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Seven Personal Victories in 2010
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vortex30
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I'll try but I'm not sure I can get 7...
1) Quit Mephedrone - Now 10 days away from 8 months off it. As a side note, I only added 3 new drugs to my list of drugs I've done in 2010, that's down from 15 in '08 and 7 in '09...I suppose I've already gotten most of the basics aside from Heroin, Methamphetamine and Crack, but this shows that I'm taking less risks with obscure RCs, with only Hydromorphone, MDA and Flurazepam being added in 2010.
2) Fitness - Really got into some good stints of fitness, did a 10km race, back on it hard starting tomorrow.
3) Girls - Finally got a bit of a sex-drive back, actually told a girl I liked her (hadn't done that before...I know...), she liked me back and although it's complicated at the moment and all, for a 20 year old I think this is pretty important, to finally have a taste of intimacy and maybe not falling in love like I hoped, but something tangible that I can build on.
4) Became re-focused on education/successful future - Although my marks don't reflect it, I am determined to succeed in school and am taking possible career paths more seriously.
5) Outgoing (but when I want to be) - I've started to hang out with a lot of old friends and some new ones and I've actually made moves to have social interaction when I desire, but also have become comfortable staying in on Fridays/Saturdays when my housemates go out drinking, something I'd usually end up awkwardly leaving early in the night, or just not really enjoy much.
6) Personality - I feel I've finally developed a bit more of my own personality and image of myself, and I'm not constantly leeching off others as much. Though I do find pieces of my friends in this personality I've developed, it is more of a constant personality than one that always switches based on who I'm hanging around like mine used to.
7) READING! - I finally started to read my own books that I want to read again rather than only school books (and I hardly read those, now I read both). I love reading but I haven't ever embraced this except for a few stints in the past but now I'm really into it!
Woot, got 7!
EDIT
Awesome job on the 21km n3o! I'll try to have that on my list for next year, hehe!
1) Quit Mephedrone - Now 10 days away from 8 months off it. As a side note, I only added 3 new drugs to my list of drugs I've done in 2010, that's down from 15 in '08 and 7 in '09...I suppose I've already gotten most of the basics aside from Heroin, Methamphetamine and Crack, but this shows that I'm taking less risks with obscure RCs, with only Hydromorphone, MDA and Flurazepam being added in 2010.
2) Fitness - Really got into some good stints of fitness, did a 10km race, back on it hard starting tomorrow.
3) Girls - Finally got a bit of a sex-drive back, actually told a girl I liked her (hadn't done that before...I know...), she liked me back and although it's complicated at the moment and all, for a 20 year old I think this is pretty important, to finally have a taste of intimacy and maybe not falling in love like I hoped, but something tangible that I can build on.
4) Became re-focused on education/successful future - Although my marks don't reflect it, I am determined to succeed in school and am taking possible career paths more seriously.
5) Outgoing (but when I want to be) - I've started to hang out with a lot of old friends and some new ones and I've actually made moves to have social interaction when I desire, but also have become comfortable staying in on Fridays/Saturdays when my housemates go out drinking, something I'd usually end up awkwardly leaving early in the night, or just not really enjoy much.
6) Personality - I feel I've finally developed a bit more of my own personality and image of myself, and I'm not constantly leeching off others as much. Though I do find pieces of my friends in this personality I've developed, it is more of a constant personality than one that always switches based on who I'm hanging around like mine used to.
7) READING! - I finally started to read my own books that I want to read again rather than only school books (and I hardly read those, now I read both). I love reading but I haven't ever embraced this except for a few stints in the past but now I'm really into it!
Woot, got 7!
EDIT
Awesome job on the 21km n3o! I'll try to have that on my list for next year, hehe!
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Apostacious
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I am glad to read that you are much happier in your life, Jamshyd. This may sound strange/awkward because you don't know me very well, but I was actually a little worried about you when you were dropping out of university and suffering from the harsh effects of benzodiazepine withdrawal. I have been through such things, and know that the depression (to say the least) surrounding said events can be overwhelming.
Here are my personal victories:
1. Maintaining excellent standing at my college, and am able to pretty much choose which University I want to go next year.
2. Am now able to maintain good relationships with both of my parents.
3. Have returned to amiable relations with my brother.
4. Have avoided alcohol altogether (however, I have been imbibing too much kratom tea)
5. Am focused on a career path which actually interests me.
6. Am steadily becoming more sociable.
Here are my personal victories:
1. Maintaining excellent standing at my college, and am able to pretty much choose which University I want to go next year.
2. Am now able to maintain good relationships with both of my parents.
3. Have returned to amiable relations with my brother.
4. Have avoided alcohol altogether (however, I have been imbibing too much kratom tea)
5. Am focused on a career path which actually interests me.
6. Am steadily becoming more sociable.
Awesome job on the 21km n3o! I'll try to have that on my list for next year, hehe!
Thank you both!! I've got my next half-marathon in March, and my first full marathon in July
You should definitely both do a half!! Go for it!
Also, vortex, you acheived some great things in 2010, good on you man
ocean
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I have been thinking about this and its difficult to come up with seven for me but I will try:
1) I began looking at myself more closely through therapy
2) I Recognized things that made me suffer from more panic
3) I recognized that I had allowed myself to build up with anger which is something I don't like- so I started letting it go again.
4) I decided to focus on my physical health
5) I realized that thinking about me is not selfish
6) I forgave some things/people that I needed to.
7) I saw the wrongs of my actions in my everyday life and decided I needed to work to change them.
1) I began looking at myself more closely through therapy
2) I Recognized things that made me suffer from more panic
3) I recognized that I had allowed myself to build up with anger which is something I don't like- so I started letting it go again.
4) I decided to focus on my physical health
5) I realized that thinking about me is not selfish
6) I forgave some things/people that I needed to.
7) I saw the wrongs of my actions in my everyday life and decided I needed to work to change them.