Foreigner
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 18, 2009
- Messages
- 8,295
I wasn't sure of the best forum to post this in. It could go under philosophy and spirituality, any of the drug research sub-forums, or somewhere else... but I invite all of the communities to come respond!
I'm very ill again and I am reliant on mind-altering pain killers to stop the intense pain I have. Particularly, I am using opiates. Not very high doses, but I'm sensitive so I definitely feel them. I'm not the fondest of opiates. If anything, I have a history of favoring stimulants.
During the come up, I feel a real heart opening... like a desire to connect with every thing and every one. My inner wisdom seems to spring forth effortlessly. I can become a clear channel for my friends, family, and anyone or anything that deserves compassion. The world of possibilities seems to open up. I wouldn't go so far as to say that I feel like the best version of myself, but I feel a lot more clear about who I am and what I would like to do. Then the opiates wear off and, although the memory of the experience is still true, I am not feeling the heart buzz so much.
I know that I'm high and I know to not take it too seriously... like, don't get too attached or chase it. Even as I write this, I recognize some of the trappings of my own words, and the possibility of addiction.
At the same time, I feel that it is a difficult task to always do the tireless inner work of keeping my heart open. Sometimes I fail. Sometimes I have days where I am frankly just closed off completely. And I'm wondering, are there safe heart opening substances out there that can be taken at low doses regularly to keep this channel open?
For me, there is no bliss like the love of the heart center. It contains all the truth and well-being I would ever need. As long as my heart is in resonance, my attachments to life are not as dire. I don't worry about death so much and all its trappings. I don't go searching for a "supply" of love in others. I simply emanate it, and it feels like my own personal resource that is so good and wholesome. It is godly and infinite.
I'm not looking to blast my heart open here... but just have gentle openings. I want and need to make heart medicines central to my life, even if it's just a delicate tea I have ever morning.
Can anyone give some suggestions?
So I'm wondering... are there medicinal allies I could call on to facilitate this process? It could be pharmaceutical based or plant based, I am open. There are obvious ones like MDMA and the meth family, but you can't take those daily, nor would I want to. There are natural medicines like saffron, hawthorn, and some others.
I'm very ill again and I am reliant on mind-altering pain killers to stop the intense pain I have. Particularly, I am using opiates. Not very high doses, but I'm sensitive so I definitely feel them. I'm not the fondest of opiates. If anything, I have a history of favoring stimulants.
During the come up, I feel a real heart opening... like a desire to connect with every thing and every one. My inner wisdom seems to spring forth effortlessly. I can become a clear channel for my friends, family, and anyone or anything that deserves compassion. The world of possibilities seems to open up. I wouldn't go so far as to say that I feel like the best version of myself, but I feel a lot more clear about who I am and what I would like to do. Then the opiates wear off and, although the memory of the experience is still true, I am not feeling the heart buzz so much.
I know that I'm high and I know to not take it too seriously... like, don't get too attached or chase it. Even as I write this, I recognize some of the trappings of my own words, and the possibility of addiction.
At the same time, I feel that it is a difficult task to always do the tireless inner work of keeping my heart open. Sometimes I fail. Sometimes I have days where I am frankly just closed off completely. And I'm wondering, are there safe heart opening substances out there that can be taken at low doses regularly to keep this channel open?
For me, there is no bliss like the love of the heart center. It contains all the truth and well-being I would ever need. As long as my heart is in resonance, my attachments to life are not as dire. I don't worry about death so much and all its trappings. I don't go searching for a "supply" of love in others. I simply emanate it, and it feels like my own personal resource that is so good and wholesome. It is godly and infinite.
I'm not looking to blast my heart open here... but just have gentle openings. I want and need to make heart medicines central to my life, even if it's just a delicate tea I have ever morning.
Can anyone give some suggestions?
So I'm wondering... are there medicinal allies I could call on to facilitate this process? It could be pharmaceutical based or plant based, I am open. There are obvious ones like MDMA and the meth family, but you can't take those daily, nor would I want to. There are natural medicines like saffron, hawthorn, and some others.