I got my box of goodies in the mail yesterday. Among other things, it contained a tiny baggie with the words "Salvia 5x 1 gram" written on the label. The substance it contained was more brown then it was green, a little more flakey and powdery than the green stuff I'm used to smoking
My experience with psychedelics is very limited. Two ayahuasca failures, 50 hbwr seeds used up on different occasions with no effects. A 7-inch san pedro (very crude extraction) and 100 morning glory seeds (came free with what I ordered) with harmala produced very light effects before I got bored and went to bed. So I was still looking forward to my first real trip. Salvia was NOT what I would have prefered, but it was there, and it didn't require preparation, waiting for onset, 12+ hours of free time etc.
I wanted to experience it the first time some place outside, but more comfortable than out in the woods somewhere, and I also wanted to have someone friendly there with me. Since my friend Bs had made it clear than he wanted to try it, I went over to his place. We found a nice spot away from other people out in a local park, sat down on the lawn, and put a small amount of the brown stuff in a metal weed pipe with a screen. I was a bit worried about dosage since even my portable scale couldn't measure out such small amounts, so I started with a very small hit. I waited for something to happen. It didn't take long for me to feel something similar to a large dose of marijuana made me feel back in the day before tolerance. I did smoke up earlier in the day, which may have swayed my perception of the effects toward cannabis-like. This was definitely sub-breakthrough. Another small hit increased the effects a bit. The bowl was empty now so I put about twice as much in as I did before.
After waiting for the effects from the trial hits to fade, I decided it was time to get the full on effects, no holding back any longer. I took the biggest hit I could while holding the flame to the pipe the whole time. Held it in for an eternity. Exhaled.
The first traces of a trip started to manifest. It started as a simple perception change, things looked like they were at a slightly different angle, skewed to the right. The grass, my friend sitting across from me, everything in my field of vision. This wasn't enough for me, so I took another massive hit and finished what was in the bowl. Breakthrough. Things went odd fast. Reality was like a kaleidascope. Everything about my perception was very geometric, if that makes sense at all. I started noticing patterns in everything. The way the shape of the grass on the ground highlighted the shape of my friend, who highlighted the shape of the trees in the background. Organic shapes seemed more unnatural, like there were sharp corners everywhere. But the most amazing patterns were in time rather than space. The order that things happened. I was chewing gum at the time, and I felt like the rate at which I chewed dictated when other things happened. When I blinked, when my friend said something, when I moved, when my friend moved. It was a very alien feeling. Extremely hard to explain in words.
I was sitting there across from Bs observing all of this craziness, feeling very weird, seeing these patterns everywhere, and it was all very exciting and funny to me. I started to laugh. I very rarely laugh. Bs says "What?" I stop laughing to say "I don't know." Sit there for a bit longer until I start laughing again. "What?", "I don't know." This happened a couple times, and after my friend said "What?" about 5 times, fear struck me. Am I in a loop of some kind? Bs moves his hand a bit, I keep chewing my gum. How many times has this happened? Are we saying the exact same things and making the exact same movements over and over? While my conciousness is stuck in this loop am I really doing something else in reality? Have I gone crazy and went running around like a maniac? The only way to find out was to break this loop. I say to Bs "I think we better go back to the car." "Why?". Relief. Ah, this is all real, my friend has been saying only "What?" for some reason. The most intense part was finished. Over the next 10 minutes I started to return to normal. I went and swung on the swingset in the park for awhile.
Now its Bs's turn. I did not trust him much with any drug, but he wanted to try it so I let him after giving his a brief talk in an attempt to prepare him for the experience. He said he felt different as soon as he exhaled. He mentioned how everything looked shiny. Then he wanted to run around. He got up, started to run, then fell and rolled over. Repeated this a few times, he was laughing and having fun the whole time so I didn't try to calm him down. He said later it felt like the ground was being pulled out from under him like a carpet, and he felt like a little kid. He also mentioned how he also noticed odd patterns just like I did.
Later on we both met up with B and A. Bs told them about our experience and how "fun" it was and how he wants to get more and sit around while we all do it. (Before I let him try it I tried explaining to him how it was not a party drug, and should be taken much more seriously, but I guess he didn't listen) He told them about how he was running around and acting goofy, and B and A thought it would be great fun to see someone act like this. I told them I wasn't going to let Bs do any more (especially not for their enjoyment) but rather I would do it instead. I wish very much that I did not offer to do this.
My setting was a garage. Thats right, a fucking dirty, cluttered garage, with 3 people sitting around looking at me expecting me to do something funny. I obviously did not plan this out too well, and I'm sure I disrespected the salvia goddess. One big hit, and it was more than enough. Reality dissolved, effects very similar to the first time, but with a slightly different twist. For an instant I felt like I was in an unfamiliar place, time was frozen, I chewed my gum once, reality split in half. I chewed my gum again, reality split into fourths. With each successive chew, in my head, things started to resolve back towards normal (yet still far from it), and things started to speed up to a normal pace. My friends who wanted me to act like a wild man didn't get what they expected, I got offended when they told me to get up and run around like an idiot. I was still in a very uncomfortable place and mindset, I wanted nothing but to return to normal, and to be away from these people. When the effects faded completely it was the best feeling in the world.
I found it interesting that in both experiences, the gum I was chewing had a big impact on what was happening, during the experiences it felt very important in my mouth, something so small and meaningless as chewing gum was controlling the whole universe from my perspective. The other thing that stood out was the patterns in everything, it felt like everything was already planned to happened just like it was, I didn't feel like I was living 'in the moment', but instead I was observing it all ahead of time. I feel like I could have learned alot more had I been able to just sit back and think about it all during the trip rather than have people around asking me what was happening.
