seconds away from death

[opiatekrzy]

Excuse me for going off topic if i am. 3 weeks ago, i was on my way home from a long day of classes at community college, i was in a good mood because i had filled my #60 Adderall, i get off the metro bus around 5:30pm. i go by the pedestrian crosswalk, i see the light yellow going on red, as i hurridly walked to beat city like traffic as i do on a daily basis, a mini van going 50mph smacked me dead on, days later the witness told me i went airborne and flew 30 ft. all i remember is pressure and screaming like a baby saying "i got hit by a car and im going to die today and leave my two kids behind and fiancee, 2 and 3yr old. next thing i know im on the side of the road in the most excruciating pain of my life. i never lost conscious, im guessing being on Methadone Maintenance and Adderall that day prevented it? i felt very cold and shakey and thought i was going into shock, the witness held my head and talked to me until ambulance came. i made it known to EVERYONE i was on methaqdone 95mg dAILY for my own safety, i thought i was FUCKED and had to go thru this pain naturally.

the ambulance aid my femur was shattered, tibia and fibia, apparently my bone cracked clear in half and went out of my shin thru my skin, they kept giving me IV morphine, still it wasnt helping, all i know is they were very worried about my blood loss and my femur, i ended up needing a blood transfusion. ANYWAY--i had to go for emergency surgery--i have metal rods from my waist to my foot, for surgery all i remember them giving me was a mask on my face and i was knocked out until surgery was over...my question is...being on methadone was i just given something strong like VERSED to just black me out, or perhaps fentanyl to bust past the 95mg methadone? cause the3 hours prior before surgery i was in the worst pain of my life...i also fractured my hips, which i feel is the worst pain...im confined to a wheel chair now for 12 weeks.. the idiots at the hospital couldnt find a vein so they had to use my neck and doa blood transfusion 4 times, and they kept giving me 1mg dilaudid shots in my neck every 3 hours and 2 lortabs. i kept telling them im on methadone these narcotics are useless!! stilll they write me a script for lortab, doctor claims some people have extra opiate MU receptors even on methadone aND THE LORTAB may work..its against my clinic policy anyway...sorry if this seems like a darkside thread. but curious on what meds i was given before surgery AND during ? due to being on methadone i wonder what alternative? it sucks knowing i have steel rods up my leg. im also RXed Adderall, which is helping tremendously for physical therapy AND the methadone is working great for pain, they later gave me xanax which helped relieve the cramps in my pelvis and hips..the most painful part of thia ia the fractured hips...excuse my rambling..letting yall know im ok..but had to drop out of college this semester and my full time job, which is SO DEPRESSING> and the pain in the morning and throughought the day...im glad to be annoying u guys right now and not embalmed underground without yall knowing!

 

[Intense]

Wow, first you're very lucky to be alive. And Im sorry you had to go thru all this, sounds awful. Try and hang in there and come out strong! Keep your head up because at times you're going to want to quit.


You will be in my prayers

 

[missmeyet?]

A doctor who knew better most definitely could have given you enough meds to overpower and help with the pain. In a trauma situation there is no reason to let someone suffer..ever. if nothing else you could have been scripted extra methadone which is commonly prescribed for severe pain and can be scripted by any doc that is allowed to write narcote/scheduled meds. It makes me cringe and terrified at same time everytime I hear a story like this.

Lortab..he might as well handed you some blue M & Ms.

Hope you feel better. Do you have another doc that you can talk to about getting something besides lortab? I dont know how your methadone clinic deals with issues like this but there is never any reason to let anyone suffer no matter ex addict or not...and though most docs are ignorant, many feel the same way i do.

 

[sonicwhite]

The important thing is your okay....I have had a drug overdose and the paramedics shot me up in both for arms with something that I have no clue what it was but, I was psychotic and for my safety and there's they had to do that....I know what it feels like to see everything pass thru your mind while minutes from death...All I can say is I know what you have been thru. Not the accident but fearing death......BTW I have no clue what they gave you but I had a friend that used to chop down tree limbs and he fell 50 ft and crushed both legs and he was like you with steel rods in both legs and I surprised he isn't a opiate addict with all the percadan's they where giving him while in a wheel chair.

 

[opiatekrzy]

i know, im amazed i dodged death, a minivan hitting me at 50mph..here i am a month later...i saw my primary doctor..i she asked what pain meds im on, i told her they gave me lortabs the orthopedics, but i dont take them cause im on methadone at the clinic and it helps great with the pain actually, but i stressed to her i wanted to go back on klonopin as i been on it for years and my shrink wont RX me benzos. she asked what mg, and i honestly told her, and walked out with klonopin, 1mg.2x daily..the methadobe clinic actually is giving me take home doses so i dont gotta go to the clinic daily, i get weekly supply of methadone doses, im in so much pain, i have in house nurses and physical therapists coming to my house. honesty with my primary got me my panic attack meds.

 

[legalizeall]

man what a story. like another one said try and stay positive and realize your very lucky. ive had a close call with the reaper myself and the big thing that i got out of it was it showed me that im here for a reason. also showed me that all the little bullshit that people can get so worked up about like traffic or they got to go to work, or its shitty weather means nothing in the big scope of things.

i should be dead but im not and i dont believe thats a coincidence or chance. it has given me purpose in life. i cant tell you exactly the reason im here but ill know it when i get there. same with you. your here for a reason or else you wouldnt be alive you know. good luck to your bro and ill be sending good thoughts your way.

 

[omnipresenthuman]

I had a few bad experiences with speed in Nov.-Dec. 2012 and although I didn't exactly overdose (I just put a lot of undue stress on my heart over several episodes of dosing too much) just to finish out college I 'had to' quit working my full-time job (I was on a scholarship - was just working at the time to save up) for a few months because I couldn't do both my job and my schoolwork anymore due to the anxiety/stress/panic that was still following me around for a while. I know my situation doesn't sound as bad as yours but for a good 4-5 months I contemplated suicide due to depression...I'm working again now and things are going OK.

the point being that regardless of how shit sucks it's better to be alive - once I started to accept that, I got over the anxiety pretty quick and went back to working.