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Seeking help (not for drugs) but don't even know how

RecklessWOT

RecklessWOT

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Hah, so I feel like a complete moron even making this post but it's something I have to ask at this point. Just don't know what's up.

Okay so I'm not here to vent about my problems as I've never been good at doing this. I can't open up to people and even if I could I wouldn't know where to begin.
I've decided I need professional therapy to get my life and mental condition back to a state that I can understand/ control and maybe happy again. I don't know how I ended up this way, just years of neglecting my deteriorating mental state to the point where I'm now utterly fucked in the head and don't know how I got here or how to get out of here.

Only problem is, I have no clue at all how to go about this. I don't even know the difference between a psychologist or a psychiatrist or whatever. I'm not looking to be officially diagnosed with anything and I certainly don't want to be put on meds (I already don't take the SSRIs that my GP prescribed me for anxiety, I hate the idea of using medication to fix my brain) I just need to figure out where the problems came from and how to get past them on my own. I need to get down to the root of where all of this extreme self hatred comes from and why I'm so hellbent on destroying myself. Other worries I have- I don't think I can put this on my insurance can I? I'm worried about that because if it turns up in any records that I am seeking mental help I think it will fuck me over and show up on potential background tests making me appear "unstable".

Has anyone ever sought help for themselves and can let me know how to even go about attempting it?
 
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If you just want a professional to talk to see a physicologist and if you want someone to prescribe meds you see a psyciatrist. Google one in your area see if they take your insurance or see how muh they are and then make an app with whoever you like most. :) you can also talk to a counslor or a therapist. I would personally see a therapist if I were you they are really good with listening and helping you get through problems.
 
Find a good psychologist, or other psychotherapist. Many therapists aren't psychologists, just do therapy. Find either one who takes your insurance, no one will care you see a psychologist or therapist. So many people are in therapy. And only MD's can rx drugs like psychiatrists, and a psychologist is a PhD. Also research a little on your own, it is good to know a lot about psychology.
 
Well first things first, a psychiatrist is a medical doctor who can prescribe medications and order tests etc etc. A psychologist is much less clinical in my experience but th two often work together if you have significant problems.

Maybe talking to a psychologist might be good place to start, especially if you are really against the idea of medication, and I can understand that, they all come with side effects. From what you have mentioned a psychologist sounds like a great start for you, you may well be able to put it on your insurance and there are many many people who are in difficult places mentally who go on to have great careers. I don't think you are going to be judged as unstable and of course your medical records are confidential anyways!

It would be really helpful if we knew where you are based to talk about the best ways of going about finding help... its different in every country.. but most importantly you are not alone and many people in similar situations go on to recover and have great careers so please don't think this will be forever.

You can PM me if you'd like :).
 
Thanks for the responses guys I appreciate it. Wooger, I am in the USA, Connecticut to be specific. I know this doesn't have to be forever, I am a relatively strong and stubborn person and will not go down without a fight. I am determined to fix this and I know I deserve better. I will make it through, I just finally have come to a point where I want to take action but realized that I don't know how lol. I have no doubt I will suceed from here but at this point I have stalled and need help getting back on the right track is all.
Also, I know my medical records are confidential, but I know for a fact that there are certain legal rights that the government will take away if you are deemed "unfit" or "unstable" due to mental issues and being that I have already been hospitalized for drug abuse I think any mental related issued would also flag me as one of these crazy people in the eyes of the government. Fuck them. Idk
 
You have a great attitude and so I have no doubt in your ability to get back on track :D think of it this way even if it does get passed on (which I doubt, but I am unsure of your laws but it seems unethical and unlikely) but you are very coherent and articulate, I think you can go on to do alot, you just need to get over this hump...

But don't worry about the perceived stigma, it might effect your medical records to some degree but thats inconsequential, you need helpwith your problems right now and your proposed actions of seeking out a professional psychologist sounds like a great idea... It will probably help you alot... Ill PM you :)
 
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