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Secrets

the only drug use that I hide is my suboxone and before that opiates, only because I know that certain people in my life would make too big a fuss out of it and I didn't want to deal with that. I could care less if people know about my drug use or not most of the time, but experience has taught me it's best to be discreet.

anyone who knows me knows I love opiates, so that's not a secret, only a handful of people in my life know the whole story.

basically all the drugs I use these days are prescribed to me so I don't need to hide anything, but I don't tell people about the suboxone and I'll only bring up the klonopin ritalin/adderall if it's relevant.

jerry garcia once said something along the lines of drugs are like sex, personal and not something you need to be sharing with all you know. basically it's nobody's business what I do if it's not effecting them.
 
I have been hiding my using 4 almost a yr now. But now my job and doc I have starting asking questions to my coworkers about have they ever seen me high or me making mistakes or anything else involving using. My doc started to come right out and ask me if i was high, I was but i had also just worked 13.25hrs with pricks and got into a useless argument right before i left that hell hole I call work. So i was able to shut the doc up with some pretty clever and true statements. But its getting harder and harder to try to keep the facade from slipping and in my job, if it slips it could mean that I get killed. But as for my fam and friends that don't get to see me enough to anything. The way i see it is I have never made a mistake at work that has got anyone hurt, not saying that I'm perfect but I do my job better high than most can stone cold sober.
 
My family knows I smoke weed, and occasionally experiment with other drugs, but no idea of the regularity in which I do.
 
yeah I have hidden the fact that I'm an addict from my family and many of my friends... I wish I had some junky friends sometimes, it gets lonely.
 
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everyone in my life knows I smoke weed.
my friends and boyfriend know about my pill use, but not to the extent in which i actually use.
and only my dealer knows about the h.
it can get lonely out there
 
I don't anymore (I have been sober for over two years) but I definitely hid my problem--or tried to hide it--from my partner, family, and friends. The guy I was with for two years was no stranger to opiates but I hid the fact that I was using needles from him until he found some in my car (another person I was with left them in a cup like a g.d. idiot), and of course I hid this from my family. In fact, they had sent me to a rehab/reform school in Vermont for eleven months where I had to repeat my junior year after getting expelled from the school I went to in my home town, and obviously I didn't use anything during that time period. Instead of moving home, I moved to South Carolina where I did my senior year of high school and I did a good job of avoiding drugs most of that time. I went to The University of Mississippi but I was only there for one year because I left to return to my home town where my then boyfriend was as he was jealous, we argued a lot, the distance caused stress, etc. When I got back to my home town, I started seeing all the old people I used to do drugs with an naturally I just picked them up again out of frustration and boredom. I was fighting with my family and they had cut me off after I left school, I was working a shitty job and living paycheck to paycheck, and I didn't see any way out of my situation at that point so yeah, I started doing drugs again but that time around I learned how to shoot up and I was done for.

Thankfully said boyfriend and I moved to another state to get out of that town and away from all the bad influences, and it was the best decision I ever made. I have made it a point to avoid befriending anyone who uses drugs and I have since broken up with that guy who was definitely bi-polar, an alcoholic (which exasperated his symptoms even more), still wanted to use drugs occasionally, the list goes on... We obviously couldn't remain together if I wanted to stay sober. Shortly after we broke up, he knocked up my best friend. They didn't last but a few weeks but they got back together when she found out she was pregnant. I almost relapsed because of the depression and shame that resulted--I came "this close"--but thanks to friends and family I was able to stay away from drugs and that horrible little town in Georgia.

Speaking of, my home town definitely has a lot to do with what happened. The people who are still there (probably 90% of them didn't make it out of that town) are still using drugs and some are so bad that they're doing things like stealing and selling guns, beating people up, stealing from family and friends, etc. so it's needless to say that I got out just in time. I have been 100% open and honest with my parents since I moved to SC and because I'm close to my mom for once, I visit her almost every day while I can as I'm moving to D.C. in under a year. Our relationship was so fucked up from all the lies among lots of other things but we've somehow managed to repair it and even make it better than it ever was. We are truly best friends at this point. I visit my dad who still lives in my home town, but I usually visit him at another house in Alabama so I don't have to go back to that town and be around those people (which I consider a huge trigger). I go back to that place about twice a year at this point and when I do, I pretty much stay with my family the entire time and make it a point to not hang out with anyone--even people who don't use drugs that often--because I don't trust myself to be around drugs and not slip up as I am an addict.

Wow, that got way longer than it needed to be. My bad.
 
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Also, since we're on the topic of hiding drug use from people, I must say that after all these years of being around people who lied about their drug use and being one of those people myself for the better part of the past six/seven years, I've come to realize that you can only lie for so long before everything catches up to you. You can only maintain a facade for so long before it all falls apart. Drug addiction is something like an avalanche in the way that it starts out small and ends up building over time (often quickly). Even if you manage to keep it a secret for a long period of time, your luck WILL run out as no one is always lucky, especially when it comes to drugs. You'll eventually get arrested, overdose, come up positive on a drug test at work or something similar. It's only a matter of time when it comes to drugs =/
 
I've always been up front with my close friends and family but definitely hid my drug use from everyone I've worked with (aside from a couple of dudes I've smoked the odd spliff with). I have a white-collar career and if anyone higher up the ladder found out I had an opiate problem (clean now), it would spread like wildfire and not be good for my livelihood.

Luckily we don't have drug tests in Australia (aside from jobs where people operate dangerous equipment).

Interestingly, I've noticed a big increase in coke use amongst the 'power-set' in this town, even though it's overpriced and generally absolute garbage. It seems to be on the rise as a glamour drug for the young and well off. Some of my mates do coke every time they go out and there isn't any negative stigma surrounding it at all. Even mention opiates though and you'll be ostracised quicker than a Nazi in a synagogue!
 
I have to hide the meth use from family,
though they probably know something's up.
 
I don't exactly hide it, but I don't tell everyone the extent of the use. I say things sometimes, but I guess my mom doesn't really believe me. Everyone around me knows I'm prescribed opiates, but not everyone knows I abuse them.. sometimes. ;)
 
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