Scagnattie Checking In

Haven't posted a blog in quite a while... as a matter of fact, up until about a week ago, I hadn't even bothered to log onto BL. Why was that you might ask? Well.. what the fuck do you think? I was strung to the damn gills on heroin for almost 12 months straight. Hah. So what's new with me? Well, I went to detox for 2 weeks.. had a seizure, some other serious unpleasantness, and was basically told by the nurses that I was doing so much heroin for so many days consecutively, that they didn't even have the permission to give me the dosage of meds I would have needed, and that coming in without weening down considerably was a horrible mistake... No lie, one nurse.. (a really cool old time junkie) told me I should actually go back out, get re-strung out on a much smaller habit and then come back and kick that.. this was said on day 8 mind you, right after I had my seizure... 8(

Anyway, I made it.. still alive.. I'm back on suboxone because even though I was in detox 2 weeks, I was still sick when I left.. My plan is to ween off the bupe as fast as I possibly can and try and have some moniker of a normal life.. (Yeah, good luck right?)

On another note, my girl is getting out of jail very soon, was supposed to be today but... we all know how fuckin' slow the courts are.. she'll be home for a week and then will be mandated to a 60 day rehab followed by years of drug court.. but hey, after getting caught with an ounce of H.. she got off easy. Guess most judges don't want to send beautiful 22 year old girls with so much potential upstate for 5 years.. So she'll have one more shot. If she blows it, she's done. We both are, because after 10 years of this shit... I know I wont survive another run. I'm going to die and I've accepted that fact.


Thanks for all of you BL'ers support and advice over the years. Happy Thanksgiving.

 

Good to see you back around. My life just got wrecked by heroin too.. lost my job two days ago and am in a detox writng this to you now.. the halfway houee ibwas living in, well the owner of it said i could live at her house for two weeks after i get out of here to look for a job. After that, if i fail, i will be homeless and unemployed. So i feel your pain and wish you the best man. Hopefully we can both make ot thru this and not have to go out again..

 

Hey man, soorry to hear about all your troubles. Glad to have you back around the site my brother. Hope everything works out for you and your girl, and that you guys can make use of your opportunity to be clean together! You guys can do this, love is a powerful tool.