He doesn't know what it's like to have a very addictive personality, and i recently just stole all his adderall, and i regret it now and told him about it (after i went through like 10-12 pills) and am trying to return it but after I told him he just said 'fuck you' and hasn't talked to me since... And I have to see him in person tomorrow because he'll be at the house where my H is getting dropped off...
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Seriously pissed off a good friend
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Lolie
Bluelighter
If you place the blame for betraying his trust on your addiction, don't be surprised if he's unwilling to consider forgiving you while you're still using. Forgiveness - if it happens at all - comes on the schedule of the wronged party. It's not an entitlement.
This may be a permanent deal-breaker for your friend or it may be something you can work through, but if he doesn't want to talk to you at the moment you need to respect that.
This may be a permanent deal-breaker for your friend or it may be something you can work through, but if he doesn't want to talk to you at the moment you need to respect that.
villian
Bluelighter
You need to take responsibility for your actions and not use your "addictive personality" as a cop out.
I do hope that you can salvage this relationship though.
I do hope that you can salvage this relationship though.
lestahb
Bluelighter
It took me a long time to learn that "I'm sorry" can't be followed with a "but" or really anything at all, or it negates the apology. I lost a good friend over that and I still regret it.
Alright you guys are right. I do need to take responsibility, I fall back onto my 'addiction' as a form of rationalization to do things for my own personal gain. Sometimes I disgust myself. But my friend apparently was intoxicated when he read my message and he's sobered up now and says that it's cool, that he's done some asshole things before and that I shouldn't sweat it. BTW I was drunk when I stole the medicine, typically I would've had more self-restraint. But man I kinda ran through most of his pills pretty fast but I made sure that he'll have enough to finish his finals this Monday and Tuesday. He isn't much of a recreational user of and and doesn't take it on days with no school, but I do think he still uses it sometimes for recreational reasons. But when I return it to him I'll give him $<snip> for the pills that I took, I think he'll be pleasantly surprised, I hope, or he'll just be pissed that I ran through like 20 pills (they're 15mg <snip>). But I think that he kinda expects there to be not that much left.
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8L4YN3
Bluelighter
Alright dude honestly what did you expect his reaction to be? Don't blame your addictive personality. You're trying to pin the blame on you having some uncontrollable problem.... It's not like you would be physically sick if you didn't steal his pills..... So dont act like you were possessed by some outside force when you did this.
You knew exactly what you were doing, 100% calculated, you just wanted to get high... Not that this would make it any better, but i would sympathize more for you if you were severely dope sick and stole some dope to just end the agony...
But you were just jonessing for some amps man, and you clearly reasoned with yourself that you could just take your friends pills, then fix it all up with a simple apology, claiming your addictive mind drove you to do it and that once you pay him back all will be fine...
Dosn't work this way my friend, people aren't stupid you know. He knows you werent trying to escape complete agony or something.... he obviously knows you thought you could get away with completely disrespecting him and his trust for you....
So first of all stop lying to yourself and own up to the fact that you did a complete cunt-act to a good friend, let him know you fucked up and that you take full responsibility for your actions, don't try and seek sympathy and blame your actions on an addictive personality. You werent trying to escape some horrible withdrawal or anything, you just wanted something that wasn't yours and assumed you could take the pills, your friend would be annoyed, and that it would all just blow over, now you're realising your friend isn't a fucking idiot and has worked things out.
Finally, go get some help for your addictive personality. If you cant control yourself from stealing a good friends prescription amps, you clearly have a fucking problem.. And as you claimed in the post you use heroin, you're on a one way ticket to becoming a complete and utter drug addicted homeless wreck...
Sorry to come off harsh but truth hurts, i hope you heed my advice and don't end up with a serious, or more serious opiate addiction, good luck.
Also whats with people NEEDING amps just to get through school lol... sad.
Well here's a story to think about. I am a chronic pain patient and I am also an addict. I walk that fine line between addiction and dependence everyday. I've been off the junkbalmostb25 years with o slipbup several months back. Won't kick myself in the ass and its a whole nother story.
