I've struggled with drugs/alcohol as many as the rest of us addicts. It's like we don't have that cut off point in our brain to know when to stop. Well either way addict or not, I refuse to live a boring life watching American Idol raising 2 shit kids and working a miserable job - all for what? Material possessiveness that we just worked all that money for. I guess the technological advances are nice though. I am too cynical of the world when not high.
The way i see it is that we should all be working towards a self-sustainable life for the future; cause without the future, what was the point?
I know these men on top want money when they are younger and power as they age (quote from Phil. Prof)l. How is a younger generation supposed to break through the current hierarchy? We contact the salvia, dmt and ibogaine entities and get them on our side not for lame healing of sick and wounded but for social equality and political justice. Obviously this idea is sill but i go back to work at a call centre from home and it's obviously tiresome dealing with confused old people or better yet sell them something they don't need.
So this time i'm on a low dose of phenazepam and decent doses of ethylphenidate with the odd trip thrown in for good measure. This is enough to keep me going for now but how long till it blows to shit again? Hopefully never
A much more cheery phenazahorse than I was 2 months ago barely being able to stand sitting i was so irritated. So i'm going to wean off the ppam cause god it makes me stupid and forgetful and get on ritalin/adderall/dexedrine hopefully. Is it not possible that my anxiety comes from the fact i grew up in a chaotic household and had to manage with compulsive tendencies.
The way i see it is that we should all be working towards a self-sustainable life for the future; cause without the future, what was the point?
I know these men on top want money when they are younger and power as they age (quote from Phil. Prof)l. How is a younger generation supposed to break through the current hierarchy? We contact the salvia, dmt and ibogaine entities and get them on our side not for lame healing of sick and wounded but for social equality and political justice. Obviously this idea is sill but i go back to work at a call centre from home and it's obviously tiresome dealing with confused old people or better yet sell them something they don't need.
So this time i'm on a low dose of phenazepam and decent doses of ethylphenidate with the odd trip thrown in for good measure. This is enough to keep me going for now but how long till it blows to shit again? Hopefully never
A much more cheery phenazahorse than I was 2 months ago barely being able to stand sitting i was so irritated. So i'm going to wean off the ppam cause god it makes me stupid and forgetful and get on ritalin/adderall/dexedrine hopefully. Is it not possible that my anxiety comes from the fact i grew up in a chaotic household and had to manage with compulsive tendencies.
