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ChinaCat13

ChinaCat13

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Hey all. I've had my share of ups and down with the dope game. Been clean a while. 2 years. My problem is this. I've been getting aura migraines for about 4 years now. The first 2 years it only happened a couple times. I would start to feel light headed, then one of my eyes would get blurry and fill with a colored prisim that would totally block my vision. About an hour later the migraine would set in and not go away until I took something strong enough to kill it. Usually I'd end up in the ER, and they'd shoot me with dilaudid and it would go away in about a half hour. Now for the last 2 years, I seem to have a migraine for 2 weeks straight out of each month. NOTHING makes the pain go away except strong opiates. NOTHING. Also because I have high blood pressure, I'm not supposed to take migraine meds (which don't work anyway). I also have degenerative disk disease in L3 & 4 and arthritis in my lower back. Most days I struggle to get out of bed. I don't want to go back to being addicted to opiates, but I don't know what else to do. First it just made me feel sorry for myself, now I'm just pissed. I feel so helpless. I shouldn't have to live in this much pain almost daily, it's torture. Fucking outright torture. I don't know how much longer I can deal with it honestly. My family is against me taking opiates for pain because of my past addiction, but they have no idea what it's like to be me every day. This isn't some made up shit so I can use drugs, I am in real pain here. Any suggestions?
 
Unfortunately when it comes to chronic pain there is not alot you can substitute for opiates, I have a friend who uses long term for a slipped disc in his back and nothing else works for him and hes tried it all. Im sorry I couldnt be more helpfull and I hope u find a suitable solution ASAP.
 
Thanks Ronnie. I don't have much hope for finding a substitute. I don't mind taking opiates for pain really, it's the long term use that has me worried. I hate to think I will be like your friend and have to be on them for the rest of my life. It's a choice I have to make, to live nearly pain free and be an addict, plus all the side effects from the drugs, or suffer. Either way there will be suffering I imagine. Ugh. I've been migraine free for a little over a week now, but can feel it coming on. Research tells me that with the back problems I have, it effects my whole spinal cord, up to my neck, which I can definately feel right now. My whole body hurts. The combo migraine/backache is almost too much to deal with. I think my liver is shot from eating bottle after bottle of naproxen which doesn't work. I have never been able to get a GP to write me a script for pain meds, and can't afford pain management. I don't have insurance. It's almost easier to be a junkie these days. That's sad.
 
Have you tried chiropractic or manipulative physiotherapy? if you're lower back isnt right then it can lead to migraines etc. Who knows maybe its worth giving it a try. Best case scenario is you wouldnt need to take anymore pain meds:)
Hope u feel better soon.
 
I would just hope that the migraines aren't stemming from a tumor. That's how one of my friend found out he had a brain tumor (he survived).
 
I have vertiginous migraine syndrome with aura and I take verapamil. Haven't had an episode in a year when I was having them almost daily, for several hours at a time. It will not affect your hypertension, as it has a tendency (as a calcium channel blocker) to lower blood pressure.

Have you seen a neurologist?
 
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