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Scared about doing E?

ahint

ahint

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Okay, so there's a chance I might be taking E in the future (I know the precautions to take, and have read up on it, etc), but I'm undecided.

The thing is, I have a history of social anxiety disorder and depression: I'm just scared I'll try it, and it'll be so perfect that I'll feel my everyday life will never be as good, and thus I'll feel my everyday life is pointless.

Has anyone any advice?
 
There is nothing to be scared of.

The first time feels incredible natural. I didn't even know I was high until I noticed everyone staring and smiling back at me as I babbled on about "how awesome my room was" and "how it's the best room ever".

If you have a history of substance abuse, addictions, or spending problems then I would suggest caution.
 
If you approach it with caution and self-respect, MDMA rewards you a great deal. If you are scared of your psychological past, MDMA will hold your hand and make it safe and natural for you to process it and understand it better. It is a great therapeutic tool if that is what you are trying to do with it.
 
Dude do it! My friend and myself use to be socialy anxious all the time after taking E/MDMA I've gotten so much better and I had depression after rolling much less depressed www.pillreports.com is your best friend if you don't own a test kit! Good luck :) THIZZ iZ what it IZ!
 
if you are really worried then make sure you get a test kit and know what you are taking. That is the best and most important advise.
 
as cliched as it the first half i did was 1 of the most memorable nights in my life and i look back an smile. my advise would be treat it with respect and dont go mad. it was that enjoyable i was over eger afterwards to get as much as i could and as high as i could but i was young and foolish.

tread careful and it can be amazing but dont be greedy. oh and enjoy :)
 
I was in a similar boat. I have social anxiety disorder with a history of depressive episodes.

I would say be careful, drugs effect everyone differently. I wouldn't say I thought it was so perfect that every day life was pointless. Actually I was thinking that every day life is actually pretty good while on it. It almost felt like I was naturally in a good mood, although a bit excessive lol. I'd also recommend taking it when you're already in an alright mood, so not during a depressive episode. Then the depressive thoughts might start telling you that 'haha, life will never be this good', etc. So the fact you're worried about it might make it a self fulfilling prophecy. I was a bit worried about that, but my curiosity overwhelmed it.

After like a week or so, I *really* wanted to do it again, and life was getting a bit mundane. But I just rode it out and that went away. It also didn't cure my social anxiety long term. It did on it and a few days after. But it did help with my long term self esteem, which I had problems with. That made it worth it.

Amphetamine on the other hand.... bleh. I call it 'bipolar powder'.
 
suicidally depressed people who were using drugs in a means to shorten their lifespan as well as bring some fun into their life completely changed their ways after taking mdma
im not saying its for you, but its deffinitly not not for you
mdma can bring out different emotions out of people and it can give them a chance of hope in their lives
 
hey mate go for it i say....the benefits of using E for people with social disorders are absolutely immense.

with the history of depression....just really make sure you have ample time to come down, and dont do it alone. dont be in a position where anything matter, no work the next day and no parents. just good company, chill beats, and float around in a swimming pool if you can. ahhhh to be scat.....

if you manage the comedown, there wont be one. good luck to you mate, let us know how it goes!
 
Be ready for the anxiety of the come up. I am a bit like you and very anxious and worry quite a bit, but once I start rolling I no longer have anxiety, except for the last time I rolled. I rolled extremely hard on my second pill and I had anxiety (racing heart beat, cold sweats crazy eye wiggles) that lasted about 20 seconds until the amazing feeling took over.
 
ahint said:
Okay, so there's a chance I might be taking E in the future (I know the precautions to take, and have read up on it, etc), but I'm undecided.

The thing is, I have a history of social anxiety disorder and depression: I'm just scared I'll try it, and it'll be so perfect that I'll feel my everyday life will never be as good, and thus I'll feel my everyday life is pointless.

Has anyone any advice?
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It won't make you depressed that life isn't as good as ecstasy (although it isn't). I look back on my experiences with a feeling of nostaliga. It's always a happy, sometimes bittersweet feeling. I've even heard of people figuring things out on e that HELPED them with everyday life -- making things less pointless. This is all coming from someone with bad social anxiety and i used to have some very serious depression issues. All my friends now tell me I'm the happiest person they know ^^
 
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