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HdoubleODeezy

HdoubleODeezy

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Been gone a long time. Saying, "Hello", as a new person. I may be a BL vet, but I feel like I'm a nervous new member making their first post.
Kind of nervous to be here. Anxiety issues after all my benzo, and RC use has ended.
Went through rehab, lived in a sober home, tried the whole 12 step thing. I have a new mind.
Unsure if I'll be sticking around or not. We'll see how it goes.
Any forum suggestions? I used to be into Words and OD. Maybe now TDS?

-HOOD <--- no more of that shit.
 
Hey there old member coming back to say Hi. Sounds like the time spent away was good for you. Welcome back as an all new and shiny penny and yeah, Health and Recovery and TDS would be great, as well as the other forums you enjoyed.

Welcome back.
 
Welcome back to Bluelight @HdoubleODeezy :)

Man where to begin? Well, considering you are back, I would first take a look over in The Bluelight Shrine . Not to sound depressing man but it's good to pay your respects to those that had left us way to soon, but personally I can only spend 5 minutes at a time there because I know everyone there, I mean everyone.

So start from the bottom and work your way up. :)
 
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Welcome back to Bluelight @HdoubleODeezy :)

Man where to begin? Well, considering you are back, I would first take a look over in The Bluelight Shrine . Not to sound depressing man but it's good to pay your respects to those that had left us way to soon, but personally I can only spend 5 minutes at a time there because I know everyone there, I mean everyone.

So start from the bottom and work your way up. :)
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Just did a look over of the shrine.. CH died? crazy. I learned so much talking with him.
I've lost many people in real life over the past few years also.
Grandmother, Grandfather, Brother, My cat, 2 roommates. My cousin died yesterday morning. Other friends, or "acquaintances" who I wasn't too too close to, but still knew. Neighbors.
Myself. I died back in 2013 after swallowing like 60 20mg Zyprexa. Then when I recovered from that attempt, started killing myself with Tianeptine taking 250-500mg at a time instead of micro-dosing and that's when I started losing my mind even worse and made a complete fool of myself in life and even on this website and I'm embarrassed to come back here after it. I definitely wasn't myself anymore, and I'm still not me, but I'm learning to deal with my new mind even though everyday is a struggle.

But yeah, back to the shrine.. I'll give it a better look over again, but the first thing that stuck out to me as soon as I looked at it was Captain.Heroin. It sidetracked me the rest of the time I scrolled through.
 
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Always nice to see an old member return. I came back after a period of time, sometimes that break is needed.
 
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