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JDank82

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Ok sorry for the serious question don't wanna be a buzz kill but it's something that's been on my mind for a bit now so just seeing if anyone else has any thoughts to help see it better or maybe in a different light . So I'm prescribed Suboxone, Klonopin and dex amp (Adderall). I take in order from above 4 mgs, 2 mg's and only when I have a busy day at work etc. probably once or twice every few weeks 40-60 mgs. Be nice now if you were me and someone asked if I was sober would it be crazy to say yes? Now a bit of backstory: I've loved drugs since I turned 15 some better than others but I've done nearly all of them and was able to stick to just bud and psychedelics from 16 to 29 but had a weak moment and opiates took over. Fast forward 13 years of heavy addiction (none of my prescribed meds) almost exclusively heroin but also a bit of pretty much everything else. No kids or marriages ruined luckily (yet)..so I guess i already know the answers I'm sure to get, if any, that say no im not close to sober taking my prescribed meds but is not for nothing that I have zero desire to use any other drugs or even drink and have yet to have one person accuse me of being high while on my meds? Is this just a bandaid or would it be sustainable to stay on this path for the future? Try not to stomp on my hopes too hard plz 🙏
 
Honestly, you seem sober-er than me. You take drugs to live without drugs, if im reading this right. Seems like you're trying very hard to stay away from drugs that are recreational to you, and you're probably physically dependant, but so is my grandmother on Lyrica, and I wouldn't consider her a junkie or not sober. You dont get psychoactive effects once you take drugs long enough, at consistent dosages. Your body looks for equilibrium. This is a big reason I oppose every day (psychiatric) meds, thats just drugging people permanently to change their chemistry. As needed is medicine. But having taken these drugs for extended periods of time, and presumably having tolerance (especially to subs), I would say that you're as sober as anybody who gets medicated for anything in this day and age. Depending on your definition, but I'd say you're sober, and if not, have made huge strides to get there.
 
Ok sorry for the serious question don't wanna be a buzz kill but it's something that's been on my mind for a bit now so just seeing if anyone else has any thoughts to help see it better or maybe in a different light . So I'm prescribed Suboxone, Klonopin and dex amp (Adderall). I take in order from above 4 mgs, 2 mg's and only when I have a busy day at work etc. probably once or twice every few weeks 40-60 mgs. Be nice now if you were me and someone asked if I was sober would it be crazy to say yes? Now a bit of backstory: I've loved drugs since I turned 15 some better than others but I've done nearly all of them and was able to stick to just bud and psychedelics from 16 to 29 but had a weak moment and opiates took over. Fast forward 13 years of heavy addiction (none of my prescribed meds) almost exclusively heroin but also a bit of pretty much everything else. No kids or marriages ruined luckily (yet)..so I guess i already know the answers I'm sure to get, if any, that say no im not close to sober taking my prescribed meds but is not for nothing that I have zero desire to use any other drugs or even drink and have yet to have one person accuse me of being high while on my meds? Is this just a bandaid or would it be sustainable to stay on this path for the future? Try not to stomp on my hopes too hard plz 🙏
I think you're doing good. Sounds like you are in a sustainable equilibrium and not screwing up your life. Perhaps in the future you might want to scale back some drugs that you are using, for whatever reason, but if you can maintain yourself in a reasonably healthy state, then that's good in my book.
Just be self aware and keep an eye on yourself to make sure it's all right working for you. Probably most people are doing maintenance on some sort of addictive substance or another ( coffee, alcohol, SSRIs for eg ) and they go to work, have personal relationships, etc.
Good luck ♥️
 
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