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Hi Everyone,
I am in a tough time in my life. I have been in heavy use of MDMA, RC Chemicals, Alcohol, Marijuana, Xanax, Ketamine. The most heavy uses are alcohol, weed, RC's, and mdma though. One night my friends and I picked up about a gram of wax. I've taken large dabs before, so I wasn't too worried about the size I was taking. (It was probably as big as a dime) The thing is within the past months I was in heavy usage of RC Chemicals and MDMA due to a trip I went to in Vegas a little over a month ago. Yeah, that music festival. Even after the event I would drop some tabs and take a couple ecstasy pills every once in a while. Anyway, after I took the dab, I just got higher and higher up until the point where it was uncontrollable. I started to trip as if I were on acid or something. Has anyone else experienced this? The last time i took an RC chemical was about 2 1/2 weeks before I took this dab. My vision got so blurry and everything felt super slow until my vision was eventually black. I went into some sort of dream state where a whole bunch of random events and scenarios went on. I woke up with my friends crowded around me telling me to wake up. When I did I asked what happened and they said I had a seizure. I tried so hard to focus to stay conscious but I blacked out two more times after that and had 2 more smaller seizures. I went inside the house to rest after.

About a week passes by and I am at my friends party. I only drank about 3 shots of whisky, but I did smoke about a quarter of marijuana that day as well. Also, the night before I consumed about 400mg of MDMA and 15mg of Ketamine. After we finished our rotation, the same thing happened, but I just blacked out and fell to the ground, no seizure. My friends said I should go inside which was a great idea in case I were to black out again. I made it up to the garage and I collapsed and had a seizure. I went inside after drinking some water and relaxing a bit. That was about 2 days ago now. Even now, I feel tired, light headed much of the time, and almost to a point where I don't know if I'm sober. I sometimes feel high, but it doesn't feel like a regular "high" if someone can relate with me.

At this point, I am straight up scared for my life. I've just graduated out of high school and it scares me that this is happening. Will I be fine? I am planning on staying sober for a long time. And trust me when I mean a LONG time. I am an avid marijuana smoker, but at this point I don't even want to smoke weed due to what might happen if something gets triggered again for me to have a seizure.Of course I will be seeing the doctor sometime this week, but can someone please explain to me what's going on or if someone else has experienced this? Please, I am in need of support.
 
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Well, maybe not to that extent (I could never trust myself at EDC :( ), but I've had a similar experience in which I was abusing lots of shit and alcohol always served as a base. And at one point in my life I drank for 7 days straight while taking a total of 250mg of etizolam and for a week after was dying alone on a floor, kidney pain, hallucinating, massive visual disturbances, cold sweats, and nightmare like thoughts (auditory hallucinations of people breaking in, thinking they were coming to kill my pathetic ass). Probably siezures too but I don't remember if I did. That was a point in my life I told myself I'd stay sober forever, but that didn't last too long.

Weed is a straight up hallucinogen for me now, and it only takes the smallest amount to fuck me up. In highschool, I smoked everyday and went to class, no anxiety at all really, and no visuals really. After jumping into hallucinogens in grade 12, I had a few rough trips and it has never been the same for me. Like it rewired how it effects me. A few times my face has gone ghost white and standing up at all would result in me fainting (I believe this was a bloodpressure issue). Not sure if that has any resemblance to your fainting spells.

I also abused MDMA over one night and had jerky head movements for like a week following. I thought i fucked myself up permanently, like that I'd have it forever. Oh this does not account for one percent of my uses of M, just to be clear :P )

Your body is definitely telling you to slow the fuck down. I'm no doctor but you'd probably be doing yourself some good to abstain from everything (provided you aren't going to have some really bad withdrawal that could be life threatening) and eat some some healthy meals and take a multivitamin with minerals if it's a matter of you being deficient in some or a few. You'd be surprised how much of a difference just eating properly and vitamins can make.

