingly insane, and complex experiment I am conducting to test the limits of reality.
I only say this to demonstrate fully that I mean no harm. I am an extremely non violent person, my sparring partners love to jeer at my lack of desire to really damage another person's body (and likewise my teacher often demands that I perceive all sparring situations as the potential end of the universe), and part of the reason I am an avid student of the martial arts is my disposition towards violence. I would rather create a machine out of my body which has the final say if violence will have to happen or not, than be a completely passive creature. But, as the pattern of my life seems to trend, I endure ungodly amounts of pain in such studies in order to become immutable by pain. Again, I always appear to be engaging in some sort of activity, event, or lifestyle, which seems as though I enjoy misery on the surface (actually it is quite enjoyable, but we stoics are a hard-to-predict bunch).
This most recent "career" choice is is exactly the same. I couldnt have hated this job more. However, there hardly could have better been a training ground for infiltration and espionage. The amount of data I managed to store in my head while spending my time inside this beast was unreal. I successfully manipulated all my colleagues and superiors into thinking I was something I wasnt, as well as passed myself off as a valuable, hard working asset, when in reality I managed to create a steady stream of counterproductive activity. My martial endeavors were appreciated to such a degree that I was even allowed to bring some of my weapons to work, should I need to hit class immediately after. Not that it was ever a threat to anyone of the 3,500+ Eichmanns slithering throughout the infrastructure of the Death Star, but if they knew the mind that was drifting amongst their drones, I doubt I would have been assigned such liberties.
What we have here in this day and age is a rather grand conspiracy (!!! there! I said it! the "C" word. It really deserves no such introductions, it merely implies that more than one mind has gathered to plan something to your detriment but their benefit, no need for anymore a stigma than this). This conspiracy was engineered in the 1920s, and there is no theory about it, but merely a long trail of well connected facts. This conspiracy is only grand in so far as it has successfully manipulated its target into ignoring it. Disbelief is not even a threat so much as inaction. That being said, its a rather paltry conspiracy, and not so smoothly executed as inertia is relieved as soon as one becomes willing to drop out of its system.
We're being attacked on all fronts. We exist to promote a self destructive machination of greed, a clever yet infinitesimal fraction of human beings ability to reap life of its resources and consume them before the clock runs out. It is enslaving its host by means of casual yet methodical manipulation of the deepest recesses of the psyche, by means of poisoning its host into a state of sedation and enervation, and by means of creating a falsified perspective on the world and its network of always-interconnected events. One has no real obligation to care so much about such a predicament's moral connotations, but one should certainly be offended and have a desire to defend one's power to choose fate for one's self.
The real problem is that Nature is a stoic as well. Nature has no desire except "to do, to be." Life is extremely, extremely difficult to exterminate outright. The history of life on this planet shows this readily, that life is inevitable, however fragile in its advanced structures, will never disappear. Its major constituents can form int he most harshest environments of the Universe imaginable, and so long as there is Chi in the Universe, there will be life. Nature cares not how life takes its forms, only that life takes form. To understand this, is to know that the ultimate goal of any organism is to seek complete harmony with Nature. Why is it not then obvious to tell that a self destructive, exploitative, and disharmonious union with the Universe, with God, is to deny this inevitable gift we call life? We aim to surrender our current position at top of the food chain, and to reset this current iteration of life's code to allow the advancement of life to continue from its most primal origins once more. It has happened many times, life has reset to its most fundamental organisms, only to grow again into majestic, finely engineered, and continuously revised multicellular species. We are the first with the ability to choose! Why choose to die? Why choose to spend your energies denying the gift of life, to seek one's death, and to seek death for all other advanced life in the process? Why actively choose separation from God?
