I was not prepared for what Salvia had in store for me.
I had recently ordered some regular Salvia leaves, and with the help from a friend, we made an acetone extraction that proved to be very efficient indeed. A couple of days ago I tried it with two friends, and although we didn't break through, there were definitely some significant effects. I saw geometric patterns when I closed my eyes, felt the salvia gravity very strongly and laughed my ass off. Fast forward to today where I spontaneously got the idea to try it again. I asked R if he wanted to join, and he agreed. We drove down to another friend, S, who was home alone for a few days.
We get there and relax for a few minutes, before we decide that now is the time. We go outside and sit down on some chairs before we pack the bowl. Some regular dried leaf in the bottom, with a few pinches of the crude extract on the top. R takes a hit, and gives me the pipe. I had originally decided to wait and see what effects he would get, but for some reason I threw caution out the window. Bad idea. I looked into the bowl, wondered if I should refill it, then I just put the pipe to my mouth, lit the lighter and inhaled. It was a monster hit, I could feel it. I held my breath . I looked around, and noted that I was starting to feel the same effects that I did last time, except this time I could see the patterns with my eyes open. Before I had any time to reflect on this I was thrown into a dream. A nightmare to be specific.
Now, my recollection of this is vague, and some things are still coming back to me, but this is the best I can do. I had previously thought that I was different from others, that I would be able to tell my self that I've smoked a drug and that I'm just experiencing hallucinations. I couldn't have been more wrong.
The moment I entered the "dream", I forgot everything about Salvia, even though I was still holding the pipe in my hands. The world started moving at two frames per second. I vaguely remember R saying something like, I'm feeling it, lets go inside. And then I watched him walk passed me and go through the door. And then he did it again. And again. I was standing there with the pipe in my hands, watching the world loop without questioning it. Suddenly the world got darker. R was in front of me yet again, and I was sure that I had done something wrong. It felt like my reality was being here, smoking salvia and I was part of someone elses dream, but I'd broken it. Reality was falling apart, and it was somehow my fault, even though I couldn't tell what I had done. R's face started to glow in an evil shade of red, he felt like some kind of devil to me. He laughed and said something like, You've ruined it. You've ruined it.
It seemed to me that I had lived this moment a thousand times, smoking salvia outside my friend's house, but this time I had done something wrong and I would suffer for it. Somehow I picked up the salvia stash and stumbled inside, dropping extract everywhere. I had no control what so ever. As I got inside, I began to come down, but I still felt like my reality was a bad dream and that I might vanish when the dreamer woke up. I sat down in the couch and just tried to calm down. After a few minutes I was back to normal, with no side effects, except the knowledge that I had spent a few minutes in a nightmare.
During the trip I had tried to speak, or so I thought, but the only thing that came out was sounds equal to those that Neo experiences when he is first brought out of the Matrix. Like each letter would last forever and lag out in some digital scrambling. R said that I hadn't spoken a word. I also felt the presence of some entities that seemed to be making fun of me, and I can picture a redheaded woman, but if that's because of the image I have of Salvia, or what I actually saw I can't say. Immediately after the trip I said that I would never try Salvia again, but after reflecting upon it I've decided that I will do it again, only that this time I will choose my setting wisely.
It was an interesting experience, and although it felt like hell for a few minutes, I will try to learn from it.
I had recently ordered some regular Salvia leaves, and with the help from a friend, we made an acetone extraction that proved to be very efficient indeed. A couple of days ago I tried it with two friends, and although we didn't break through, there were definitely some significant effects. I saw geometric patterns when I closed my eyes, felt the salvia gravity very strongly and laughed my ass off. Fast forward to today where I spontaneously got the idea to try it again. I asked R if he wanted to join, and he agreed. We drove down to another friend, S, who was home alone for a few days.
We get there and relax for a few minutes, before we decide that now is the time. We go outside and sit down on some chairs before we pack the bowl. Some regular dried leaf in the bottom, with a few pinches of the crude extract on the top. R takes a hit, and gives me the pipe. I had originally decided to wait and see what effects he would get, but for some reason I threw caution out the window. Bad idea. I looked into the bowl, wondered if I should refill it, then I just put the pipe to my mouth, lit the lighter and inhaled. It was a monster hit, I could feel it. I held my breath . I looked around, and noted that I was starting to feel the same effects that I did last time, except this time I could see the patterns with my eyes open. Before I had any time to reflect on this I was thrown into a dream. A nightmare to be specific.
Now, my recollection of this is vague, and some things are still coming back to me, but this is the best I can do. I had previously thought that I was different from others, that I would be able to tell my self that I've smoked a drug and that I'm just experiencing hallucinations. I couldn't have been more wrong.
The moment I entered the "dream", I forgot everything about Salvia, even though I was still holding the pipe in my hands. The world started moving at two frames per second. I vaguely remember R saying something like, I'm feeling it, lets go inside. And then I watched him walk passed me and go through the door. And then he did it again. And again. I was standing there with the pipe in my hands, watching the world loop without questioning it. Suddenly the world got darker. R was in front of me yet again, and I was sure that I had done something wrong. It felt like my reality was being here, smoking salvia and I was part of someone elses dream, but I'd broken it. Reality was falling apart, and it was somehow my fault, even though I couldn't tell what I had done. R's face started to glow in an evil shade of red, he felt like some kind of devil to me. He laughed and said something like, You've ruined it. You've ruined it.
It seemed to me that I had lived this moment a thousand times, smoking salvia outside my friend's house, but this time I had done something wrong and I would suffer for it. Somehow I picked up the salvia stash and stumbled inside, dropping extract everywhere. I had no control what so ever. As I got inside, I began to come down, but I still felt like my reality was a bad dream and that I might vanish when the dreamer woke up. I sat down in the couch and just tried to calm down. After a few minutes I was back to normal, with no side effects, except the knowledge that I had spent a few minutes in a nightmare.
During the trip I had tried to speak, or so I thought, but the only thing that came out was sounds equal to those that Neo experiences when he is first brought out of the Matrix. Like each letter would last forever and lag out in some digital scrambling. R said that I hadn't spoken a word. I also felt the presence of some entities that seemed to be making fun of me, and I can picture a redheaded woman, but if that's because of the image I have of Salvia, or what I actually saw I can't say. Immediately after the trip I said that I would never try Salvia again, but after reflecting upon it I've decided that I will do it again, only that this time I will choose my setting wisely.
It was an interesting experience, and although it felt like hell for a few minutes, I will try to learn from it.