Last february I was on 300mg morphine 3200mg neurontin.b60mg norco and 40 mgs a day all prescribed. I also had pneumoniaband began abusing diduad and valium along. With nyquil in this mix.
Well what happened was this. I ODd straight up.g my 17 yr old son found me totally non responsive bleeding from noneband mouth. Called 911 the shocked me a few timesband then narcand me. Saved my life.
I woke up on a ventilator with a central line in my neck.bcatheters. and all the stuff that comes along with serius od. Was put into tempbcoma etc. So 5 days later I end up in ccu instead of icu and few days later nurses start treating me bad calling me junkie and shit anbibdecidedbto leave.
Call my best fried and tell her tobcome get me the fuck out. She comes and gets me and I get home and go to take my regular meds and they aren't there. She told my 17 yr old son they'd be safer at her house...........and he beleived her......nitch. so in seven days she goe through 150 10mg norco. 150 60mg morphine . 120 baclofen and 120 800mg neurontin. Plus my private stash of 90 2mg xanax.........and my chronic. She confesses this to me and I was so sick all I could say was. Well your a fucking drug addict what else should I have expected from you. So I'm fresh outta the hospital and I gotta kick? Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Good thing next day was pain dr apt. But .......
Because I understood she was a junkie and I understood. I forgave her..........I didn't ever trust her. But I forgave her. It was strictly selfish on my part. So I could release the hate from my heart.
2 months later I was in icu again and she broke in and stole my meds
1 months later I went hypoxic because oxygen mask slipped off in my sleep. She burnt me again...........once a junkie always a junkie.
So here we are a year later. I'm off almost everything and learning to live with the pain. She's a fucking mess and I'm trying to find her a rehab. I am glad I was able to look past the addictionband into her heart. We are still friends. Do I trust her.....no way. Lol. But I do still love her and am able to see the potential for the excellent person she may eventually become.. perhaps your friend will be able to see the same thing.
Last february I was on 300mg morphine 3200mg neurontin.b60mg norco and 40 mgs a day all prescribed. I also had pneumoniaband began abusing diduad and valium along. With nyquil in this mix.
Well what happened was this. I ODd straight up.g my 17 yr old son found me totally non responsive bleeding from noneband mouth. Called 911 the shocked me a few timesband then narcand me. Saved my life.
I woke up on a ventilator with a central line in my neck.bcatheters. and all the stuff that comes along with serius od. Was put into tempbcoma etc. So 5 days later I end up in ccu instead of icu and few days later nurses start treating me bad calling me junkie and shit anbibdecidedbto leave.
Call my best fried and tell her tobcome get me the fuck out. She comes and gets me and I get home and go to take my regular meds and they aren't there. She told my 17 yr old son they'd be safer at her house...........and he beleived her......nitch. so in seven days she goe through 150 10mg norco. 150 60mg morphine . 120 baclofen and 120 800mg neurontin. Plus my private stash of 90 2mg xanax.........and my chronic. She confesses this to me and I was so sick all I could say was. Well your a fucking drug addict what else should I have expected from you. So I'm fresh outta the hospital and I gotta kick? Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Good thing next day was pain dr apt. But .......
Because I understood she was a junkie and I understood. I forgave her..........I didn't ever trust her. But I forgave her. It was strictly selfish on my part. So I could release the hate from my heart.
2 months later I was in icu again and she broke in and stole my meds
1 months later I went hypoxic because oxygen mask slipped off in my sleep. She burnt me again...........once a junkie always a junkie.
So here we are a year later. I'm off almost everything and learning to live with the pain. She's a fucking mess and I'm trying to find her a rehab. I am glad I was able to look past the addictionband into her heart. We are still friends. Do I trust her.....no way. Lol. But I do still love her and am able to see the potential for the excellent person she may eventually become.. perhaps your friend will be able to see the same thing.
^^^forreal, if you keep letting her steal from you like that don't expect her to just stop, sounds like she's just using you for your drugs. One time I may be able to look past, but common, three times? And once she actually broke in to your house to steal them..Someone who really loves you wouldn't do that shit IMO.