Our bodies are being poisoned by the very things which once created life. Our air is, every day, having more and more 'foreign' particulate matter purposely added to it by members of society with no fundamental understanding of meteorology, the dynamics of electro magnetism, or regard for future effects, in order to accomplish such proposed ideas as deflection of life-giving energy from the sun, and increased potentiality of weather modification weapons. Our oceans and seas are well underway to becoming completely inhospitable to life, the general public barely aware of the magnitude of pollutants being dumped into the oceans every day, sometimes intentional, sometimes wantonly. I personally believe the vast majority of sealife has become inedible by humans, due to its levels of heavy metals and other biomagnified pollution. Our lands are radioactive, our grasses and other sources of food for animal life are all become a source for vectors of biomagnified radiation poisoning. Toxic metals are able to be found in nearly all vegetative matter throughout the world, which often renders such notions as "organic" rather null. Our food comes from genetically altered organisms foreign to the evolutionary history of the Universe's grand devices, and is pushed by agendas that have no interest in health or nourishment. We rape our Earth and demand it provides us with satisfaction, while Nature bemoans our occupation and begins to plan its next grand products, as our exit is quickly arriving on the horizon.
When we cant rape our Earth we rape each other. What a malignant entity human beings are! Their migration throughout this planet yields nothing but extinction, and nothing but refusal to accept the pattern of life laid out by Nature's law. So foolish humans are, believing their several-hundred-thousand rotations about the sun have any significance to the billions upon billions performed by the Universe's handywork, and to believe they are engaging in some process they call "progress." We spend all of our energies killing each other, our governments, our establishments, our most complex and well engineered systems for sustaining society are all designed for the purpose of destroying human life. What a living contradiction!
TO BE CON'T HERE...
I am a pretty crazy person. My life can be summed as a series of ongoing experiments to prove my near-infinite speculations and hypotheses about life true. I do a lot of things which make little sense to some, like put myself through seemingly agonizing experiences for no practical or tangibly beneficial reason. I just tend to value things most for their absolute value, as opposed to their subjective value. For instance, I love to let pure molly roll around on my tongue for a bit, sure it could be perceived as a rather wretched taste, but I see it as a deep analyzation of the molecular structure of the compound, and I respect it for its particular flavor. I can say I fully appreciate the agony which can be caused by internal injuries, its important to understand such states. I do see the benefits in have had a viral infection which nearly killed me at one point in my life, to know such physical weakness and incapacitation can only make tolerance of future suffering far easier. Life is best to be experienced naked! Likewise Ill often take my food raw and without any sort of marinade, spice, or flavoring, simply because I want to experience the molecular structure of the original organism's fruits as naked as possible. I like to brush up against things in a way that allows one to take in their most uninhibited vibrations, to experience its quantum vibrations in its most primitive state. My mind is so vastly analytical that most who know me close are often commenting on its benefits and drawbacks, and certainly attempt to capitalize on its ability to solve certain problems (and likewise "capitalize" on entertaining themselves on its ability to fail miserably at other certain problems as well). The end result is that nearly every single thing I do is motivated by some deep, seemingly insane, and complex experiment I am conducting to test the limits of reality.
I only say this to demonstrate fully that I mean no harm. I am an extremely non violent person, my sparring partners love to jeer at my lack of desire to really damage another person's body (and likewise my teacher often demands that I perceive all sparring situations as the potential end of the universe), and part of the reason I am an avid student of the martial arts is my disposition towards violence. I would rather create a machine out of my body which has the final say if violence will have to happen or not, than be a completely passive creature. But, as the pattern of my life seems to trend, I endure ungodly amounts of pain in such studies in order to become immutable by pain. Again, I always appear to be engaging in some sort of activity, event, or lifestyle, which seems as though I enjoy misery on the surface (actually it is quite enjoyable, but we stoics are a hard-to-predict bunch).
This most recent "career" choice is is exactly the same. I couldnt have hated this job more. However, there hardly could have better been a training ground for infiltration and espionage. The amount of data I managed to store in my head while spending my time inside this beast was unreal. I successfully manipulated all my colleagues and superiors into thinking I was something I wasnt, as well as passed myself off as a valuable, hard working asset, when in reality I managed to create a steady stream of counterproductive activity. My martial endeavors were appreciated to such a degree that I was even allowed to bring some of my weapons to work, should I need to hit class immediately after. Not that it was ever a threat to anyone of the 3,500+ Eichmanns slithering throughout the infrastructure of the Death Star, but if they knew the mind that was drifting amongst their drones, I doubt I would have been assigned such liberties.
