Hi, I'm new to this whole bluelight thread posting thing but I'm just looking for answers (more)
Ok so on the 20th of April some friends and I went out and someone had these caps called 5apb, I'd never heard of them before but were told they were just like MDMA caps but better...
I was hesitant to take one at first but after a few others took it and were pretty normal I decided to go ahead..
I had absolutely nothing at all other than this cap, no alcohol, no drugs prescription or otherwise and don't take any form of medications in general and also don't normally drink alcohol generally, I'd say I have a glass of alcohol maybe once a month if that.
In the club the cap started kicking in and initially I felt amazing, it was literally the best feeling I have ever felt in my life, I couldn't stop smiling and just as it was marketed it was extremely better then the best MDMA I'd ever had, incredible...
It was like a dream, my eyes became heavy and with each blink my eyes stayed closed for longer, when I tried to keep them open they would roll back into my head, I started swaying and having auditory and visual hallucinations, I could hear the ocean...like huge waves crashing down but more mechanical
After that I collapsed and other people said I had a 'seizure', I'm not sure if I actually had one or not or if it was just intense myoclonus and tremors that people assumed to be a seizure..
I was carried into the back room where an ambulance was called and I was taken to a nearby hospital, I have no memory of this at all...
I only have 2 instances of auditory memory and 1 of visual of the collapse and a couple of sternal rubs, I heard people talking twice and once I got a visual of my hand that was completely hyperflexed backwards and in my head at this point I thought 'I'm going to die'...
I woke up in the hospital delerius and had a doctor standing at the foot of my bed lifting my lower leg up and quickly dorsi flexing my foot which would make my entire leg violently shudder, he kept calling other doctors and nurses in to 'come have a look at this' and they would gasp and say 'omg thats so scary', I couldn't talk at this point so just layed there and was sort of in and out of consciousness, I was so scared and thought I was definitely going to die as I was being 'shown' to other doctors..
Hospital and progress reports: (the writing is really hard to read so sorry if it doesn't make sense..)
Starts out with ....year old F with serotonin syndrome then goes on to list signs and symtoms and the nurse/progress reports of my stay (was there for 15hrs)
Pupils dilated
Teeth grinding
Ocular clonus
Shivering
Eyes rolling in back of head
Hypertensive (initially)
Tonic clonic movement
Tachycardic
Mildly hyperthermic
Strong rapid pulse
Lower and upper limb clonus, later it says ankle and wrist clonus
Down going plantars
Temp - 36.4 degrees
BP - 145/70 and later 86/48 then stabilised after IVT to 100/60
GCS - 11
HR - 160 then later 112
My bloods didn't include liver function? but everything was normal except Glucose - 5.8 and eGFR - 76
The report is 12 pages long and different doctors/nurses have written in it and the hand writing is pretty hard to make out so I certain I've missed things and or misinterpreted things...
Afterwards I went to a doctor because I felt really strange, I had really bad headaches and just felt unusual, like nothing was real and I was just floating around, I kind of had no feelings I didn't feel sad or angry or happy...I don't know how to explain it I just felt nothing and delirius/out of it, I was concerned and the doctor I saw just fobbed me off and told me I had nothing to worry about and go home..
I went to see another doctor who requested my paperwork from the hospital as my discharge summary was an uninformative one liner..and he basically said the same thing...go home and rest
I haven't been the same since...I have muscle twitches all the time, I still feel delerius half the time like I can't think straight or put sentences together or convey what I'm thinking into words, I occasionally have visual hallucinations, and nothing seems real, I can't sleep at night and constantly look up SS! It's like I don't care about anything anymore and have no varying emotion. I slept for a whole week after the SS then got really sick with the flu for 3 weeks, I'm so much better now but still not back to normal..
I'm worried about permanent damage and long term affects?
Ok so on the 20th of April some friends and I went out and someone had these caps called 5apb, I'd never heard of them before but were told they were just like MDMA caps but better...
I was hesitant to take one at first but after a few others took it and were pretty normal I decided to go ahead..
I had absolutely nothing at all other than this cap, no alcohol, no drugs prescription or otherwise and don't take any form of medications in general and also don't normally drink alcohol generally, I'd say I have a glass of alcohol maybe once a month if that.
In the club the cap started kicking in and initially I felt amazing, it was literally the best feeling I have ever felt in my life, I couldn't stop smiling and just as it was marketed it was extremely better then the best MDMA I'd ever had, incredible...
It was like a dream, my eyes became heavy and with each blink my eyes stayed closed for longer, when I tried to keep them open they would roll back into my head, I started swaying and having auditory and visual hallucinations, I could hear the ocean...like huge waves crashing down but more mechanical
After that I collapsed and other people said I had a 'seizure', I'm not sure if I actually had one or not or if it was just intense myoclonus and tremors that people assumed to be a seizure..
I was carried into the back room where an ambulance was called and I was taken to a nearby hospital, I have no memory of this at all...
I only have 2 instances of auditory memory and 1 of visual of the collapse and a couple of sternal rubs, I heard people talking twice and once I got a visual of my hand that was completely hyperflexed backwards and in my head at this point I thought 'I'm going to die'...
I woke up in the hospital delerius and had a doctor standing at the foot of my bed lifting my lower leg up and quickly dorsi flexing my foot which would make my entire leg violently shudder, he kept calling other doctors and nurses in to 'come have a look at this' and they would gasp and say 'omg thats so scary', I couldn't talk at this point so just layed there and was sort of in and out of consciousness, I was so scared and thought I was definitely going to die as I was being 'shown' to other doctors..
Hospital and progress reports: (the writing is really hard to read so sorry if it doesn't make sense..)
Starts out with ....year old F with serotonin syndrome then goes on to list signs and symtoms and the nurse/progress reports of my stay (was there for 15hrs)
Pupils dilated
Teeth grinding
Ocular clonus
Shivering
Eyes rolling in back of head
Hypertensive (initially)
Tonic clonic movement
Tachycardic
Mildly hyperthermic
Strong rapid pulse
Lower and upper limb clonus, later it says ankle and wrist clonus
Down going plantars
Temp - 36.4 degrees
BP - 145/70 and later 86/48 then stabilised after IVT to 100/60
GCS - 11
HR - 160 then later 112
My bloods didn't include liver function? but everything was normal except Glucose - 5.8 and eGFR - 76
The report is 12 pages long and different doctors/nurses have written in it and the hand writing is pretty hard to make out so I certain I've missed things and or misinterpreted things...
Afterwards I went to a doctor because I felt really strange, I had really bad headaches and just felt unusual, like nothing was real and I was just floating around, I kind of had no feelings I didn't feel sad or angry or happy...I don't know how to explain it I just felt nothing and delirius/out of it, I was concerned and the doctor I saw just fobbed me off and told me I had nothing to worry about and go home..
I went to see another doctor who requested my paperwork from the hospital as my discharge summary was an uninformative one liner..and he basically said the same thing...go home and rest
I haven't been the same since...I have muscle twitches all the time, I still feel delerius half the time like I can't think straight or put sentences together or convey what I'm thinking into words, I occasionally have visual hallucinations, and nothing seems real, I can't sleep at night and constantly look up SS! It's like I don't care about anything anymore and have no varying emotion. I slept for a whole week after the SS then got really sick with the flu for 3 weeks, I'm so much better now but still not back to normal..
I'm worried about permanent damage and long term affects?