Extreme Adderall Dependancy
Finally found one with a comparable history of speed abusage. Don't want to look like a fish here, but this is my first post here (hi all, sorry for bumping a year old thread) and ive noticed nobody speaks of SWIM; well due to my own (delusional?) paranoia I'll be speaking in the third person. Sorry if this annoys.
Just realized I wrote a bit more than people may care to read so if you don't care to read the biography below, I'll get to the point now.
Two people are each taking at least 200+mg of Adderall ir per day, every day, just to stay awake. On those occasional 4-5 days with no pills, an 8 ball of ice subs in. Taking a month vacation to sleep is really not an option at this point, it would really mess up A LOT of stuff.
I fear a long-term inpatient treatment program may realistically be the only option of recovery. I've found virtually no one else who has taken amp abuse to this level. Is there anyone out there who has, and successfully overcome it? I've heard the basic 'eat well, sleep, supplement...' but this isnt a few week binge on 90 pills, this is almost 90 pills a week, every week, for the past 90 weeks!
I fear the brain damage is permanent, is there anyone out there who has been through this and can offer some suggestions? I keep looking for a pharmaceutical remedy that will make this at least tolerable, l-tyrosine aint cutting it. Is there an ibogaine for stims?? I'm even starting to consider ECT after reading about its practice in modern times...
I am open to any advice or experienced wisdom you guys may be able to offer
Thanks
Background: A guy did his first blast of meth a little over 2 years ago....
But first... There was fairly extensive use of other drugs in the 10 years prior -no stim abuse, took 30mg XR addy daily as prescribed for about 3 years as a teen, No long term dependence on any one drug, but 2-4 month high dose binges on random stuff like motion sickness pills: 16-24 pills pretty much daily over one summer (yea i know...), 6-900mg dxm 2-3 times weekly for a few months, then there was the klonopin phase, next the alcoholic summer followed by the 2-ce winter. Finally the 18th birthday and shortly thereafter the short prison stint... Luckily these reckless binges were broken up by periods of various levels of incarceration in juvenile facilities. Despite several trips to the ER, one to the ICU, even a couple nut huts, the body (or at least brain) seemed to be in pretty good shape; virtually perfect scores on college entrance exams, this dumb mother fucker still had a bright future ahead of him! but then...
...to the moon with that one quarter g and literally didn't come down for 9 months. I don't really recall any, but obviously there had to be SOME sleep in there some where, but nothing like actually coming down. Estimate about 10 or 11 days in there when no dope was injected, but for the other 97% of the time it was IV daily, escalating to 2g daily near the end.
And near the end, this dumb mother fucker wasn't feeling too hot. Down from 180 to 120lb soaking wet, "huh" , "wha?" , and "mm.." the only words left in the vocabulary. Couldn't ever take a full breath (can anyone explain that effect?
). didnt even want the dope at this point, didn't feel good just hurt the lungs, just kept on going cus.. just because i guess, didn't give it much thought at the time (there wasn't a whole lot of thought
left to even give).
Randomly given 2 klonopin one night on a drive and then.. flashing lights! finally! salvation in the form of handcuffs. Thank god its over (ironic considering the constant, overwhelming paranoia of the law experienced not too long before) brief euphoria at the thought of the solitary nothingness to soon enjoy for who knows how long. Then the 'pins kicked in and to sleep in the back of the squad car.
Sleep for the next 5 months of incarceration due to parole violation.
Out now, feeling pretty damn good actually started working out the last month in jail. The nightmare is over. Except...
Now there is an ongoing adderall addiction with the girlfriend. Shes been using it pretty much non stop for the past 4 years, and A LOT OF IT, at one point she was up to 240mg Add. IR per day. Now they share about 420mg IRs/day. Not to get fucked up, long gone are the days of getting twacked out, it's to bed every night and 60mg parachuted just to get back out of bed every morning. This sucks.
If anyone noticed my contradiction in that I posted this in the middle of the night, a benzo has given me extreme energy tonite, idk why, wish it did just by itself maybe that would be all i need..?
Thank You All for your time and input!!!
