Hypostatize
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My friend and I decided ahead of time to try the diviner’s sage – Salvia Divinorum. I’m fairly experienced with many types of drugs, and I was hoping this would give me internal sight. I wasn’t looking to get high, I was looking to help myself. My friend would try small doses (Which he has liked in the past), and I was going to go full force (I’ve tried small doses too and liked it). We went outside with my friend, another friend who wouldn’t be trying it, and my first friend’s wife, where it was FREEZING. Then we huddled around a small bbq pit type of deal with glowing hot coals in it. Then we broke out the Salvia.
He bought corn cob pipes for the occasion – Which was funny and fitting in a way. I took a few small hits of 10X Salvia. After some minor effects, I felt that I was ready. I packed the pipe with the 10X Salvia, and exhaled all the air I could. Then I put it to my lips, lit the torch and started inhaling with a constant burn on it. My friend was chanting, “Keep going, as much as you can”. And after awhile, I stopped and held it.
Here we go.
T+0:00 – I held it as long as I could, then exhaled.
T+0:01 - I start to feel the effects. It felt a lot like nitrous wah wahs. Kind of phase
shifting from behind that was overtaking me. Nothing too horrible.
T+0:03 – It intensifies slowly, coming over the top of me. It’s both mental and physical. I slowly tilt my head back and close my eyes to try and slip into it (Much like Nitrous). Starting to get some visuals.
T+0:04 – Still intensifying. I open my eyes, and now as I look, the phases are visual, and I actually see them as being numbered. Each of the numbers/phases is a different “dimension”. I realize that one of the numbers (6) is “reality”, and that I probably should get back to it. I start to panic, and think that this was all part of a cosmic plot to get me to try this, and that now they have me where they want me.
T+0:05 – I’m looking at everybody and I’m really scared. My friend’s wife looks at me and says, “Why are you looking at me like you don’t know who I am?”. However, in my condition, all I hear is – “You don’t know who I am”. NOW I’m scared. I figure that she's a different being. That everybody is. I need to get away. I wait for the “Reality” number to come up, and get up and try to make a run for it. My friends hold me back and are starting to get scared themselves, and say – “No no no, you’re not going anywhere, hold on”. And that REALLY terrifies me.
T+0:06 – I realize that I can’t escape all of this, so I sit back and let it happen. I’m guessing if I hadn’t done several other drugs and wasn’t familiar with experiences like this, that I’d really freak out. I let the waves come, I let the thoughts come. I let it happen. And slowly but surely I start to come back and realize what just happened.
T+0:10 – Back to baseline pretty much, with some slight after effects. I’m just sitting there marveling at this legal drug which tore me up more than anything LSD, LSA or anything else. They weren’t even close. My friends say that I was shaking in the middle of it like I was having a seizure.
In retrospect, I realized a few things:
1) Salvia (At least for me) was kind of like nitrous. Except as where nitrous takes you to another place where you’re euphoric and you feel like you’re going back to a familiar place and/or “Truth”, Salvia took me to a dysphoric, unfamiliar place that I didn’t want to be in.
2) I think that it would be different if I was lying in a bed, with quiet, and just one sitter. The less external influences you have, the better.
3) I don’t think I’m ever going to do Salvia again. I realized that it wasn’t going to give me any introspection, and that it was all something else. Just hallucinations. Perhaps what people think of as introspections and "Messages from Salvia", are really just hallucinating. I’m not saying that it doesn’t give ANYBODY introspection, etc. I’m just saying that it’s not for me.
From now on, I think I’ll stick with opiates.
He bought corn cob pipes for the occasion – Which was funny and fitting in a way. I took a few small hits of 10X Salvia. After some minor effects, I felt that I was ready. I packed the pipe with the 10X Salvia, and exhaled all the air I could. Then I put it to my lips, lit the torch and started inhaling with a constant burn on it. My friend was chanting, “Keep going, as much as you can”. And after awhile, I stopped and held it.
Here we go.
T+0:00 – I held it as long as I could, then exhaled.
T+0:01 - I start to feel the effects. It felt a lot like nitrous wah wahs. Kind of phase
shifting from behind that was overtaking me. Nothing too horrible.
T+0:03 – It intensifies slowly, coming over the top of me. It’s both mental and physical. I slowly tilt my head back and close my eyes to try and slip into it (Much like Nitrous). Starting to get some visuals.
T+0:04 – Still intensifying. I open my eyes, and now as I look, the phases are visual, and I actually see them as being numbered. Each of the numbers/phases is a different “dimension”. I realize that one of the numbers (6) is “reality”, and that I probably should get back to it. I start to panic, and think that this was all part of a cosmic plot to get me to try this, and that now they have me where they want me.
T+0:05 – I’m looking at everybody and I’m really scared. My friend’s wife looks at me and says, “Why are you looking at me like you don’t know who I am?”. However, in my condition, all I hear is – “You don’t know who I am”. NOW I’m scared. I figure that she's a different being. That everybody is. I need to get away. I wait for the “Reality” number to come up, and get up and try to make a run for it. My friends hold me back and are starting to get scared themselves, and say – “No no no, you’re not going anywhere, hold on”. And that REALLY terrifies me.
T+0:06 – I realize that I can’t escape all of this, so I sit back and let it happen. I’m guessing if I hadn’t done several other drugs and wasn’t familiar with experiences like this, that I’d really freak out. I let the waves come, I let the thoughts come. I let it happen. And slowly but surely I start to come back and realize what just happened.
T+0:10 – Back to baseline pretty much, with some slight after effects. I’m just sitting there marveling at this legal drug which tore me up more than anything LSD, LSA or anything else. They weren’t even close. My friends say that I was shaking in the middle of it like I was having a seizure.
In retrospect, I realized a few things:
1) Salvia (At least for me) was kind of like nitrous. Except as where nitrous takes you to another place where you’re euphoric and you feel like you’re going back to a familiar place and/or “Truth”, Salvia took me to a dysphoric, unfamiliar place that I didn’t want to be in.
2) I think that it would be different if I was lying in a bed, with quiet, and just one sitter. The less external influences you have, the better.
3) I don’t think I’m ever going to do Salvia again. I realized that it wasn’t going to give me any introspection, and that it was all something else. Just hallucinations. Perhaps what people think of as introspections and "Messages from Salvia", are really just hallucinating. I’m not saying that it doesn’t give ANYBODY introspection, etc. I’m just saying that it’s not for me.
From now on, I think I’ll stick with opiates.