What we have here in this day and age is a rather grand conspiracy (!!! there! I said it! the "C" word. It really deserves no such introductions, it merely implies that more than one mind has gathered to plan something to your detriment but their benefit, no need for anymore a stigma than this). This conspiracy was engineered in the 1920s, and there is no theory about it, but merely a long trail of well connected facts. This conspiracy is only grand in so far as it has successfully manipulated its target into ignoring it. Disbelief is not even a threat so much as inaction. That being said, its a rather paltry conspiracy, and not so smoothly executed as inertia is relieved as soon as one becomes willing to drop out of its system.
We're being attacked on all fronts. We exist to promote a self destructive machination of greed, a clever yet infinitesimal fraction of human beings ability to reap life of its resources and consume them before the clock runs out. It is enslaving its host by means of casual yet methodical manipulation of the deepest recesses of the psyche, by means of poisoning its host into a state of sedation and enervation, and by means of creating a falsified perspective on the world and its network of always-interconnected events. One has no real obligation to care so much about such a predicament's moral connotations, but one should certainly be offended and have a desire to defend one's power to choose fate for one's self.
The real problem is that Nature is a stoic as well. Nature has no desire except "to do, to be." Life is extremely, extremely difficult to exterminate outright. The history of life on this planet shows this readily, that life is inevitable, however fragile in its advanced structures, will never disappear. Its major constituents can form int he most harshest environments of the Universe imaginable, and so long as there is Chi in the Universe, there will be life. Nature cares not how life takes its forms, only that life takes form. To understand this, is to know that the ultimate goal of any organism is to seek complete harmony with Nature. Why is it not then obvious to tell that a self destructive, exploitative, and disharmonious union with the Universe, with God, is to deny this inevitable gift we call life? We aim to surrender our current position at top of the food chain, and to reset this current iteration of life's code to allow the advancement of life to continue from its most primal origins once more. It has happened many times, life has reset to its most fundamental organisms, only to grow again into majestic, finely engineered, and continuously revised multicellular species. We are the first with the ability to choose! Why choose to die? Why choose to spend your energies denying the gift of life, to seek one's death, and to seek death for all other advanced life in the process? Why actively choose separation from God?
Our bodies are being poisoned by the very things which once created life. Our air is, every day, having more and more 'foreign' particulate matter purposely added to it by members of society with no fundamental understanding of meteorology, the dynamics of electro magnetism, or regard for future effects, in order to accomplish such proposed ideas as deflection of life-giving energy from the sun, and increased potentiality of weather modification weapons. Our oceans and seas are well underway to becoming completely inhospitable to life, the general public barely aware of the magnitude of pollutants being dumped into the oceans every day, sometimes intentional, sometimes wantonly. I personally believe the vast majority of sealife has become inedible by humans, due to its levels of heavy metals and other biomagnified pollution. Our lands are radioactive, our grasses and other sources of food for animal life are all become a source for vectors of biomagnified radiation poisoning. Toxic metals are able to be found in nearly all vegetative matter throughout the world, which often renders such notions as "organic" rather null. Our food comes from genetically altered organisms foreign to the evolutionary history of the Universe's grand devices, and is pushed by agendas that have no interest in health or nourishment. We rape our Earth and demand it provides us with satisfaction, while Nature bemoans our occupation and begins to plan its next grand products, as our exit is quickly arriving on the horizon.
When we cant rape our Earth we rape each other. What a malignant entity human beings are! Their migration throughout this planet yields nothing but extinction, and nothing but refusal to accept the pattern of life laid out by Nature's law. So foolish humans are, believing their several-hundred-thousand rotations about the sun have any significance to the billions upon billions performed by the Universe's handywork, and to believe they are engaging in some process they call "progress." We spend all of our energies killing each other, our governments, our establishments, our most complex and well engineered systems for sustaining society are all designed for the purpose of destroying human life. What a living contradiction!
TO BE CON'T HERE...
