Syd_Barret
Bluelighter
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I'm going to post this in TDS first, as I guess that is where it should be.
I thought about posting it in Cannabis discussion first since itd get more reads.. but we'll see.
My concern is that by smoking pot and drinking alcohol that I'm somehow setting myself up for failure in regards to relapsing on opiates again. For the last 3 or os years I've been on again off again with dope. Currently I'm off, and going strong.
Alcohol is something I've used for years, I have abused it in the past, but it was more of a college thing than anything. I drink recreationally these days, last night I had 3 beers. The night before that I had 2. Alcohol has never caused me to fiend for opiates or anything else for that matter.
Pot is something I tried first when I was 13 years old, I didn't really like it at the time and it wouldn't be until yearrrrss later when I was in my mid 20s that I would pick it up again.
Anyways, so I've been clean for over 1.5 mos again now. Clean off of opiates.
Now I won't lie, I did transition myself into a daily pot smoker by means of the heroin. what I mean by that is I was addicted to heroin just over 2 mos ago, and one of the things that really helped me to finally stop using was pot. I'd come home and instead of doing a shot, I'd smoke a few bowls. I noticed that when i was stoned, I had almost NO desire to get heroin, like it was really astonishing. Hell, the place I get my smoke from is down the street from where my dealer is, and I'm able to just go buy the pot!
I've had money in my hand that I could have spent on heroin, but didn't because I was stoned and really had no desire for the heroin.
Point is, marijuana obviously helped me kick heroin. I personally don't want to stop smoking if I don't have to.
But I'm currently working through the court system, and Im seeing a therapist who was about to shit his pants after I told him that I drink recreatinoally and smoke as well. I told him that the pot i smoke doesn't come up in a drug test (jwh 018), and that I drink maybe 2-3 beers on any given night, not including friday or saturday.
Shit, I dont even actually have a beer every night. I go nights at a time without booze.
So tell me what you think.
I already kinda have my opinion made up, but I really would like to hear from everyone else, maybe someone has something good to say.
In retrospect it was my mistake to tell the shrink about the booze and jwh 018, but ya know.. when you're in a setting like that, I mean I was just trying to be as honest as I could, assuming the doctor can't help you unless you're being honest.
So am I really just hanging out to the last embers of a way of life that is about to be extinct for me? getting high?
I don't think so, but maybe I'm deluding myself. I am fully capable of that, this I know, haha.
the way I view pot and booze is a take it or leave it thing. I really do love pot, way more than alcohol, but.. like for example, if I were enrolled in unversity right now, I would only drink alcohol on friday and saturday. And smoking would either be an end of the night thing, like right before bed, or only a weekend thing just like booze.
I'm confident that I could keep this kind of schedule. Why? Because i've done it before.
Sorry this post isnt organized well
Thanks
I thought about posting it in Cannabis discussion first since itd get more reads.. but we'll see.
My concern is that by smoking pot and drinking alcohol that I'm somehow setting myself up for failure in regards to relapsing on opiates again. For the last 3 or os years I've been on again off again with dope. Currently I'm off, and going strong.
Alcohol is something I've used for years, I have abused it in the past, but it was more of a college thing than anything. I drink recreationally these days, last night I had 3 beers. The night before that I had 2. Alcohol has never caused me to fiend for opiates or anything else for that matter.
Pot is something I tried first when I was 13 years old, I didn't really like it at the time and it wouldn't be until yearrrrss later when I was in my mid 20s that I would pick it up again.
Anyways, so I've been clean for over 1.5 mos again now. Clean off of opiates.
Now I won't lie, I did transition myself into a daily pot smoker by means of the heroin. what I mean by that is I was addicted to heroin just over 2 mos ago, and one of the things that really helped me to finally stop using was pot. I'd come home and instead of doing a shot, I'd smoke a few bowls. I noticed that when i was stoned, I had almost NO desire to get heroin, like it was really astonishing. Hell, the place I get my smoke from is down the street from where my dealer is, and I'm able to just go buy the pot!
I've had money in my hand that I could have spent on heroin, but didn't because I was stoned and really had no desire for the heroin.
Point is, marijuana obviously helped me kick heroin. I personally don't want to stop smoking if I don't have to.
But I'm currently working through the court system, and Im seeing a therapist who was about to shit his pants after I told him that I drink recreatinoally and smoke as well. I told him that the pot i smoke doesn't come up in a drug test (jwh 018), and that I drink maybe 2-3 beers on any given night, not including friday or saturday.
Shit, I dont even actually have a beer every night. I go nights at a time without booze.
So tell me what you think.
I already kinda have my opinion made up, but I really would like to hear from everyone else, maybe someone has something good to say.
In retrospect it was my mistake to tell the shrink about the booze and jwh 018, but ya know.. when you're in a setting like that, I mean I was just trying to be as honest as I could, assuming the doctor can't help you unless you're being honest.
So am I really just hanging out to the last embers of a way of life that is about to be extinct for me? getting high?
I don't think so, but maybe I'm deluding myself. I am fully capable of that, this I know, haha.
the way I view pot and booze is a take it or leave it thing. I really do love pot, way more than alcohol, but.. like for example, if I were enrolled in unversity right now, I would only drink alcohol on friday and saturday. And smoking would either be an end of the night thing, like right before bed, or only a weekend thing just like booze.
I'm confident that I could keep this kind of schedule. Why? Because i've done it before.
Sorry this post isnt organized well
Thanks