Schizoaffective

[greenlight204]

I want to kill myself. I am at my ends wit. I cannot continue on anymore this way. I have an illness, a disease, and it is making my life unbearable because I cannot obtain or achieve whatever I want to achieve. I look like a loser doing anything because I am not myself anymore. I am nothing of a person. I have a disease that has been ruining my life and causing chaos everywhere I go. I see no solution, no end goal, no fix to my problems. I would rather end it all for good.

 

[deficiT]

Do you have a counselor or psychiatrist? Any treatment for your mental health?

I'm sorry you're struggling. It can get better though. Don't give up and keep your head up.

 

[greenlight204]

Do you have a counselor or psychiatrist? Any treatment for your mental health?

I'm sorry you're struggling. It can get better though. Don't give up and keep your head up.

Do you have a counselor or psychiatrist? Any treatment for your mental health?

I'm sorry you're struggling. It can get better though. Don't give up and keep your head up.

Yes. My psychiatrist is new due to insurance, and said I don’t need to be on APs. I’m worried they have rotted my brain after so many years. I can barely function.

 

[greenlight204]

This shit is no help. I am at my absolute WITS end. I have nothing left. Nowhere to turn, nowhere to go, no one to fix my issue. I’ve tried it all. I give up.

 

[washingtonbound]

I want to kill myself. I am at my ends wit. I cannot continue on anymore this way. I have an illness, a disease, and it is making my life unbearable because I cannot obtain or achieve whatever I want to achieve. I look like a loser doing anything because I am not myself anymore. I am nothing of a person. I have a disease that has been ruining my life and causing chaos everywhere I go. I see no solution, no end goal, no fix to my problems. I would rather end it all for good.

I have been diagnosed as ''schizoaffective bipolar type,´´ although orginally was just called bipolar type 1. My advice would not to create identity over these diagnoses as they are arbitrary. Everytime I have been in the inpatient pysch unit, everyone seemed to be bipolar or shizoprenic, even those who seemed totally normal and maybe just had an OD or suicide attempt

The issue is when you´re on the low end of a mood disorder it just seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I can certainly relate to this. I also worry about the possiblity of long term brain damage from long acting antipsyhotics. I don´t know what knew things I can tell you exactly since you´ve probably heard the same stuff as me but I recommend taking no more meds than is absolutely essential and keeping up with a good diet. Try to reframe your thinking when it gets bad that it´s just your brain playing tricks on you, although it´s easier said than done. I also don´t recommend smoking weed as that makes things a lot worse for me and many others. Try to get engaged in some new hobbies that distract you from mental health stuff and don´t make things worse for yourself than you have to.