Screwed by bad choices and as situation out of my control

[Azure Cloud]

Azure! I've been missing your voice around here but so glad to know your absence has been do to improvements--how wonderful! Diet and exercise can cure so much when it comes to mood and the ability to handle things and yet so many people never give them enough time to work. I myself have been carrying over the bad habits of the holidays and here we are coming into March pretty soon--time to take my blinders off and plan for exercise every day. I find if I don't make a plan, I just put it off until it is too late.

I'm really happy for you and grateful that you checked back in.

Hey herbavore! I must say it is very nice to know that someone missed me...lol. Actually I 've been lurking more than is healthy but I've been so depressed that I could not even stand to post one more non positive posting. Honestly I think it was just PAWS running it's 8month course on me. It has only been since last week that my attitude/motivation/sense of hopefulness has really turned around.

Exercise has not been a magic bullet as I was working out last year but during that time I'd come home after the gym and go back to bed with no motivation to do anything above survival activities. That said, exercising and eating right does make a big difference in how I feel now. I hope this will become my new addiction. I can definitely live with and exercise/health-and-wellness addiction!

I'm still struggling. The decision to get up and go to the gym is hard but once I'm there working out, I feel good. I'm still on the hunt for a job that I can support my family with. Manual labor and being out of town for 2-4 weeks at a time was contributing to my depression on top of the PAWS, but now that my head feels screwed on a little better, I know that I will be able to make something happen soon.

Take care heby! And thank you for stopping by