Me and some friends got ahold of some 15x 'purple' (supposedly as strong as 20x, and I believe that) salvia D. extract and got together on our balcony to give it a try. We used a bong, and I cleared the entire bowl, (took about three full hits to clear the chamber) and lost my mind a few seconds after. I've tried salvia once before, but it was 10x extract and I didn't feel much from it except the 'forces' pushing my body and thoughts slightly to the left. However, this time I had a complete breakthrough.
Note: I actually forgot a lot of the details of the beginning of the trip shortly after they happened, but after smoking some salvia leaves a few weeks after this trip (no breakthrough) I remembered the whole thing in fairly good detail and so decided to relate it here.
Basically, as soon as I set down the bong, I completely lost any memory of smoking anything and had a terrible realization. I felt like I was an actor in a film who got too caught up in his role, and now that the film stopped rolling he can't believe that he was just acting. Nothing about my life has been real, it was all just a veil put over my eyes and I have become completely convinced it had really been happening when it was all really just in my mind. I heard mocking voices talking to each other and telling me that it was time to stop acting and wake up, etc. I tried to communicate what I was experiencing to my friends but as I was talking I ended up talking nonsense, just a mess of syllables that meant nothing. After this, my buddies around me started repeating this mass of syllables, as if to mock me, and I kept trying to talk but nothing except this mess of sound would come out of my mouth. It was then that time rewound itself and I started talking normal again but after a few seconds I would involuntarily say the same thing again. Each time that time rewound itself I found myself in weirder and weirder settings in which I was a bigger and bigger part of my environment, one of the most frightening ones being where my lower body was the chair I was sitting in. Eventually I felt myself and the world around me start falling apart, as if space-time got out of balance and became jumbled together. All around me I felt presences mocking me and making fun of my inability to control myself or my surroundings. After this I stood up and started walking. Everything still felt unreal but the anxiety subsided. I sat on another chair inside the apartment and felt it start disappearing under me. I then got up and sat on the couch which made me feel a lot better because it was a lot more comfy than the hard chair I was sitting in before.
When I talked to my friends about my experience after sobering up, they said that after I took the hit, I just sat there for a few minutes looking insane and then stood up and said that 'I had to find it'. No one including me knew what I was talking about.
Overall, the trip was for the most part horrible and now I remember why when I was tripping I told myself to not do salvia again (I definitely will though). I think my main problem was that I tried to fight it and communicate what was going on, which made the trip harder. It was pretty difficult not to fight it though, because of how real everything seemed - I was completely convinced that it was all really happening. Next time I do this I'm definitely going to be in a more comfortable setting and tell whoever I'm with at the time to remind me that I shouldn't fight it and just relax and let it come to me. It was a really interesting, though frightening experience and the first real trip I've ever had.
Note: I actually forgot a lot of the details of the beginning of the trip shortly after they happened, but after smoking some salvia leaves a few weeks after this trip (no breakthrough) I remembered the whole thing in fairly good detail and so decided to relate it here.
Basically, as soon as I set down the bong, I completely lost any memory of smoking anything and had a terrible realization. I felt like I was an actor in a film who got too caught up in his role, and now that the film stopped rolling he can't believe that he was just acting. Nothing about my life has been real, it was all just a veil put over my eyes and I have become completely convinced it had really been happening when it was all really just in my mind. I heard mocking voices talking to each other and telling me that it was time to stop acting and wake up, etc. I tried to communicate what I was experiencing to my friends but as I was talking I ended up talking nonsense, just a mess of syllables that meant nothing. After this, my buddies around me started repeating this mass of syllables, as if to mock me, and I kept trying to talk but nothing except this mess of sound would come out of my mouth. It was then that time rewound itself and I started talking normal again but after a few seconds I would involuntarily say the same thing again. Each time that time rewound itself I found myself in weirder and weirder settings in which I was a bigger and bigger part of my environment, one of the most frightening ones being where my lower body was the chair I was sitting in. Eventually I felt myself and the world around me start falling apart, as if space-time got out of balance and became jumbled together. All around me I felt presences mocking me and making fun of my inability to control myself or my surroundings. After this I stood up and started walking. Everything still felt unreal but the anxiety subsided. I sat on another chair inside the apartment and felt it start disappearing under me. I then got up and sat on the couch which made me feel a lot better because it was a lot more comfy than the hard chair I was sitting in before.
When I talked to my friends about my experience after sobering up, they said that after I took the hit, I just sat there for a few minutes looking insane and then stood up and said that 'I had to find it'. No one including me knew what I was talking about.
Overall, the trip was for the most part horrible and now I remember why when I was tripping I told myself to not do salvia again (I definitely will though). I think my main problem was that I tried to fight it and communicate what was going on, which made the trip harder. It was pretty difficult not to fight it though, because of how real everything seemed - I was completely convinced that it was all really happening. Next time I do this I'm definitely going to be in a more comfortable setting and tell whoever I'm with at the time to remind me that I shouldn't fight it and just relax and let it come to me. It was a really interesting, though frightening experience and the first real trip I've ever had.
