Salvia 20x - First Time - Walls closing in. Panic.

[pillpilot]

Set/Aims - Alone, darkened room. Ear plugs and incence. I am relaxed, and hoping to achieve something trancendental that might put meaning to the last few months. What happened, could not be further from this.

1st hit 0.2g - Think im feeling mildly relaxed and am getting into it. Suddenly, im up walking/crawling in a horseshoe around my bed laughing uncontrollably. Cant stop myself saying 'come on, you got to see this' even though there is nobody in the room and i know that i'm pointing at the carpet. The walking becomes frantic but i get back in bed.

Something in my mind has shifted, I find myself waiting on hallucinations which dont come. I figure the 1st hit must be over and so i take another large bowl. This seems like an ok thing to do, after all, overdoses are 'impossible' or so I thought.

2nd hit 0.2g - Holding it in for longer this time i start to feel my mind lift in a twisting motion from my body. Its almost like im looking down at my bed, but not quite. I feel like im in limbo between the two states. The journey, i'm sure i took as a child, a winding pathway that exists only in my room. I feel like i know the way and am trying to take it but something is holding me back. Eventualy i seperate and then the walls start to close in.

I know this is happening very slowly and am in part amazed by it. I sit and take it in for a few minutes, transfixed. I feel the danger that eventually the world (my room) will no longer exist. At this point, I decide I have to warn the rest of my housemates of whats happening. I stand for the door and the world starts to spin.

The one person I beg to come (still not sure on the actual conversation) is very anti-drugs. She is there with her boyfriend and another housemate along the hall.Think im leaning on my door swaying quite a bit but thats all i can remember.

By this point im boiling up but take time to sit down and try to regain my thoughts. Im back to some kind of reality knowing something about what just happened and realising i had to appologise. I go back to her room and knock, i try calling but no response. Back to my room, drink some water and knock it over.

Panic is well set in now. Not only at the walls but also a feeling of very real paranoia and isolation from my good friends of 3 years.

I'm in and out of the portal that has become my room but its grip is lessening on me. Maybe, i'm eventually coming down. Another incoherent mixed up conversation on the stairs and i try to call for a housemate to watch me. Eventually, we chill and watch some TV, the salvia wears off fully and we talk a bit about what just happened.

So, lessons learnt:

1) Always have a sitter you trust. I was going through an 'all my friends think i'm a druggie, this isnt going to help' phase. I'm sure someone would have sat for me, it would have stopped me making such an idiot of myself.

2) No matter how much you read/watch about salvia, be prepared for your own, completely different experience. The full extent of what I felt can never be put into words and as such can never be passed on.

3) Setting can sometimes help in achieving your goals. In this trip I found it completely irrelevant. Being no longer in control of the focussing aspects of my mind I was at the whim of salvia which took me far from my comfort zone and into another unexpected reality.

I have never taken LSD, but have read up on it extensivly. High doses of salvia i've read have given similar (albeit much shorter) experiences. What are peoples thoughts?

I was most suprised about 3) How has setting effected other users?

Any feedback would help me greatly.

Thanks


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[ombl4]

I read more and more about salvia and never heard that someone saw something beautiful lol
I first tried it myself inside the bathroom with 2 other friends did a huge rip and held it untill i stop realizing what and where i was lol I melted into walls and mine and everyone else's hands and legs didn't end they would just melt into walls and nothing had colors and i thought the only thing existed was this bathroom and at that time i didn't even know it was bathroom. So it freaked me out a little and what i thought was that until age 16 everyone is melted into walls but after everyone cuts themselves out, so i asked my friends why was i still melted in lol was stupid probobly, after about 10 min which for me was hours the door appeared and i walked out of it and set on the couch i didn't like it so i tried to sleep it out, but couldn't then my girlfriend called don't remember what i said but probobly wasn't anything good lol i was tripping for an hour which is long on salvia and hated it.
Later i tried it few more time but all the time i was inside and everytime i would melt into walls and i hated it, one time we smoke at walmart parking lot and i got out and was trembling around all fucked up and my boy driving behind me telling me to get in the car was crazy funny lol
Next and last time i did it was on the parking lot at night and i was outside, me and my boiy smoked the rest what we had about 1g and it was a lot we were tripping for 2-3 hr cuz we would do a hit right after it would start wearing off, i liked it though was very crazy though.
So yea i think setting matter as much as on any other psych drug.
BTW those amounts that u mentioned are too high imo i know that we bought a 3.5 g and it lasted for a long time between 4 dudes. U would trip like crazy motherfucker with if you did .2g in one hit