I plan on saving whats left for a more spiritual journey, something I can learn from rather than being wreckless. Now I'm interested in getting ahold of some of the whole leaf and trying sublingual use and some less intense smoking experiences.
My experience with psychedelics is very limited. Two ayahuasca failures, 50 hbwr seeds used up on different occasions with no effects. A 7-inch san pedro (very crude extraction) and 100 morning glory seeds (came free with what I ordered) with harmala produced very light effects before I got bored and went to bed. So I was still looking forward to my first real trip. Salvia was NOT what I would have prefered, but it was there, and it didn't require preparation, waiting for onset, 12+ hours of free time etc.
I wanted to experience it the first time some place outside, but more comfortable than out in the woods somewhere, and I also wanted to have someone friendly there with me. Since my friend Bs had made it clear than he wanted to try it, I went over to his place. We found a nice spot away from other people out in a local park, sat down on the lawn, and put a small amount of the brown stuff in a metal weed pipe with a screen. I was a bit worried about dosage since even my portable scale couldn't measure out such small amounts, so I started with a very small hit. I waited for something to happen. It didn't take long for me to feel something similar to a large dose of marijuana made me feel back in the day before tolerance. I did smoke up earlier in the day, which may have swayed my perception of the effects toward cannabis-like. This was definitely sub-breakthrough. Another small hit increased the effects a bit. The bowl was empty now so I put about twice as much in as I did before.
After waiting for the effects from the trial hits to fade, I decided it was time to get the full on effects, no holding back any longer. I took the biggest hit I could while holding the flame to the pipe the whole time. Held it in for an eternity. Exhaled.
The first traces of a trip started to manifest. It started as a simple perception change, things looked like they were at a slightly different angle, skewed to the right. The grass, my friend sitting across from me, everything in my field of vision. This wasn't enough for me, so I took another massive hit and finished what was in the bowl. Breakthrough. Things went odd fast. Reality was like a kaleidascope. Everything about my perception was very geometric, if that makes sense at all. I started noticing patterns in everything. The way the shape of the grass on the ground highlighted the shape of my friend, who highlighted the shape of the trees in the background. Organic shapes seemed more unnatural, like there were sharp corners everywhere. But the most amazing patterns were in time rather than space. The order that things happened. I was chewing gum at the time, and I felt like the rate at which I chewed dictated when other things happened. When I blinked, when my friend said something, when I moved, when my friend moved. It was a very alien feeling. Extremely hard to explain in words.
I was sitting there across from Bs observing all of this craziness, feeling very weird, seeing these patterns everywhere, and it was all very exciting and funny to me. I started to laugh. I very rarely laugh. Bs says "What?" I stop laughing to say "I don't know." Sit there for a bit longer until I start laughing again. "What?", "I don't know." This happened a couple times, and after my friend said "What?" about 5 times, fear struck me. Am I in a loop of some kind? Bs moves his hand a bit, I keep chewing my gum. How many times has this happened? Are we saying the exact same things and making the exact same movements over and over? While my conciousness is stuck in this loop am I really doing something else in reality? Have I gone crazy and went running around like a maniac? The only way to find out was to break this loop. I say to Bs "I think we better go back to the car." "Why?". Relief. Ah, this is all real, my friend has been saying only "What?" for some reason. The most intense part was finished. Over the next 10 minutes I started to return to normal. I went and swung on the swingset in the park for awhile.
Now its Bs's turn. I did not trust him much with any drug, but he wanted to try it so I let him after giving his a brief talk in an attempt to prepare him for the experience. He said he felt different as soon as he exhaled. He mentioned how everything looked shiny. Then he wanted to run around. He got up, started to run, then fell and rolled over. Repeated this a few times, he was laughing and having fun the whole time so I didn't try to calm him down. He said later it felt like the ground was being pulled out from under him like a carpet, and he felt like a little kid. He also mentioned how he also noticed odd patterns just like I did.
Later on we both met up with B and A. Bs told them about our experience and how "fun" it was and how he wants to get more and sit around while we all do it. (Before I let him try it I tried explaining to him how it was not a party drug, and should be taken much more seriously, but I guess he didn't listen) He told them about how he was running around and acting goofy, and B and A thought it would be great fun to see someone act like this. I told them I wasn't going to let Bs do any more (especially not for their enjoyment) but rather I would do it instead. I wish very much that I did not offer to do this.
My setting was a garage. Thats right, a fucking dirty, cluttered garage, with 3 people sitting around looking at me expecting me to do something funny. I obviously did not plan this out too well, and I'm sure I disrespected the salvia goddess. One big hit, and it was more than enough. Reality dissolved, effects very similar to the first time, but with a slightly different twist. For an instant I felt like I was in an unfamiliar place, time was frozen, I chewed my gum once, reality split in half. I chewed my gum again, reality split into fourths. With each successive chew, in my head, things started to resolve back towards normal (yet still far from it), and things started to speed up to a normal pace. My friends who wanted me to act like a wild man didn't get what they expected, I got offended when they told me to get up and run around like an idiot. I was still in a very uncomfortable place and mindset, I wanted nothing but to return to normal, and to be away from these people. When the effects faded completely it was the best feeling in the world.
I found it interesting that in both experiences, the gum I was chewing had a big impact on what was happening, during the experiences it felt very important in my mouth, something so small and meaningless as chewing gum was controlling the whole universe from my perspective. The other thing that stood out was the patterns in everything, it felt like everything was already planned to happened just like it was, I didn't feel like I was living 'in the moment', but instead I was observing it all ahead of time. I feel like I could have learned alot more had I been able to just sit back and think about it all during the trip rather than have people around asking me what was happening.
I plan on saving whats left for a more spiritual journey, something I can learn from rather than being wreckless. Now I'm interested in getting ahold of some of the whole leaf and trying sublingual use and some less intense smoking experiences.
