shal
Bluelighter
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- Dec 15, 2000
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Dear Friends.
My names Josh and I'm 20 from Sydney Australia. Recently I've broken up with my Girlfriend of 18 months and times have been real hard for me over the last 4 months. I'm very new to Sydney and feeling most alone and lost.
I've come to start writing out my feelings and thoughts and I'd like to share some below with my fellow BL'ers. I've been so negative lately and I thought it would be healthy to write something a little more positive as I feel it.
Being Josh...
Today I feel as a Utopian who see's some hope in the perfectibility of human society. Realising that I alone can make the changes that I want to see within myself, and maybe even within the world. Now as I view the world no longer doe's my heart resonate a resounding amen.
One must admit that the days have become easier as my understanding of my own self has become clearer. No longer am I finding safety with the lights out, but instead seeking to find the light that I call "life".
Even though I have not a hand to guide me and even less to listen I take solace in knowing that I am learning such valuable lessons that will develop and establish who I am to become.
Only now am I finding that friends are important and the relationships established with friends will become reciprical if one truly wants to take the time to learn and love a person.
My strongest belief is that 'you only ever truly love someone when you love that person more then you love yourself" and I admit that I have never dared love someone that much.
I do miss everything that was but I can't continue to live in past tenths. My only hope for now is that I can establish my life here and hope that love will find me again.
"I may not have won the game, but atleast I played a hand"
Josh.
My names Josh and I'm 20 from Sydney Australia. Recently I've broken up with my Girlfriend of 18 months and times have been real hard for me over the last 4 months. I'm very new to Sydney and feeling most alone and lost.
I've come to start writing out my feelings and thoughts and I'd like to share some below with my fellow BL'ers. I've been so negative lately and I thought it would be healthy to write something a little more positive as I feel it.
Being Josh...
Today I feel as a Utopian who see's some hope in the perfectibility of human society. Realising that I alone can make the changes that I want to see within myself, and maybe even within the world. Now as I view the world no longer doe's my heart resonate a resounding amen.
One must admit that the days have become easier as my understanding of my own self has become clearer. No longer am I finding safety with the lights out, but instead seeking to find the light that I call "life".
Even though I have not a hand to guide me and even less to listen I take solace in knowing that I am learning such valuable lessons that will develop and establish who I am to become.
Only now am I finding that friends are important and the relationships established with friends will become reciprical if one truly wants to take the time to learn and love a person.
My strongest belief is that 'you only ever truly love someone when you love that person more then you love yourself" and I admit that I have never dared love someone that much.
I do miss everything that was but I can't continue to live in past tenths. My only hope for now is that I can establish my life here and hope that love will find me again.
"I may not have won the game, but atleast I played a hand"
Josh.
you just havent found the right one yet