I am trying to make myself a better person n it's bloody hard n stressful. Here's what I've got to change:
Stop getting depressed when disappointed
Stop taking criticism to heart
Stop feeling easily rejected
Stop arguing with people
Stop getting into drama
Keep away from arguments
Stop talking about myself too much in posts and focus on the other person
Stop venting so much over things
Stop trying to help people too much as obviously it's annoying
Try to make calm posts instead of defensive ones
Stop feeling like I'm on the outside looking in (easily rejected)
Stop comparing myself to others
Stop thinking others are plotting against me / trying to get rid of me.
Stop getting upset by what other people say
Stop caring what others' think and living my life by what I THINK I SHOULD be doing etc.
Stop being too deep / serious
I am trying to stop all of this and be a better person n I know this week that I obviously am not but it's extremely difficult doing this as I keep slipping. Others are perfect; know all the right things to say, don't get it wrong; get picked for things and well what if I'm one of those who's just doomed because I try and try and try and it's never good enough. All of this is damn hard. It's always one step forward and two steps back. I get on with people, show I can be a good person then I mess it all up in one instinct n I'm a bad person again or have messed the damn thing up. And we all know that it's the negative things that stick in people's minds not the positive. For instance, if you try to help five people and argue with the sixth it's the sixth everyone will remember you - and judge you for.
I have certain friends n they never praise me, only criticise me when I've done something wrong like helped someone too much, argued with that person, said the wrong thing n it's soooo incredibly frustrating because how the HELL can I get anything right when I make a moment's mistake and months of trying to be a decent person, trying to do the right thing, to help n show concern for others, goes down the toilet......
really just feel depressed, tired and fed up of all of it...........
Evey
Stop getting depressed when disappointed
Stop taking criticism to heart
Stop feeling easily rejected
Stop arguing with people
Stop getting into drama
Keep away from arguments
Stop talking about myself too much in posts and focus on the other person
Stop venting so much over things
Stop trying to help people too much as obviously it's annoying
Try to make calm posts instead of defensive ones
Stop feeling like I'm on the outside looking in (easily rejected)
Stop comparing myself to others
Stop thinking others are plotting against me / trying to get rid of me.
Stop getting upset by what other people say
Stop caring what others' think and living my life by what I THINK I SHOULD be doing etc.
Stop being too deep / serious
I am trying to stop all of this and be a better person n I know this week that I obviously am not but it's extremely difficult doing this as I keep slipping. Others are perfect; know all the right things to say, don't get it wrong; get picked for things and well what if I'm one of those who's just doomed because I try and try and try and it's never good enough. All of this is damn hard. It's always one step forward and two steps back. I get on with people, show I can be a good person then I mess it all up in one instinct n I'm a bad person again or have messed the damn thing up. And we all know that it's the negative things that stick in people's minds not the positive. For instance, if you try to help five people and argue with the sixth it's the sixth everyone will remember you - and judge you for.
I have certain friends n they never praise me, only criticise me when I've done something wrong like helped someone too much, argued with that person, said the wrong thing n it's soooo incredibly frustrating because how the HELL can I get anything right when I make a moment's mistake and months of trying to be a decent person, trying to do the right thing, to help n show concern for others, goes down the toilet......
really just feel depressed, tired and fed up of all of it........... Evey
