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Scared of relapse

Mel24ny

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Ive been an addict for a year and a half I've gotten clear a dozen times but relapse always with in 2 weeks its usually because my husband will get and for me the temptation of it in my face or him doing it around me is to strong. I always say I will do it just once but we all know how that goes. This time im truly determined to quit its been 48 hours since I last did something. The withdrawals were bad so bad that last night I got a few subs enough to detox. My husband is not here and im scared that when he returns home that I will once again relaps. I will be clean but im scared because its happened so many times in the past. I want to be clean and stay clean any suggestions would greatly be appreciated.Thank you.
 
Mel24Ny,
You should absolutely be scared for a relapse. Truthfully you have a very small chance of staying clean while living with an active user. So, in my experience, you either both make a commitment to get and stay clean, separate yourself from anyone who threatens your intent to stay clean, or have no plan. No plans=Planning to Fail.
So, you are the only one who will know when you're ready to stop. Until then, keep expecting the same shit which will progressively get worse..
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I agree with big bird gemini, and wanted to add my thoughts, have you considered going to the Methadone Clinic? Or getting methadone maintenance from a private doctor.... yes, it is a commitment and another drug you will eventually have to taper off of... but without it I wouldn't have been able to get clean from opiates and my need to use daily. it has a blocker that will take away your craving for opiates, and it also makes you unable to feel the high even if you tried. (I tried once, about a month after I first started on methadone couldn't feel any effect from eating 6 roxy 30's) I'm on m. maintenance for 4 years and can watch people do opiates and not even care to join. I know not everyone is wild about getting on methadone maintenance or if its something you would consider to stay sober, but I thought I would put the idea out there. Best of luck.
 
Hey guys I just went to a meeting because I felt like using which I I didn't but the meeting I went to was AA and honestly it didn't help me :( I couldn't relate whatsoever because im an addict not an alcoholic. But although I didn't get much from the meeting and my urge to use is still there I haven't thanks to my husband who is now clean and sober we both have been clean 38 days
 
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