I mainly wrote this so that people would realize this is not a recreational drug (I thought this was obvious till recently). For those who didn't read part 1 and 2...who am I kidding no one is reading this. But one and two are just about me going to the doctor and telling him I stopped my meds because they were too sedating. I am bipolar and most meds for bipolar are too sedating Seroquel being one. It's classified as a major tranquilizer. Xanax is considered a minor tranquilizer. This doesn't at all mean the two have comparable effects!!! It does mean that Seroquel is a lot stronger though.
Was only taking 75-100 a night and I was supposed to be taking 150. I had to smoke tons of weed just to get out of bed I felt so bad. Lately I'm cutting the pills down to 25mg pieces (very hard to do even after years of psych meds). The doctor has greatly underestimated the power this medication has. Despite me explaining to him that I am sensitive he has bumped me back up to 200. 25mg works just fine and I shouldn't have to go behind my doctors back and try and dry cut a 200 mg pill.
Seroquel is an emotional straight-jacket. Under its grip I never got too sad, too happy, or too anxious. But I just feel like shit all the time and there's no more elegant way to put that. I think "may cause you to feel like shit" should be on the label. When your on Seroquel its exactly like being on drugs except without any euphoria, hallucinations, or tangible benefits.
The only tangible benefit is a total escape from your mind. Your body runs the show and your mind folllows two steps behind. You do things without even processing them because you can barely process anything. I work as a cook and I couldn't remember what I had made because I was on a poor version of auto pilot. Ridiculous short-term memory loss. I had to stop to keep my job.
I got slight progress with the doc. The doctor wants me to try Celexa instead of Remeron to help with my anxiety. Despite the fact that anti-depressants easily cause mania in bipolar people and that I have reacted poorly to at least 20 AD's. I haven't added up the number as of yet.
But all is not lost. I like this doctor and I think I am starting to establish a good relationship with him. I'm finally willing to sit through whatever adjustments need to be made and do my best to be a good patient.
Was only taking 75-100 a night and I was supposed to be taking 150. I had to smoke tons of weed just to get out of bed I felt so bad. Lately I'm cutting the pills down to 25mg pieces (very hard to do even after years of psych meds). The doctor has greatly underestimated the power this medication has. Despite me explaining to him that I am sensitive he has bumped me back up to 200. 25mg works just fine and I shouldn't have to go behind my doctors back and try and dry cut a 200 mg pill.
Seroquel is an emotional straight-jacket. Under its grip I never got too sad, too happy, or too anxious. But I just feel like shit all the time and there's no more elegant way to put that. I think "may cause you to feel like shit" should be on the label. When your on Seroquel its exactly like being on drugs except without any euphoria, hallucinations, or tangible benefits.
The only tangible benefit is a total escape from your mind. Your body runs the show and your mind folllows two steps behind. You do things without even processing them because you can barely process anything. I work as a cook and I couldn't remember what I had made because I was on a poor version of auto pilot. Ridiculous short-term memory loss. I had to stop to keep my job.
I got slight progress with the doc. The doctor wants me to try Celexa instead of Remeron to help with my anxiety. Despite the fact that anti-depressants easily cause mania in bipolar people and that I have reacted poorly to at least 20 AD's. I haven't added up the number as of yet.
But all is not lost. I like this doctor and I think I am starting to establish a good relationship with him. I'm finally willing to sit through whatever adjustments need to be made and do my best to be a good patient.