You will probably find this alone will help over time. Never hurts to get checked out by a doc. And like I said, this is just my experience, but I've done some really stupid shit and my body has always managed to come back, it's just taken up to a few weeks. I don't mean to scare you, but I'm sure you can irreparably damage yourself as well.

Look out for #1 man.
 
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I'll keep this short and i'm happy i'm on this section and not MDMA discussion. The E-tards are so delusional they will defend ecstasy with their life saying it is harmless... fuckwits.

Anyways STAY the hell away from RC's and MDMA... any hard chemical produced drug. I have had my share in the past and yes... it messed up my weed highs. I know for a fact many of people who roll on a semi regular basis comment on how they trip the hell out when they smoke weed. Psychedelics and MDMA can change the weed high... into a negative one. I have passed out from just smoking weed... rolled 2 weeks before.

Basically the MDMA changes your brain chemistry so drastically when smoking weed you are WAY more susceptible to panic attacks.. anxiety... and over all a bad time (passing out). Keep rolling if you want.. just be aware that you will deal with major consequences.
 
I really appreciate the posts above. They have helped calm me down. So, Thank You.

Day 3 Sober: I still have a lightheaded feeling and my vision is a bit blurry/distorted. This is probably due to the concussion I had. Other than that, I am sleeping more than I would like to and I am also having extremely vivid dreams and occasionally night terrors. My body feels tired and slow. Aside from this though, my thoughts are more clear, my memory is not so short term like it once was, and I am in a more uplifted/productive mood.
 
Sounds like me at that age, the trouble was just beginning sadly. I am clean now and have been for about a year and three months, but it was fucking tough and I am lucky to be alive. Stop now, it doesn't get any better. It took me almost 15 years of use to realize that I simply could not control it.
 
Stopping drug abuse now will be much easier than trying to do it later. Its funny looking back. I did drugs in high school and thought I was an addict. By the time I really was addicted a couple years later I wanted to kick myself for being so stupid. Right now your not doing highly addictive drugs but you know you have a problem. Imagine how bad it will be if you do get into heroin, meth, and or coke. Yeah do what you gotta do to cut back or stop. Weed is fine. As are other drugs occasionally but I highly recommend refocusing your life to something other than drugs partying.
 
Hey buddy, just checking in to see how your progress is going. Hope all is well and you're feeling close to, if not 100%

I agree with the guys above, we all hit a point eventually where we have regrets and quit.. or try to. I am a perfect example of someone who has spent hundreds of hours researching everything and even with that knowledge I've managed to make some really bad decisions.

All the best!
 
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Hey buddy, just checking in to see how your progress is going. Hope all is well and you're feeling close to, if not 100%

I agree with the guys above, we all hit a point eventually where we have regrets and quit.. or try to. I am a perfect example of someone who has spent hundreds of hours researching everything and even with that knowledge I've managed to make some really bad decisions.

All the best!
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I appreciate you checking up on me! This is about my 5th day being sober. So far my symptoms have gotten much better. The blurred vision has decreased and isn't as annoying as it once was a couple days ago, but it's still there. I have occasional headaches, but they aren't nearly as painful as my other ones. I notice that I can be up and about for much longer without being too fatigued as well. However, I notice that I have this stare where I just blank out for 5-10 seconds. It's not too bad, but it can be a little irritating. I caught myself staring straight into the scenery while I was driving at a stoplight. The light turned green, but I didn't realize until about 3 seconds later. Other than that, I can get light headed if I get up too quick and my eyes seem to be more sensitive to lights than usual.

Overall, I would say I am recovered around 70%. The symptoms are too noticeable to say I'm close to fully recovered.
 
Sounds a lot better, glad to hear things are progressing the way they are.
Have you been taking a multi and getting decent sleep? I take melatonin to help me get to sleep each night and I wake feeling fully rested. It makes such a huge difference. I only ask because the zoning out sort of thing I do when my body is tired.
Either way looks like you are on your road to recovery.
I did it again myself as well, as of a few days ago I am at 100% aside from some lower back pain. But I don't intend on going through that again. I hope you can say the same ;)
 
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