ninjaturtle121
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Hello. I've used shrooms about...10? times before this, with some pretty decent trips, but nothing that touched this. This happened a few months ago so bear with me, as some parts of it might be hazy.
Up to this point I had almost always dosed 3.5 grams of shrooms when i dosed, usually also while smoking weed. I often did it after fasting in order to maximize the effect. I had some pretty interesting experiences (complicated patterns, extreme introspective thought, once a couch had tiger fur and each section independently separated and floated all over the room) but nothing touched this.
One day I semi spuriously decided to take a cut of shrooms with two friends, R and K. I had gotten into a fight with a jackass before that who I wasn't friends with to begin with, so I was semi hesitant to trip because I really wanted to murder him, but I really felt like I was able to shove that aside and I said alright lets do this. I ate the shrooms on a relatively empty stomach on a peanut butter sandwich. I was a little surprised when the shrooms would barely fit on the sandwich and I asked if this was for sure 3.5 grams. I was told it was. After a bit of debate whether to give someone some of my shrooms or not, I ate them all. We all dosed the same shrooms, supposedly the same amount. We went into the woods immediately after ingestion and we sat on a big rock on a cliff. Nothing much happened for about 45 minutes, when we decided to walk to another location. On the walk there I began to feel that familiar feeling of coming up. On the way we began to get disoriented, however we really didn't care. Things started to get highly amusing, and we parked at a large tree in the middle of the woods and chilled out. Thats when the trip really started. It became unlike any trip before. I experienced full fractals whirling around the ground as if they were spinning in streams. The trees swayed with tracers, and the sky was lit up with many colors. We smoked a joint after much laughing and difficulty and I felt extreme euphoria. Before this point I had never seen glowing fractals before. After an indeterminate amount of time we decided to start fulfilling our plan, which was to walk to campus and see some of the most impressive buildings. I recall walking briskly with no worries or abandon. I felt like a prehistoric man doing what they must have done to dull the boredom of life. All I could see was forest.
Things changed once we eventually reached a path. We saw a light and houses. The light seemed mystical for some reason, and we felt a need to approach it much like bugs approach lights by houses. I felt very primal, like I should touch the light post. We started to kind of dance around it and meander up the path. We reached a very quiet neighborhood and my friends car at this point, and we started to walk towards campus, which meant walking through the neighborhood. At this point I began to feel somewhat uncomfortable being around neighborhoods and society, seeing as how I was tripping much harder than I anticipated. A girl walked past us, and I said hello. I turned around and she was gone. I began to have paranoid thoughts like "I wonder if she knew we were tripping out". These thoughts began to steamroll, especially because I said my first thought quite loudly (i think) and that lead to more paranoid thoughts like "oh no maybe she heard me). I saw lights in the distance and I believed them to be the cops. I tried to convince my friends to come back into the woods, because they seemed safe but they were tripping quite hard and for some reason refused. I began to feel frantic over time because of their strange reluctance to go back into the woods. No matter what I said or begged, they wouldn't listen. What freaked me out the most is they refused to give me a reason to not go back into the woods, which to me was safety. I was also extremely disoriented. After some period of time I tried to convey to them that I needed to go back to R's house because I was feeling very paranoid and unsafe. We sat in his car and I begged him to put the key in the car and drive. The part that really freaked me out was their inability to discuss any reason for their actions. They would simply look at me when I made a request and say "no." and walk away. At one point I did my best to sober up and i touched R's shoulder and I said please take me to your house. At that point he looked at me very ferociously and said "dont EVER touch me", got out of the car, and began running. K chased after him. At that point I felt very lost and scared.
I realized that I needed to get out of public, and I immediately began venturing home, approximately...2 miles? With my disorientation this was going to prove very difficult. I was very bundled up as this was winter. I tried to be very nonchalant and walk in the general direction of my frat house. It started to go downhill at this point. Every person I saw seemed to be either whispering about me or staring at me. This could be real or could have been in my head. I saw numerous police officers on my way as well, who all seemed to be staring at me. I began to get stuck in a loop, which I had never even heard of. I would be walking towards a building for an extended period of time. When I blinked, it would be as if I had never moved. I began to get freaked out. I closed my eyes and walked 30 steps, then opened them, and repeated. Reality beyond what I could see began to feel as if it didnt exist. For example, when I looked over the crest of the hill I would see blackness, as if there was a sheet of black paper right beyond the building. It seemed as if the universe didnt exist past that point. At one point I hopped a fence and began jogging. The area I was in looked exactly like a military complex, including spotlights and helicopters flying around. If I remember correctly, these lights were sometimes trained on me. I did my best to ignore this and I ran through this fictional area. At this point I noticed that I saw literally ZERO people on a campus of 50,000 people. Nobody in any window i looked in, nobody on the streets, nothing. I kept walking, getting very very disoriented, crossing the street, recrossing, crossing again, ect. Eventually I found my fraternity house and walked in.