Haha! Yep. I let her burn me.but for some reason I kept letting her in. Like I said now she's all bungled up and I'm bout clean. She's seriously trying to get off. I'm trying to get her into a mmedically supervised detox and that may happen this week. Everyone said how in the hell could you overlook it. Simple I used to be worse off then her and I beat it. And for some reason I just could not give up on her. I'm glad I haven't. But....................we will see what the future holds. I may change my mind. My fogiving her was purely selfish. It was to lift the burden fromme. Not her. She lives with the guilt everytime she sees me. Lol. Perhaps thefriend of op may be able to forgive not ever forgrt but frgive. But to the op. Iys best if you fess up and let the chips fall where they may. Btw. Myfroend has no idea what I am on now and shed have to blow my place up to fin anything. I did indeed forgive. Bbut will never forget.
Lolie
Bluelighter
If you're sometimes doing things which make you disgust yourself, it's time to take a long, hard look at who you've become. Things might work out fine this time around but when you start betraying the trust of friends you're eventually going to burn some bridges which cannot be rebuilt.
There are plenty of "nobody will trust me or give me a chance" threads around here - now would be a good time to make the changes necessary to ensure you're not the author of a future one.
shahab6
Bluelighter
what did u expect? If someone stole my drugs, u know how pissed I would be, considering something its such a hassle to get drugs. And some people even have a certain limit of drugs they can get within a month, and if thats stolen they would be very pissed..
he must have been a very good friend to have forgiven you, I wouldn't have..
I think you should make it up for him, buy him something or ect..
he must have been a very good friend to have forgiven you, I wouldn't have..
I think you should make it up for him, buy him something or ect..
heythatsmybike
Bluelighter
Addiction isn't a disease
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
It's one thing to have an addictive personality, it's another to steal a medication.
For all you know, he might have already filed a police report so he can get another prescription from his doctor.
What would happen if he took your bottle of medicine, or dope, or what have you? Think of these things man. Some people fiend harder than you; do you think that they are entitled to your stuff?
You should at the very least return what you haven't taken, because it's really messed up you took it in the first place.
For all you know, he might have already filed a police report so he can get another prescription from his doctor.
What would happen if he took your bottle of medicine, or dope, or what have you? Think of these things man. Some people fiend harder than you; do you think that they are entitled to your stuff?
You should at the very least return what you haven't taken, because it's really messed up you took it in the first place.
Lolie
Bluelighter
Hope you got some meds back to your friend in time for his finals and that he passed with flying colours.
yea man i already returned his meds and payed him for the ones i took so stop telling me to make it up to him and give him back his meds cause i already posted that i did earlier so just stop i already feel stupid enough to post what i did on here and guilty enough for doing it.
Hey at least you fessed up. You gave him back what was left and you paid for what you took. And you still have the good sense to feel guilty. Sometimes guilt is a good emotion-feeling to have. It makes us pay attention and examine ourselves..
Don't feel bad about posting what you did here. I'm sure there are plenty who have done the same or worse.
When my friend did it to me I would have been forced into withdrawls from 4 drugs if I didn't happen to have my pain management apt the next day.
Like I said I forgave her. I don't trust her and I hide ny meds if I know she's gonna come by. In fact I've learned tohide my meds from just about everyone now. But I'm still friends with her. I remember a time when I was in worse shape then her by a longshot. I never stole anyones meds dope etc because I didn't have too. I had it all readily available...but if I didn't have the access that I had..........maybe just maybe I would have done the same.
When your friend forgives you. You must also lean to forgive yourself.
Much luck
Don't feel bad about posting what you did here. I'm sure there are plenty who have done the same or worse.
When my friend did it to me I would have been forced into withdrawls from 4 drugs if I didn't happen to have my pain management apt the next day.
Like I said I forgave her. I don't trust her and I hide ny meds if I know she's gonna come by. In fact I've learned tohide my meds from just about everyone now. But I'm still friends with her. I remember a time when I was in worse shape then her by a longshot. I never stole anyones meds dope etc because I didn't have too. I had it all readily available...but if I didn't have the access that I had..........maybe just maybe I would have done the same.
When your friend forgives you. You must also lean to forgive yourself.
Much luck