Sealed with a flame

[harraser]

Its a shame I cant see you
Its one of the only things I regret
About closing my eyes to the world.
Stapling the lids shut
To block the sight of brocken promises
Sealing them with a flame
To keep out the shattered dreams
They seemed like such good ideas at the time
Perhaps you whisper in my ear
To let me know that someones there
I cant hear you if you do
Its hard to hear anything
Above the screaming
That I used to wish would stop
I used to think the screams were sending me insane
But now that howl of frustration and emptiness
Is like my only freind
I can almost remember
All the times you said everything would be ok
I remember thinking you had the most gorgeous smile
But the recolection of what it looked like
Is quite beyond me now
I drowned all my memories of you
Along with all the others
The destruction of everything that made me feel
Seemed like the only way to be safe
And if you were there
Im sure youd tell me
That Ive made a mistake.
Maybe I have, I dont know
I honestly couldnt care anymore
Im finally alone
The way Ive always felt
And if I could only find a way
To make you stop reaching out and touching me
And bring up so many old unwanted memories
Id be free to forget the few things I have left
And maybe I could have some peace
[ 08 May 2002: Message edited by: harraser ]

 

[Dagny]

*** exhale ***
Oh baby, if only I had the chance to fix you a cup of coffee or hot tea, sit down next to you on a front porch, and watch all those feelings fade with the wind down the street. We could smile just a little as they round the corner, out of sight. Maybe cry a little at what it means to say goodbye, but all in all be okay in each other's company, the overcast sky and the warm breeze....
You break my heart sweetie, but knowing there are people like you in the world puts the pieces back together again.

 

[plazma]

Oh My Fucking God.
This is some severely good stuff man, very very scarily good stuff in fact.
I'm almost afraid to read it again.
-plaz out-

 

[Creative_Vibes]

wow, that was music to my eyes.
I need to read it again

 

[frostyangel]

ah, Harraser!
Your words never seem to disappoint me.
I admire you so much. I can't wait for everytime you post.
*hugZ*

 

[Angelight]

i just wish i could meet you, and hug you, and whisper in your ear to tell you that you are amazing.
This literally brought tears to my eyes, and i am sitting here in awe at such truth, emotion...you give me chills ant. Maybe its the way this whole thing was put, or maybe its b/c i felt so much of it. Keep writing. Your beautiful.

 

[E-girl]

this is for you, my sweet. its by Jewel. i love ya.
Everything Breaks Sometime
Under the shadows, forbidden and hot
Desire grows, more often than not
I'm sorry's a stupid thing to say
Especially considering it's not like I planned it this way
But I'm sorry is all that there is left of me
I'm so sorry this love made me hollow and left you empty
Maybe I could have loved you better
Maybe you should have loved me more
Maybe our hearts were just next in line
Maybe everything breaks sometime
Everything breaks sometime
It's hard to believe its boiled down to this
It seems so surreal this won't be healed by a kiss
It's hard to stare at you knowing you like I have
I used to feel so close, now I feel so bad
My heart's filled with thunderstorms and I'm ready to burst
And I've lost my favorite harbor and I'll weather for the worst
Maybe I could have loved you better
Maybe you should have loved me more
Maybe our hearts were just next in line
Maybe everything breaks sometime
Everything breaks sometime
I'm so sorry,
everything breaks sometime
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you deserve nothing but happiness... butterflies and cupcakes with lots and lots of frosting...

I can almost remember
All the times you said everything would be ok
I remember thinking you had the most gorgeous smile
But the recolection of what it looked like
Is quite beyond me now
I drowned all my memories of you
Along with all the others
this seriously made me cry sweetheart. i wish i could jump across the miles and kiss you on the forehead and tell you it WILL be alright... but i'm not sure myself these days

 

[harraser]

Ive been trying to think of some decent words to say to say thanks to you all, whenever I feel down your replies pick me up soooo much but theres really nothing I could say that could possibly come close to showing how much you all mean to me so I guess the good old "thank you" will have to do. I love you all
PS. Tea please Dagny, white with two sugars
[ 10 May 2002: Message edited by: harraser ]