This is when shit went nuts. There was a big party going on, which I had never intended to return to. Everyone was smashed. I was extremely extremely disoriented, with no idea what to do, what was going on, ect. I began to forget that I was on mushrooms. I recall walking in a loop pattern, feeling like I was repeating the same motions without any control. For example, I would walk to the dining area, up the steps to my friends room, to another room, back to the dining area, and repeat ad infinitum. Everything looked aged and fake. I had very strange thoughts. I began to believe time was speeding up and everybody was dissapearing. These thoughts were only validated by the actions of those around me. I begged one of my friends to stay with me and sit down, but he just smiled and left to go get alcohol. I asked somebody who he was and he went "Im 24 dude, I graduated years ago" This only served to further validate my thoughts on time speeding up. Everybody began to look very unhealthy (yellow skin, emanciated features, jerky motions (stop motion)).
I began to believe a few things. I began to believe that time was speeding up, I was a creature who was destined via evolution to go against these people, who began to look more and more like an insect race to me. I also felt like I was being forced to exist in the same spot as other forms of matter, as if I was being sucked into a door/wall/whatever. I felt like this confrontation was inevitable and was always deemed to happen. I remember having some drunk kid do something, and I felt unfortunately like I had to attack him. I did so very half heartedly, because I also felt a very strong sense of doom. I remember begging people to explain things to me, but everyone didnt understand that I Was freaking out. at this point in time the party was dying out, and everybody had left. Once again, this further validated my theory that everyone was dissapearing. I thought they were gone because time was rapidly accelerating. They had me smoke a bong a few times, and thats when i went further downhill. I remember feeling as if everything was filling with sand. I reached over to my friend, who apparently had just finished lifting, and i reached and lifting my hand...into his whey protein and lifted...further validating my theory. Every action I took or anything anyone did or said to me further validated my thoughts, leading me on a terrible downward spiral. Apparently they decided to isolate me in my room, which was by far the worst thing they could have done for me. Earlier I was reading about physics and theories for the end of the universe. The prevalent theory at the time was that everything was going to expand at a faster rate than we could possibly catch up with, resulting in a "great freeze". I felt as if this equation was becoming my reality. Once I was in the frat house, everything outside of the house did not exist anymore. Likewise, when I entered my room, nothing outside existed anymore. I was stuck in a loop pattern in my room as well. I felt like my past thoughts, experiences, ect had never really happened. Reality was only there here and now, and it was more and more rapidly becoming unwound. My itunes which I had left on (to the fucking smashing pumpkins no less, playing disarm, a terribly sad song) suddenly shut off, leaving me in silence. I felt like I was having a heart attack, and I knew I was going to die. I felt like i was no longer in control of my actions, as if i was in autopilot. I stripped to my boxers, got under my covers, yawned, and layed down.
I felt like my heart beat faster and faster until i felt it explode. I also felt like i had drowned in sand. I felt as if every particle in the universe was more and more rapidly accelerating away from me, with no hope of this ever stopping. This to me was worse then death. I was extremely afraid that I was to exist with my thoughts and my thoughts alone for infinity. I reached a point of acceptance after a little bit, although I did not become happy wiht my predicament. I saw nothing. I only heard a sonar noise every once in a while. I thought this was me pinging the outside reality, hoping for some contact. Once again, i was feeling like i was stuck in some kind of crazy loop which was getting longer and longer as time went on. Eventually i felt this reverse, and i opened my eyes. I felt as if i was reborn. I couldn't believe that I was who i remembered i was, that my memories were real, that i was alive, that my room was acutally a reallocation, ect. My heart felt like it was beating very fast. I was back to normal.
I was very scared what i did at this point. to summarize, i didn't do anything too bad. Im lucky i made it home.
I know this was a very long post, sorry. My friend recomended this site to me and I decided to post my crazy trip here to see what you people thought. Would you say I experienced ego death. What trip number or whatever would you say I experienced? I have heard of ratings like 1+, 2+, 3+ and 4+. Where would I fall? If any of you read this long winded post, more power to you.
