Seperate minds/concerns?

[BigfootDragon]

ok, this may sound strange... but when i first started popping e's this happened to me. when i was rolling, i'd have kinda two minds... like, i knew i was there, having a great time, but i was also still thinking about all the other things going on in my life. it seems to have gone away now and i can fully let myself go and forget everything while i'm at a party.
has anyone else had this or a similar problem? or should i just slink back into me hole?

take care
bigfoot dragon

 

[Space Frog]

i know what you mean buddy

i started out on trips so i've never had this happen on e's, but it was a similar sort of thing. i'd go out somewhere, drop a T and be dancing, but at the same time part of my mind was thinking of my parents or my schoolwork, or other little things from other areas of my life. whilst i didn't find it a HUge problem, it was kinda annoying as it never really let me relax completely and become totally absorbed by the music and the good time i was having with my friends.
for me i guess this sort of "two mind" experience has disappeared as i have grown up a little bit (ok, only a little...)and become less depressed and more confident in myself. i have also come to appreciated the music and my friends a great deal more, with these being the main focus of my night, instead of MY drug experience.
so u r not alone!

 

[Hamlet]

i used to be like that and it was hard for me to have a good time without feeling guilty or beong worried about something...
then one day i said to myslef...ur going out might as well forgett about all else...i did. since then whenever i go out, i leave all my worries, problems, issues at home and go and party my ass off....

 

[Leprechaun]

I wonder what you forget abou tif you don't have any problems or worries in the first place. SHEESH, I feel like I am partying all the time.

 

[Transtar]

wow i was jsut gonna start a new thread but i came upon this one, so i thought i mite ask a question.. i also have this two-minded thingy, but i tend to get more paranoid as the nite goes one, until i come down of course... does anyone know antyhing that i can do to stop being as paranoid? i always tell myself b4 i drop to remember that no one is a cop and dont think everyone's out to get me... but as soon i start rollin ballz, the paranoia sets in! dont get me wrong tho, i also get that warm lovey feeling too, but the paranoia kills it..
is it the pill? or is this just me?? some pills seem to get me more scattered than others, but almost all the time i start thinking wierd thoughts that end up ruining my nite... HELP!
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why drink & drive when you can roll & fly?

 

[Voodoo Chile]

Transtar, are you having speedy pills? Speed tends to make me (and a number of other people) really paranoid.
I remember one party, a guy had one of those DEA shirts - has everyone seen them? Anyway, I became convinced he was really from the DEA. I WAS SHITTING MYSELF!!! I kept telling everyone to hide their drugs and to take them all so they didn't get caught. It wasn't until I saw the guy later and saw how fucked he was that I realised that I was letting the drugs take over. I was able to laugh at it though, and now vow to take less speed!!

 

[djxlr8]

It's just like that joke thats going around at the moment...
I was having problems with my schizophrenia, but we're both alright now!
Boom Tish
Timbo

 

[BliSSS*]

I get that, I don't find it a problem, because its doesn't really bother me, I know to stop myself thinking about the certain thing then I just have to work out what I'm going to do about it. And it's not during the night but rather in the morning of the next dayt when I'm slightly clear headed & can remember any commitments I have.
Its usually that I start thinking about a big huge bunch of things, I figure out a plan of what to do about it etc & I'm fine. Usually its involving my boyfriend aswell and what I need for closure is just to explain to him what has to be done, majority of the tikme he won't listen because he doesn't like dealing with real issues while on chemicals (because all feelings are fake because of the drugs) and thats the bit that bothers me cause I don't have closure. I usually kind of quickly yell it at him so I am louder than anything he is saying and I get it out quickly before he can stop me, or if that doesn't work then I just write it down.
And I'm fine cause I have it all sorted.
It works great

So even if I don't follow through with my plan it doesn't matter later, because at that time I have sorted it all out & cleared my head of it.
Hope it has helped?
jaX*
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[eds-hed]

this hasn't happened to me but at eptas20 my pal (sortof, the guy kinda shat me ) didnt drop his second pill till about 6am when we were all on our way down, and he started to get pretty freaked out and kept complaining about how he was "flipping between realitys" poor guy, he kinda looked like this

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[Space Frog]

hahaha, paranoia?....i'm fucken paranoia QUEEN! i was almost gonna start a thread on paranoia itself but it got mentioned here...
i get paranoid on anything: trips, e's speed, grass, dark misty nights...
but seriously transtar, i'm completely with bliss on the paranoia thingy - try and figure out exactly WHAT it is u r paranoid about, like ok if i'ts cops and a fear that people donlt like u, think of ways u can prevent this - like maybe don't have any drugs on u or get your frrinds to keep telling u to relax and enjoy....just a thought
i know i have spent half a nite reasoning with my self about exactly what it is i'm paranoid about....and when i've made all the arrangements to make sure i'm free of commitments the next day and that parents won't bother me, it just comes down to a nagging feeling in the bottom of your tummy that is completely irrational. once u can let go of this then bye-bye paranoia!
hope this wasn't just mindless rambling and that some of it actually was helpful in any way