suki_lives
Bluelighter
That night I saw you
You still shine like a diamond
In the midst of coal faces
Once the heart-rending moment of seeing you
Had passed
POW
I quelled the explosions in my chest
I stayed gripped to the floor with
Boots too big for my feet
As I shuffled uneasily to stand before you
Heavy with thought and emotion
Your beauty still so evident
That small face carved from marble
My heart still beat faster
When you took the time to look at me
Laughter burbled from my chest
A merry stream of inconsequential chatter
As we danced that verbal dance
A pas de deux for the irregular regulars
As if you'd never gone away
As if we'd never parted
Caught in the miasma...
Standing on the edge of the chasm
Do I fall to pieces
Or do I keep standing tall...
I stood tall
But I was humbled
We are rivers that once merged to become the sea
Something bigger than all of this
Deeper
Sweet yearning sprung from my soul
This leaking heart
Remembering "this was once mine"
Still grieving the loss of you
Mannerisms once familiar
Now nostalgia for the faint of heart
I would have moved heaven and the earth
My hands bloodied and raw
To see if your lips still remembered mine
To wrap my arms around your heart
Which always beat in time with mine
The stench of bitter disappointment, knowing
You will never again kiss the bitter words away or
Replace that dark place with mischevious love
Your playful mouth and merry hands
The way you always did
(I have grown...
I have grown...)
If only I had met you that night
If that had been the first time
Then maybe I wouldn't be sitting here tonight
Wanting so badly to call you
And knowing that I cannot
I cannot see you
Or feel you
I cannot touch you
The gentle flourishes of your voice
Could settle this grieving heart
With feathery touches
Your angel wing...
Cuddles in the kitchen to lift
The weariest of hearts
Your graceful intellect
Makes you shine
Made me shine by proxy
This heart grows jaded
With the loss
It slumps in my chest
Heaving and sighing
I still weave unsteadily
Drunk with loss
My head willing me to let go and be strong
My heart pulling me back to you
(Time and
Time again)
Then I remember you're gone
You've been gone for so long
It's been so long
But I still see you in my sleep
I'm not sure if you knew how special you were.
So I'm telling you this now
You were special
You ARE special
My heart is still bound with you
Still
Still wrapped in golden cords
Your name written all over me
In my voice
My vocabulary
My soul
You once loved me
It is cold comfort
But it's more important
That I have this feeling of having loved...
Having lost...
Because it means "Us" happened...
Because this heart without you in it...
Because these words I write
Because this soul that still howls for you
Just because...
This heart...
This sorrowful beating...
Would be empty indeed.
You still shine like a diamond
In the midst of coal faces
Once the heart-rending moment of seeing you
Had passed
POW
I quelled the explosions in my chest
I stayed gripped to the floor with
Boots too big for my feet
As I shuffled uneasily to stand before you
Heavy with thought and emotion
Your beauty still so evident
That small face carved from marble
My heart still beat faster
When you took the time to look at me
Laughter burbled from my chest
A merry stream of inconsequential chatter
As we danced that verbal dance
A pas de deux for the irregular regulars
As if you'd never gone away
As if we'd never parted
Caught in the miasma...
Standing on the edge of the chasm
Do I fall to pieces
Or do I keep standing tall...
I stood tall
But I was humbled
We are rivers that once merged to become the sea
Something bigger than all of this
Deeper
Sweet yearning sprung from my soul
This leaking heart
Remembering "this was once mine"
Still grieving the loss of you
Mannerisms once familiar
Now nostalgia for the faint of heart
I would have moved heaven and the earth
My hands bloodied and raw
To see if your lips still remembered mine
To wrap my arms around your heart
Which always beat in time with mine
The stench of bitter disappointment, knowing
You will never again kiss the bitter words away or
Replace that dark place with mischevious love
Your playful mouth and merry hands
The way you always did
(I have grown...
I have grown...)
If only I had met you that night
If that had been the first time
Then maybe I wouldn't be sitting here tonight
Wanting so badly to call you
And knowing that I cannot
I cannot see you
Or feel you
I cannot touch you
The gentle flourishes of your voice
Could settle this grieving heart
With feathery touches
Your angel wing...
Cuddles in the kitchen to lift
The weariest of hearts
Your graceful intellect
Makes you shine
Made me shine by proxy
This heart grows jaded
With the loss
It slumps in my chest
Heaving and sighing
I still weave unsteadily
Drunk with loss
My head willing me to let go and be strong
My heart pulling me back to you
(Time and
Time again)
Then I remember you're gone
You've been gone for so long
It's been so long
But I still see you in my sleep
I'm not sure if you knew how special you were.
So I'm telling you this now
You were special
You ARE special
My heart is still bound with you
Still
Still wrapped in golden cords
Your name written all over me
In my voice
My vocabulary
My soul
You once loved me
It is cold comfort
But it's more important
That I have this feeling of having loved...
Having lost...
Because it means "Us" happened...
Because this heart without you in it...
Because these words I write
Because this soul that still howls for you
Just because...
This heart...
This sorrowful beating...
Would be empty indeed.
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