Up to this point I had almost always dosed 3.5 grams of shrooms when i dosed, usually also while smoking weed. I often did it after fasting in order to maximize the effect. I had some pretty interesting experiences (complicated patterns, extreme introspective thought, once a couch had tiger fur and each section independently separated and floated all over the room) but nothing touched this.
One day I semi spuriously decided to take a cut of shrooms with two friends, R and K. I had gotten into a fight with a jackass before that who I wasn't friends with to begin with, so I was semi hesitant to trip because I really wanted to murder him, but I really felt like I was able to shove that aside and I said alright lets do this. I ate the shrooms on a relatively empty stomach on a peanut butter sandwich. I was a little surprised when the shrooms would barely fit on the sandwich and I asked if this was for sure 3.5 grams. I was told it was. After a bit of debate whether to give someone some of my shrooms or not, I ate them all. We all dosed the same shrooms, supposedly the same amount. We went into the woods immediately after ingestion and we sat on a big rock on a cliff. Nothing much happened for about 45 minutes, when we decided to walk to another location. On the walk there I began to feel that familiar feeling of coming up. On the way we began to get disoriented, however we really didn't care. Things started to get highly amusing, and we parked at a large tree in the middle of the woods and chilled out. Thats when the trip really started. It became unlike any trip before. I experienced full fractals whirling around the ground as if they were spinning in streams. The trees swayed with tracers, and the sky was lit up with many colors. We smoked a joint after much laughing and difficulty and I felt extreme euphoria. Before this point I had never seen glowing fractals before. After an indeterminate amount of time we decided to start fulfilling our plan, which was to walk to campus and see some of the most impressive buildings. I recall walking briskly with no worries or abandon. I felt like a prehistoric man doing what they must have done to dull the boredom of life. All I could see was forest.
Things changed once we eventually reached a path. We saw a light and houses. The light seemed mystical for some reason, and we felt a need to approach it much like bugs approach lights by houses. I felt very primal, like I should touch the light post. We started to kind of dance around it and meander up the path. We reached a very quiet neighborhood and my friends car at this point, and we started to walk towards campus, which meant walking through the neighborhood. At this point I began to feel somewhat uncomfortable being around neighborhoods and society, seeing as how I was tripping much harder than I anticipated. A girl walked past us, and I said hello. I turned around and she was gone. I began to have paranoid thoughts like "I wonder if she knew we were tripping out". These thoughts began to steamroll, especially because I said my first thought quite loudly (i think) and that lead to more paranoid thoughts like "oh no maybe she heard me). I saw lights in the distance and I believed them to be the cops. I tried to convince my friends to come back into the woods, because they seemed safe but they were tripping quite hard and for some reason refused. I began to feel frantic over time because of their strange reluctance to go back into the woods. No matter what I said or begged, they wouldn't listen. What freaked me out the most is they refused to give me a reason to not go back into the woods, which to me was safety. I was also extremely disoriented. After some period of time I tried to convey to them that I needed to go back to R's house because I was feeling very paranoid and unsafe. We sat in his car and I begged him to put the key in the car and drive. The part that really freaked me out was their inability to discuss any reason for their actions. They would simply look at me when I made a request and say "no." and walk away. At one point I did my best to sober up and i touched R's shoulder and I said please take me to your house. At that point he looked at me very ferociously and said "dont EVER touch me", got out of the car, and began running. K chased after him. At that point I felt very lost and scared.
I realized that I needed to get out of public, and I immediately began venturing home, approximately...2 miles? With my disorientation this was going to prove very difficult. I was very bundled up as this was winter. I tried to be very nonchalant and walk in the general direction of my frat house. It started to go downhill at this point. Every person I saw seemed to be either whispering about me or staring at me. This could be real or could have been in my head. I saw numerous police officers on my way as well, who all seemed to be staring at me. I began to get stuck in a loop, which I had never even heard of. I would be walking towards a building for an extended period of time. When I blinked, it would be as if I had never moved. I began to get freaked out. I closed my eyes and walked 30 steps, then opened them, and repeated. Reality beyond what I could see began to feel as if it didnt exist. For example, when I looked over the crest of the hill I would see blackness, as if there was a sheet of black paper right beyond the building. It seemed as if the universe didnt exist past that point. At one point I hopped a fence and began jogging. The area I was in looked exactly like a military complex, including spotlights and helicopters flying around. If I remember correctly, these lights were sometimes trained on me. I did my best to ignore this and I ran through this fictional area. At this point I noticed that I saw literally ZERO people on a campus of 50,000 people. Nobody in any window i looked in, nobody on the streets, nothing. I kept walking, getting very very disoriented, crossing the street, recrossing, crossing again, ect. Eventually I found my fraternity house and walked in.
