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rachel01801

rachel01801

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Lately I have been sad and stressed I have actually been thinking about suicide my stomach has been hurting really bad from being stressed I been sober almost two years I got sober from the help of my boyfriend who is abusive in everyway and im in a state that im not from and only know him I feel stuck and alone and scared everything is catching up to me and I cry all time I just dont know where to turn....
 
matrixmonkey said:
Maybe leave your abusive bf?
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This would be the first thing that comes to mind. If the guy is abusive towards you, of course it's going to mess with your self-esteem. Do you have any family members or friends that you can lean on? Even going to a shelter for a while so you can get the help and resources you desperately need. You need to gain some independence and learn that you are a good person. Don't let this man continue to abuse you, get some help! We are here for you! <3
 
Don't kill yourself, you're worth more than that. Your abusive boyfriend may have helped get you sober, but it was most likely just a form of control. Like Calderone said, even a shelter would be a good option if you don't have anybody else to turn to.
 
Leave your abusive boyfriend. Seriously go to a friend's house, family member's house, or to a women's shelter type place ASAP.
 
Abuse is one of the very worst things in the world for your self-esteem and sense of self-worth. I am willing to bet that the VAST majority of your problems lie squarely on the lap of your shitty abusive boyfriend and the emotional damage he has dealt to you. People like that don't deserve you. He is the problem, not you. You need to escape that situation as soon as you possibly can, even if it means you'll be on your own and have to live with a friend, family or even a shelter for a while. Once you are free of his abuse, you will begin to heal and you will, in time, find that you feel good about yourself again, and you'll wonder how you ever let yourself get into that situation.

Stay strong, and PLEASE understand that we're telling the truth about this. You have an opportunity to remove the poison in your life and take yourself back from the brink. And please also feel lucky that in the midst of this you were able to get past your addiction because that's one less thing you're going to have to deal with. At this point the negativity in your life is entirely put there by someone else. Abusers are pieces of shit and you need to understand that and realize your own self-worth enough to remove him from your life. No one deserves that. <3
 
I have been through physical abuse years ago OP and i understand how you feel and what you are going through but you have to find the courage to leave. After almost a year of it i have had enough and even if i loved him so much I left and that was one of the best decisions I made in my life. I was tired of it, not only the pain but I was tired of being the victim almost my entire life with so much shit. Like what everyone else have said you are worth the love and care from people around you. You have to tell yourself that your well-being is the most important for you to get your life back.Please leave while you can OP i have left so can you!!!
 
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I havent been on here in so long thanks for all the replys i am doing much better now im still with the same guy but he has got much better he also has issues im working on getting the strength to leave its easier to stay change is scary and i have no family that i can turn to and i have no friends in Massachusetts ive considered shelters i have made a agreement with my myself that if he hits me again im leaving i have numbers for shelters thanks for the support thiz website is awesome
 
Maybe find some meetings for abuse that you can go to and meet some people that have been through what you are going through. J hate to say it but he probably won't get better. Take care


rachel01801 said:
I havent been on here in so long thanks for all the replys i am doing much better now im still with the same guy but he has got much better he also has issues im working on getting the strength to leave its easier to stay change is scary and i have no family that i can turn to and i have no friends in Massachusetts ive considered shelters i have made a agreement with my myself that if he hits me again im leaving i have numbers for shelters thanks for the support thiz website is awesome
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