Self...

[BlazinTos]

Well, this is round 2. i just tried to write this and was not happy with the outcome so i'll try again.
*lights cigarette*
relax..relax...
Okay, This is no story, This is no Poem, and These are not rolling words for that matter.
I really just need advice i guess and wanted it here instead of in social...
Well this might sound stupid to all of you but i am in a very low point in my life and i kind of need a shoulder to lean on...I feel closer to all of you than i would ever feel to a therapist and/or an SSRI.
With that said...I am kind of having trouble right now...in my life i basically have everything...Friends,loving family,parties,ketamine,turntables,a love for music, and a love for others...
what i dont have which i feel would make my life *complete* is true *Love*..I need love in my life so bad..and ive watched each one of my friends find love and i see how much their life changes and how much their attitude twoards life improves.
People say there is someone for everyone, but how/when or where will i find this someone...i need her now..
People also say wait for the right one...she will come to you...but seriously...this is not the truth..if i sit in my room all day a girl is not going to knock on my door asking if i need someone in my life. So i realize that effort needs to be their on my part...but what kind of effort...it is so tough to find someone...and if i find someone...how do i approach that someone...and what would i say??...
It seems as if their are so many beutiful,shiny happy people...but what about me...i may not be so beutiful on the outside...but inside i feel just as beutiful as any one else with ideas,motivations,knowledge...if only i had someone to share it with.
Although this may seem like pointless ramblings to any of you...even with no responses i have gotten this off my chest..well...yeah...

 

[cand-E bamber]

*hug*

 

[RaveAngel]

You don't wanna hear it, but it's true. You don't find love... love finds you. It's really hard to explain, but... if you're looking for it, you won't find it, BECAUSE of the fact that you're looking for it. It's like trying to force something, instead of simply letting it happen. Things rarely turn out the way you'd like if you force it. My advice would be to relax and try not to think about it. Don't sit in your dorm room all day and night though. Go out, go for walks, go for drives (if you have a car), go to bars, clubs, coffee shops, book stores, anywhere really. And don't look at each girl you meet as a potential girlfriend/love. Just think of her as someone new. I met my first love at a gas station during a time in my life when love was about the last thing on my mind. But seriously, the harder you look, the harder it will be to find.
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What difference do you think you can make? One single man in all this madness...?