This is when shit went nuts. There was a big party going on, which I had never intended to return to. Everyone was smashed. I was extremely extremely disoriented, with no idea what to do, what was going on, ect. I began to forget that I was on mushrooms. I recall walking in a loop pattern, feeling like I was repeating the same motions without any control. For example, I would walk to the dining area, up the steps to my friends room, to another room, back to the dining area, and repeat ad infinitum. Everything looked aged and fake. I had very strange thoughts. I began to believe time was speeding up and everybody was dissapearing. These thoughts were only validated by the actions of those around me. I begged one of my friends to stay with me and sit down, but he just smiled and left to go get alcohol. I asked somebody who he was and he went "Im 24 dude, I graduated years ago" This only served to further validate my thoughts on time speeding up. Everybody began to look very unhealthy (yellow skin, emanciated features, jerky motions (stop motion)).
I began to believe a few things. I began to believe that time was speeding up, I was a creature who was destined via evolution to go against these people, who began to look more and more like an insect race to me. I also felt like I was being forced to exist in the same spot as other forms of matter, as if I was being sucked into a door/wall/whatever. I felt like this confrontation was inevitable and was always deemed to happen. I remember having some drunk kid do something, and I felt unfortunately like I had to attack him. I did so very half heartedly, because I also felt a very strong sense of doom. I remember begging people to explain things to me, but everyone didnt understand that I Was freaking out. at this point in time the party was dying out, and everybody had left. Once again, this further validated my theory that everyone was dissapearing. I thought they were gone because time was rapidly accelerating. They had me smoke a bong a few times, and thats when i went further downhill. I remember feeling as if everything was filling with sand. I reached over to my friend, who apparently had just finished lifting, and i reached and lifting my hand...into his whey protein and lifted...further validating my theory. Every action I took or anything anyone did or said to me further validated my thoughts, leading me on a terrible downward spiral. Apparently they decided to isolate me in my room, which was by far the worst thing they could have done for me. Earlier I was reading about physics and theories for the end of the universe. The prevalent theory at the time was that everything was going to expand at a faster rate than we could possibly catch up with, resulting in a "great freeze". I felt as if this equation was becoming my reality. Once I was in the frat house, everything outside of the house did not exist anymore. Likewise, when I entered my room, nothing outside existed anymore. I was stuck in a loop pattern in my room as well. I felt like my past thoughts, experiences, ect had never really happened. Reality was only there here and now, and it was more and more rapidly becoming unwound. My itunes which I had left on (to the fucking smashing pumpkins no less, playing disarm, a terribly sad song) suddenly shut off, leaving me in silence. I felt like I was having a heart attack, and I knew I was going to die. I felt like i was no longer in control of my actions, as if i was in autopilot. I stripped to my boxers, got under my covers, yawned, and layed down.
I felt like my heart beat faster and faster until i felt it explode. I also felt like i had drowned in sand. I felt as if every particle in the universe was more and more rapidly accelerating away from me, with no hope of this ever stopping. This to me was worse then death. I was extremely afraid that I was to exist with my thoughts and my thoughts alone for infinity. I reached a point of acceptance after a little bit, although I did not become happy wiht my predicament. I saw nothing. I only heard a sonar noise every once in a while. I thought this was me pinging the outside reality, hoping for some contact. Once again, i was feeling like i was stuck in some kind of crazy loop which was getting longer and longer as time went on. Eventually i felt this reverse, and i opened my eyes. I felt as if i was reborn. I couldn't believe that I was who i remembered i was, that my memories were real, that i was alive, that my room was acutally a reallocation, ect. My heart felt like it was beating very fast. I was back to normal.
I was very scared what i did at this point. to summarize, i didn't do anything too bad. Im lucky i made it home.
I know this was a very long post, sorry. My friend recomended this site to me and I decided to post my crazy trip here to see what you people thought. Would you say I experienced ego death. What trip number or whatever would you say I experienced? I have heard of ratings like 1+, 2+, 3+ and 4+. Where would I fall? If any of you read this long winded post, more power to you.
