Blethan
Greenlighter
Salvia divinorum 10-10-2014 1 full small bowl 20x extract standardised
Firstly i felt like i was waiting in a 'waiting room' with my posters who seemed to have an authoritive feel to them(one of which had ellen pages face from TLOU on it) it gave
me de ja vu and a strong feeling of "ive been here before" after getting up and walking around a bit i realised i had with leo, which made me remember my trip with him where i was waiting or stuck with people who seemed to be stuck in place
but would move almost in a conveyor belt like fashion (this is what he meant when he told me i was looking at the trees with a face full of concentration, completely oblivious to whatever it was he was trying to talk to me about) untill now ive had no idea what happened on that trip, it all suddenly came back to me, i dicided to put on music,
cant remember what came on initially but after some less than perfect choices i put on Xerath - Reform part iii, sworn to sacrifice and the glorious death, had another 2 hits Simply amazing, the music was incredibly intense, sounded and felt just like it did last time i smoked weed.
it reminded me of when i showed leo reform part iii and i kept thinking its that very song, at this point id remembered to close my eyes, the CEV werent great but i kind of enjoyed them for the first time, the best job at describing them i can do is that shapes and things were coming at me, i tried to impose my mental imagery into it which sort of worked,
i was flying further into a direction i thought was salvia space with each strum and riff, so i tried to imagine lady S to no avail, i realised ive been impatiend and have been trying to force myself into a LVL 5 trip/breakthrough. I need to just accept that ill cross over when im ready, although i feel that 20x isnt really strong enough
to give me that extra push that i need to get me to the 'gates' or the door in the waiting room, both this time and last time i felt that a bit more would be what i needed to get me there. i feel as though i should smoke it a couple more times in a more recreational manner slowly building up dose untill i finally blast off. i also feel i should have waited untill
i knew id be home alone for a decent length of time instead of 20 minutes before my mum came home from work.
i think i should get about 35x next time and try it stoned which was the plan for today but obviously fell through.
Peace.
Firstly i felt like i was waiting in a 'waiting room' with my posters who seemed to have an authoritive feel to them(one of which had ellen pages face from TLOU on it) it gave
me de ja vu and a strong feeling of "ive been here before" after getting up and walking around a bit i realised i had with leo, which made me remember my trip with him where i was waiting or stuck with people who seemed to be stuck in place
but would move almost in a conveyor belt like fashion (this is what he meant when he told me i was looking at the trees with a face full of concentration, completely oblivious to whatever it was he was trying to talk to me about) untill now ive had no idea what happened on that trip, it all suddenly came back to me, i dicided to put on music,
cant remember what came on initially but after some less than perfect choices i put on Xerath - Reform part iii, sworn to sacrifice and the glorious death, had another 2 hits Simply amazing, the music was incredibly intense, sounded and felt just like it did last time i smoked weed.
it reminded me of when i showed leo reform part iii and i kept thinking its that very song, at this point id remembered to close my eyes, the CEV werent great but i kind of enjoyed them for the first time, the best job at describing them i can do is that shapes and things were coming at me, i tried to impose my mental imagery into it which sort of worked,
i was flying further into a direction i thought was salvia space with each strum and riff, so i tried to imagine lady S to no avail, i realised ive been impatiend and have been trying to force myself into a LVL 5 trip/breakthrough. I need to just accept that ill cross over when im ready, although i feel that 20x isnt really strong enough
to give me that extra push that i need to get me to the 'gates' or the door in the waiting room, both this time and last time i felt that a bit more would be what i needed to get me there. i feel as though i should smoke it a couple more times in a more recreational manner slowly building up dose untill i finally blast off. i also feel i should have waited untill
i knew id be home alone for a decent length of time instead of 20 minutes before my mum came home from work.
i think i should get about 35x next time and try it stoned which was the plan for today but obviously fell through.
Peace.
