saying goodbye instead of goodnight

[empty_remains]

I can't get your words out of my head
begging me to say what I know I felt
I want you to know that I did have tears for you
I do love you, I never stopped
I wanted to say so badly on the phone
Those three words that you needed to hear
And I'm so sorry I didn't
Hearing goodnight now breaks my heart
Things weren't meant to end this way
Not with us

I ruin everything I touch
Now and before
But there's one huge difference
Your not here to catch me when I fall
You always knew to hold me
Even when there were no words left to say
You'd open your arms to me
I need that now so badly it hurts

I could never cry before
I'd try, things would hurt so bad i should have been able to
I need you to know that I learned
and I've become very good at it

I'm sorry for the things I said
And all the things I should have

The day is coming up
When you couldn't take it anymore
I have so many conflicted feelings
But the one thing I'm sure of
I loved you as best I could
It should have been more but I gave you my all

 

[lostNfound]

This made me feel sad.

Well written though.

I've been this person before, long ago.