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(Salvia/20x) First time: Bad trip. Please help!

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dose: 1 bowl pack of salvia 20x

Its 11:46. I reach for the lighter as my friend hands me a bubbler with salvia in it, im not sure of the nurmerical amount (gram wise) but I take the bowl anyway. I've never smoked salvia before and this was my first out of this world experience with drugs. I have done mushrooms before and never had a trip as bad as this one. Back to the event I inhale on this bowl very deeply as to get the full effect, and I hold in my breath for 20 seconds. POW im am not longer a part of this world. The rules of gravity no longer apply in this trip as I start to see my world take on a layered effect. Unsure of how to control my brain I begin to panic. I start dwelling on the thought that I will stay in this infinite trip for as long as I live. Seconds in the real world turn into hour. I am still scared to death of my state of mind. 15 minutes pass. I. Rationalize with my self that the layered effects are over because 'its how long salvia lasts'. My friends around me begin talking about how the salvia bowls kicked our asses. My mental state is liquid. My brain has lost all trust in what's real and what is not. I am so worried I begin to feek my pulse rise and I feel sweaty. I try to solve my problems by heading back to my room in my dorm to go to sleep. Its now 5:11. I am still awake scared for my life thinking that all my life could be a simple mirage of layers that have now rules of gravity.

Will I ever return to a state of normalcy? Please help.
 
Salvia opened my perception to areas of reality that are not often considered by people and are almost impossible to put into words. Sometimes that is the scary thing; not being able to categorize the experience into anything that has been previously suggested to you.

Know that people have been to where you've been before and have enjoyed themselves, been inspired creatively and also terrified by ideas that are sometimes much, much larger than the human mind can comprehend in standard language. You are safe, you have been exposed to overwhelming concepts but they themselves are not dangerous to you. You have faculties enough to ask for help if you feel like you need it. You will feel more and more 'normal' the longer you don't take drugs.
 
Thanks im feeling a little better now that. I got some sleep, strange how my mind was only pacified through reading other peoples bad trip, I guess I just need to know that im not the only one.
 
I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Salvia, like a few other drugs, strips away what you know to be your reality. It can be very unsettling at times, especially the first time. You don't ever need to be afraid though. If you decide to try it again, make sure you're in a calm, meditative state of mind. Take comfort in the fact that there is no permanent salvia trip. But only try it again when you are 100% ready.
 
Yeah, I don't know if I will do it again, we will see...but im having trouble eating this morning are there any other ways to soothe my mind other than sleep?
 
i don't think you should be doing psychedelics in general. salvia is particularly scary/unwelcoming, i'll give you that, but if you are the type of person who is unsettled by thinking that your life is a mirage, you shouldn't be playing with these types of drugs, because thats exactly the type of thing they're going to tell you.

let me ask you this, if your life is a mirage, why is that a bad thing? your life doesn't count for anything anyway, and has no inherent meaning or purpose. you need to get over notions that life is something concrete or logical, or that your life has a storyline with a beginning and an end, and most importantly that you "deserve" anything (especially answers). your life is not like a movie. life is meaningless and confusing, and that's why its beautiful. you have to give it significance specific to yourself because on an objective level who you are and what you like to eat / how you like to dress / what you like to do are completely insignificant. 120 years from now (give or take a few) there will be all new people on the planet, nobody alive today will be alive then, and nobody is going to tell your story or care about you. so care about yourself while you're alive and make the most of it, and most importantly understand the significance of your own insignificance, because there is no god watching you, and no big book of all the shit you did in life - you're the only one who can fully appreciate yourself. so thinking that your life is a mirage is kind of irrelevant, because the word "mirage" implies that there is something illusory juxtaposed with something concrete, when by all accounts there is nothing concrete. whether or not your life is a mirage is irrelevant because so what if it is, nothing really matters. the day i truly grasped that concept i became a much happier and more well adjusted and selfless individual, although oddly enough that was years before i tried any psychedelic (unless you count marijuana). please don't construe this as offensive but i suggest that you try to do some thinking / reading / general-growing-up before you go any further with psychedelics. at the very least take a moment to honestly evaluate your reasons in using them because i think you might find that you don't have the most constructive of intentions.
 
You make a very good point, I have been thinking a lot since I did salvia and I think my mind is exhausted from so much thought. Being an amateur in psychadellic trips (mushrooms only) I didn't know what to expect with this drug and that's what unsettled my mind the most. I definitely, through this experience have drawed the line in the hard psychadellic drug world and I prolly wont do salvia again. So now I can move on with my life I glad that I had an experience like this and really shows how insignificant life is but I will enjoy it to its fullest extent while it lasts.
 
When I got on THE TERRORISER at a theme park, it turned upside down and spun around and I held on with all I had.

That's the fun of it.

Salvia convinces you you are in another reality and you better get used to it cos you're not going home, but what a relief when you come back, and then you spend a while in and out of lovely normality and being sucked into salvia land.


Afew days later lovely normal sucks dog balls its so boring, and freakyland starts looking more viable.

Etc for many years to come....
 
medical_meccanica said:
Salvia opened my perception to areas of reality that are not often considered by people and are almost impossible to put into words. Sometimes that is the scary thing; not being able to categorize the experience into anything that has been previously suggested to you.

Know that people have been to where you've been before and have enjoyed themselves, been inspired creatively and also terrified by ideas that are sometimes much, much larger than the human mind can comprehend in standard language. You are safe, you have been exposed to overwhelming concepts but they themselves are not dangerous to you. You have faculties enough to ask for help if you feel like you need it. You will feel more and more 'normal' the longer you don't take drugs.
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great explanation, really true.
 
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