I was prescribed Dexedrine for ADD last week, with the instruction that I take 5mg four times a day, with the last dose taken 30 mins before bed (my psychiatrist said that over time stimulants will improve sleep in ADD patients). I also suffer from Major Depression and OCD. I've currently been depressed for the past 2 years, though have not experienced anything strange or delusional during that period.
So, I followed his instructions and began with 20mg spread out over the day on Friday. It was pretty uneventful; I felt a little buzzed at times, but overall felt more focused and motivated, albeit a little more emotionally flat. I took my last dose at about midnight and found myself unable to sleep, so popped 15mg of Imovane.
I didn't sleep very well or for very long - maybe 6-7 hours at the most. Anyway, I found that after I took my morning dose the next day, when I stared at the clouds outside for a little while, they would begin to detach and become animated. So, e.g. if a cloud looked like a dog and I stared at it, it's 'features' would seem to be moving (though it was still made of cloud). As soon as I blinked, however, the illusion disappeared.
Is this a bad sign? I avoided taking a nighttime dose last night, and cut down to 2.5mg three times today and am fine (nothing happens when I stare at the clouds).
Was what I experienced a full-blown hallucination? Or like a precursor? Or the result of poor sleep? Or...?
I don't really like Dexedrine anyway - I find that I become profoundly depressed once it wears off, and it also makes my fears more palpable at times. I don't get a pro-social effect - in fact, it makes more me quiet and anti-social. But I would like to try it again with my mood/anxiety under control. Anyway, I know I have to tell my psychiatrist, but I'm scared it would mean no more stimulants ever again. I just wasn't sure if what happened qualified as a real hallucination however, or if it was more in the grey-area.
So, I followed his instructions and began with 20mg spread out over the day on Friday. It was pretty uneventful; I felt a little buzzed at times, but overall felt more focused and motivated, albeit a little more emotionally flat. I took my last dose at about midnight and found myself unable to sleep, so popped 15mg of Imovane.
I didn't sleep very well or for very long - maybe 6-7 hours at the most. Anyway, I found that after I took my morning dose the next day, when I stared at the clouds outside for a little while, they would begin to detach and become animated. So, e.g. if a cloud looked like a dog and I stared at it, it's 'features' would seem to be moving (though it was still made of cloud). As soon as I blinked, however, the illusion disappeared.
Is this a bad sign? I avoided taking a nighttime dose last night, and cut down to 2.5mg three times today and am fine (nothing happens when I stare at the clouds).
Was what I experienced a full-blown hallucination? Or like a precursor? Or the result of poor sleep? Or...?
I don't really like Dexedrine anyway - I find that I become profoundly depressed once it wears off, and it also makes my fears more palpable at times. I don't get a pro-social effect - in fact, it makes more me quiet and anti-social. But I would like to try it again with my mood/anxiety under control. Anyway, I know I have to tell my psychiatrist, but I'm scared it would mean no more stimulants ever again. I just wasn't sure if what happened qualified as a real hallucination however, or if it was more in the grey-area.
